llbadgerll
Greenlighter
Ok I really dont care about grammar this time im just gona type it as it is "LIVE"....I have just taken 6 vicodins for the first time. but STILL have a VERY addictive vicodin history. I basically took this after drinking 1 24. fl oz. four loko in order to stop from relapsing into meth once again after a drinking bringe. i want to do meth so bad its not even funny! but i have a familt to care after so i looked for an alternate route. I injested he 6 5/500 mg vicodin about 15 min ago and am still waiting for its effects. nothing yet but feeling very hot......odd. but yeah
it is currently exactly 6:50 pm. i took them at 6:35ish. i have been off meth for about 2 months. and find it very hard to not relapase especially since im moving 187 miles away from my home town with my gf and baby in 5 days and want t0 have 1 last good high. BUT I REFUSE! i am drunk right now and am battling my urges. the vicodin hasnt kicked in yet, and am typing this as i wait to clear things up on my situation which will make the experience all the more relatible. i ahve been doing these vicodin almost eery day since i quit the meth these past 2 months since my sobriety. THEY REALLY HELP ALOT! because of the semi euphoria, just with 3 (at first) but 6 should hopefully put me up there!
it is now 6:54 and i think i feel them! i feel really relaxed. i know its not a meth rush, but the more i think about meth the worse the high of these vicodins get..... so i need to clear my addicted mind already!!!!!. ummmm i was feeling i should pass out cuz i was so buzzed off of the alcohol, but now i feel for stimulated. ( i get energized by narcotics for some reason) I am constantley thinking about meth! (this is my first time drinking since i quit meth as well, so i am really in battle mode) I can do this! this is really one of the hardest things i have done because meth was the d.o.c of my 6 year addiction life! I have learned alot of possitive things since i quit that i am proud of since i can say im sober. i basically feel really relaxed and just want to chat. I will get back to you tomorrow to tell u if i ever relapsed into meth. (hopefully i wont) please pray for me or something guys, and stay safe! as always, your everyday addict.
----llbadgerll
it is currently exactly 6:50 pm. i took them at 6:35ish. i have been off meth for about 2 months. and find it very hard to not relapase especially since im moving 187 miles away from my home town with my gf and baby in 5 days and want t0 have 1 last good high. BUT I REFUSE! i am drunk right now and am battling my urges. the vicodin hasnt kicked in yet, and am typing this as i wait to clear things up on my situation which will make the experience all the more relatible. i ahve been doing these vicodin almost eery day since i quit the meth these past 2 months since my sobriety. THEY REALLY HELP ALOT! because of the semi euphoria, just with 3 (at first) but 6 should hopefully put me up there!
it is now 6:54 and i think i feel them! i feel really relaxed. i know its not a meth rush, but the more i think about meth the worse the high of these vicodins get..... so i need to clear my addicted mind already!!!!!. ummmm i was feeling i should pass out cuz i was so buzzed off of the alcohol, but now i feel for stimulated. ( i get energized by narcotics for some reason) I am constantley thinking about meth! (this is my first time drinking since i quit meth as well, so i am really in battle mode) I can do this! this is really one of the hardest things i have done because meth was the d.o.c of my 6 year addiction life! I have learned alot of possitive things since i quit that i am proud of since i can say im sober. i basically feel really relaxed and just want to chat. I will get back to you tomorrow to tell u if i ever relapsed into meth. (hopefully i wont) please pray for me or something guys, and stay safe! as always, your everyday addict.
----llbadgerll
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i just went to my girlfriends house. (nice and calm) and went to sleep. I realize that I have an addiciton problem and am working on it. Its only been 2 months and i think im doing fine compared to how i used to be regardless of what anyone says...as long as im sober. If i relapse i admit it would seem selfish and immature of me. but i didnt. thanks again for reading this and i would love to talk with anyone else who feels the same way as i do.
