I am a college graduate, and I have a job that is kinda in my field, I studied biology and chemistry and now I work as a lab tech in a dairy food processing plant.
3 Months ago I had my 3 month review and I got a raise.
Today I had my 6 month review and I was denied my raise because my performance has gone down.
It has depressed me so much.
I work graveyards, and they are 12 hour shifts. Adjusting to that schedule was really difficult, I started doping stimulents because I couldn't sleep during the day. I eventually started doing them just to get through the day (Meth, 4-FA, MPA, a-pvp). I don't think I ever got severly addicted, but the withdrawels were there. As of today, I have been clean for about one week from stimulants.
With this denial of my raise, which I was really looking forward, I feel like something has to change. I already stopped doing uppers, I will kick the pot habit now.
Will I still have my fun drug nights with my girlfriend though (usually MDMA or whatever RC I bought earlier that week) ? I think I should cut that out too.
Just thought I would share my thoughts about how a not-so-tragic but very negative event made me rethink my drug habit.
And with that said, I will probably start up again after I find another job! :D
(I spent my time today working my resume and applying for jobs, rather than getting stoned and watching the newest season of Breaking Bad....)
but until then....... I miss them already. 8(
3 Months ago I had my 3 month review and I got a raise.
Today I had my 6 month review and I was denied my raise because my performance has gone down.
It has depressed me so much.
I work graveyards, and they are 12 hour shifts. Adjusting to that schedule was really difficult, I started doping stimulents because I couldn't sleep during the day. I eventually started doing them just to get through the day (Meth, 4-FA, MPA, a-pvp). I don't think I ever got severly addicted, but the withdrawels were there. As of today, I have been clean for about one week from stimulants.
With this denial of my raise, which I was really looking forward, I feel like something has to change. I already stopped doing uppers, I will kick the pot habit now.
Will I still have my fun drug nights with my girlfriend though (usually MDMA or whatever RC I bought earlier that week) ? I think I should cut that out too.
Just thought I would share my thoughts about how a not-so-tragic but very negative event made me rethink my drug habit.
And with that said, I will probably start up again after I find another job! :D
(I spent my time today working my resume and applying for jobs, rather than getting stoned and watching the newest season of Breaking Bad....)
but until then....... I miss them already. 8(
