Coulda been anything. In MA if you get any drug charge the registry pulls your license for I think a year at first.
not a year. I picked up trafficking/distribution back in 02 and was a fed case. only lost the license for 6 months. then about a year go I picked up a OUI and only lost the license for 6 months again (had a workers license after a month 7AM-7PM). I know a few others who have picked up charges even more recent and have yet to, or only lost, for the 6 months mentioned. there is also a difference between state and fed. sometimes the feds forget to let the registry know. this actually happened to me when I was picked up and then I made the mistake of going to the registry and asking what is up w/ my license; meanwhile, nothing was "up with it" until I basically sold myself out. what a moron I was at the age of 20/21! funny cuz you learn more about life on the inside than outside; depending on where you from, what youre doing and who youre with.
anyway, somewhat new here to the board. been reading for a while but just registered the other day due to some thread. just look at the name and you see where im from and what the problem is. ive actually been somehwat under control as of late (over last month or so). somehow, someway put 9 days sobriety together, after about 5-7 days withdrawals. then used. then put 4 together. then used. then put 4 more on top of that... and guess what? used again. straight dope fiend here. was prescribed xannies for a while but NEVER got into them somehow. the more I read about how bad the withdrawals were from xanny the more it made me want to cut the script. finally, going back about a month ago, I told the dr. to cut the script. was getting 90/mo of the .5's but would blast through or give away within 15 days, if that. never picked up the addiction/withdrawals somehow. never did a thing for me. id use to sleep, or actually kill my anxiety (which is what they are for, right?). at times id take w/ my dope and be pissed cuz they knocked me on my ass and I didnt get to enjoy the dope. fiuck benzo's. fuck all drugs! it's what im trying to do now but never easy. i MAY have kicked the physical addiction but that mental fucker still gets you. like i said, went 9 and day 10 i was fiendingggggggg! like i said again, went 4 days and day 5 i was fiendingggggggggg. on the ride to grab i was smiling from ear to ear, so you could tell there was no physical harm, but the mental though of the drug brightens the day. sad, huh?
like I said, im new.. so HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! been in the "game" since I was 15.. im 30! ouch! and by game I just mean doing drugs, not necessarily addicted. I even put 6 years sobriety in there from 21/22 - 27/28 then fell back to where I once/never was, dope fiend. even back in the oxy days here in Boston I was addicted to selling but not doing. dont get me wrong, I used them, and used more than your average man but when thrown away there were no withdrawals, just me being miserable for being thrown away. ended up early release into a 9 month "program" and 1 year in a sober house. under supervision about 2-3 of those 6 years sober. trying again now to put ALL BEHIND ME AND BE THE SOBER MAN I ONCE WAS. i am staying away from subox; they never did anything for me anyway. i tried before but would take 2MG to 16MG a day but still want to get jammed seconds/minutes/hours later. and id go out and buy the dope and do it regardless. they never killed the urge/craving, nevermind the sickness. dope sick sucks, I know.. but you gotta do what you gotta do. fiending sucks even more. hate feeling fine but yet my mind is occupied by this drug. i need something to kill that feeling.. and from what I can tell, the only thing is to stay the fuck away as long as I can. might give that Vivatrol shot a try.. anyone here familiar/try/on it? Let me know your thoughts. Once a month and kicks the feeling/habit for 28/days min, or so they say. although, I have a few "friends" who tell me they can still shoot and feel it depending on the dope.
like I said before, hello all!
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