NASADD Social - We Live on the Cusp of Death Thinking it Won't be Us

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Nope this

ok so i got a story,

where to start

when me n my ex broke up she left me for another dude, well after it was over we still hung out n fucked for like the next 2 or 3 days, well on one of those days im not real sure which one i went upstairs to take a dump n while i was dumpin i was like " i should spooge all over the pillows new guy is gonna be using, so while i was on the crapper i started fappin one out, n then i walked into the bed room n finished all over the pillows that he would be using, she has 5 pillows n uses the same 3 the 2 i spooged on were the ones i used to use.

anyways i know it was super petty and immature but in a wierd sorta way it made me feel better, i mean the night i found out he wouldnt look me in the eyes or say a word to me n it just pissed me off cuz i was lookin for him to do or say anything for me to hit him, i cussed him out punked him out whatever you wanna call he just hung his head wouldnt make eye contact n wouldnt say a word, part of the reason i didnt do anything is cuz i was waiting for him to set me off, part of it was cuz i was on probation n i didnt want the cops commin (ive had neighboors call the cops on us before when me n her we just shouting at eachother) i had a few felonies in my possession if the cops started snoopin around and honestly at that point to me it was just like 'your not worth goin to jail over, fool me once shame on you fool me twice shame on me sorta thing' but anyways i never got that physical gratification outta that dude so it seemed decent at the time to know while he is lying down at night with her he is lying down in a face full of my spooge

well last week i was kickin over at her place in between classes, we still talk hang out n are friends, but she had a mock interview to go to so i took her up there n started watching breaking bad, well the show ended n i got a hankerin for a fap, so i did, while i was fapppin i was like " i should go bust on those pillows again" so i did. but then shortly after i finished i had to get her from her interview n she took me up to my class i was waiting on, well literally like 10 mins after i got into class she txt me "why did you come all over my pillows"

the thing is she had my car keys from droppin me off at class so i had to go n talk to her after the fact, she accused me off tryin to make him think she was cheatin on him n not wanting her to be happy n honestly those thoughts had never crossed my mind, n i told her no i did it for my own personal gratification knowin when he lays his head down at night he its a face full of my spunk. anyways she was mad but she got over it. but then she surprised me and asked " thats not the first time youve done that is it, you did it once before too right?" n i was like yea shortly after we broke up while i was still sleepin here.

and i asked her did he sleep in it, and she said yea he slept in it for 2 nights beofre she realised the pillow was covered in spooge but that she didnt think anything of it cuz i always pulled out n shit got everywhere.

so the story is she found it like a hound dog the second time but the first time was a 2 night success. then she was like i am gonna tell him about this, i assume she told me she was gonna tell him cuz she wanted me to be like " nope dont tell him" but i wanted her to tell him i wanted her to tell him he slept on it for a few nights i want him to get mad n come confront me, but she said she wasnt gonna tell him about the first time n i just replied "you n i will always know"

anyways not sure why i am tellin yall this now but i am bored n this social is slow
 
nice score nowdub, you stud :P must admit i'm rather jelly.

so after waiting for my doc, who was 45mins behind, finally got my diazepam and morphine refilled and after 200mg morphine IV'd with 25mg valium initially, and another 10mg just now with my coffee, i must say i'm floating on cloud 9.

i've left my pills with the father to prevent me from getting out of control and assuring i don't end up short on christmas and new years - the last thing i need/want to happen after these last few runs. it would be the worst time to not have anything, especially new years night. a man needs to get high and party that night regardless. will definitely be getting myself some top shelf whiskey to drink as well.

feeling like a god.

nbd;js.

and lol at JB's location:D
 
Sup fuckers? Been a while since I've been on BL during the day.

Home sick from work today. Definitely didn't need to take the whole day off I could have rolled in a couple hours late but half the shop is sick so I'm sure they understand. I was planning on going in at like 10 but I went back to sleep after I called and didn't wake up till 12:30 so I said fuck it and stayed home.
 
well fuck, nothin at all happened yesterday


man goin back a few years, like 4 or 5 i really thought something big was gonna happen on 12/21/12

i was never thinkin zombies or the apocolypse or anything like that but i was definately thinkin something big was gonna happen, some thing profound

more recently i was thinkin maybe there will be like this global shift in consciousness or something similar n profound

but i didnt even realise yesterday was the 21 til like 7 o'clock last night when someone asked me to come to an end of the world party.

i feel let down.
 
You and me both brother. I feel cheated out of the zombie apocalypse. Maybe we'll still get that paradigm shift in consciousness but, so far all I've seen that was any different was PSY perform a xmas version of gangnam style in front of the president and his family. Maybe the prince and Kate's baby will be the antichrist or something.
 
I sold everything I had and used all my money to do the whole end of the world bender and now I feel cheated.
 
i had a shot of morphine with some valium to celebrate. washing it down with a few glasses of the JD Honey i bought myself. i've fallen in love with this shit.

i'm able to have a couple valium upon waking and have a drink every couple hours, keeping a constant buzz going all day. the nice relaxing kind of buzz where i'm motivated and am getting shit done as well, instead of being depressed over it being this time of the year.

get drugged and drunk all day e'ryday! YOLO!
 
i love jack daniels and especially love this honey blend. it's not something i'd drink every weekend, though. something for special occasions like now, christmas and new years time.

i've dropped out a few times myself but never lost my pulse as far as i'm aware. definitely been unconscious and come to soon after thankfully. the first time it happened the main culprits were valium, fentanyl and oxycodone after a bit of a tolerance break. i woke up on the kitchen floor with a banging headache where i knocked my head on the way falling down.

my weed is on it's way to being delivered. can't wait till it gets here. i'm going to chop around 2 grams and smoke myself retarded until i pass out. i'm already pretty benzo'd and opiated so don't expect to make it through 2 grams but will give it a good go. getting a half ounce to smoke over the holidays so should last a good while with all the morphine and valium i'm using which is keeping me rather doped up as it is. i only need 2 or 3 cones and i'm good and well stoned to the point i don't really need anymore, but i love pulling bongs all night, falling asleep and waking up to pull another cone than fall asleep again and repeat until i decide i've had enough and just let myself pass out and fall asleep properly, for good, unable to smoke anymore to the dome. may as well do things right around here!
 
I've got a bottle of Jack Single Barrel myself that I've been enjoying on special occasions. Just had some yesterday with a friend of mine actually. I'm probably gonna finish it on Christmas. Pretty good stuff though I'm more of a Scotch guy. I've received it as a gift a couple times, and I do enjoy it a lot but if I were spending my own money I'd have to go with Johnnie.

I've never died that I know of, but come pretty close before. I've fallen out once on Opana and another time with a combo of dope, benzos, and benadryl. I woke up slumped over in this very chair an un-determined amount of time later and it was obvious that I wasn't breathing for a while (arms legs and face were all tingling like when your foot falls asleep, splitting headache, super dehydrated, really pale skin). It was scary shit but it's nothing compared to actually dying. That's nuts. Made me think about how easy it would be to fuck up end up dead.

Lol, I have a friend of mine who's on his third life right now and neither death was drug related. Some people man, idk if that means he's just really supposed to stay alive or if he's not meant to be here and just keeps getting lucky.
 
Haha nice, Bad Santa is on comedy central. I fucking love this movie. Never actually seen the regular version which is what I'm sure this one is being on TV and all, I've only seen Badder Santa (which can only be funnier, but nonetheless it's still pretty funny).
 
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