ohline
Bluelighter
ew.... jesus.
well,my gf & I broke up. I've been back in the bed for days either crying or asleep or crying myself to sleep...
somebody tell me something good.
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My car broke down in front of the dope house
Titties. Those are something good.
We still love you skillz. I am sorry to hear that tho.
Can I ask what happened? I understand if you don't want to talk about it.
titties are good! lol
long story short,my meds were changed a cpl weeks ago( i am bipolar-11years in therapy and on meds)and it threw me into an almost week long depression. i was asleep and pathetic and unaware and she said i abandoned her and wouldn't acknowledge her while her dad is having health problems and her older dog was sick too. and i understand that but she has never accepted my illness. and i live in spite of it...i had a near fatal car accident in jan 06 bc i was texting on an interstate in a work zone going 70mph and did not notice traffic had stopped. i looked up in time to gasp b4 plowing into the back of an 18 wheeler-going 70mph to zero bc i ddnt have time to hit the brakes. i have severe PTSD and i have become a bit agoraphobic. but i am seeing THREE therapists-one is my psychiatrist of 11 years. i am trying so hard.(and all of this on top of getting of IV meth and IV opes ON MY OWN almost 2 years ago.i went through hell to get off that shit and i did it to not lose her as well as bc i was going to die if my life kept on like that). im so sad. i am out of weed. im shooting up MPH-which i have an RX for(still no excuse)-with dull needles(and i had a MRSA Staph infection 18 months ago from this very thing),but i am out of my ADD med which is good.now im eating xanax and high doses of gabapentin-i work it so i take low doses most of the month and can take a high dose and feel good a few days out of 30-and waiting on the weed guy.
i know drug talk not allowed but i am seriously sad. i would NEVER kill myself. i have made that promise to my family bc the dozen attempts i have had since 15 have shown me how much that hurts ppl who love you. so i am not gonna kill myself but i wldnt be upset if a plane fell out of the sky and killed me. i am just so empty and sad![]()