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Greenlighter
- Joined
- Mar 23, 2006
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I am relatively healthy, I've been in a poly-drug use pattern for about five years and in the past couple I've had some serious downs and some steady periods. A couple months ago I went to jail for something semi-drug related and my family, who thought I merely had problems with drugs in the past, got in the know.
For a little while after the incident I stayed clean, kept away from everyone, and had a nice drug-free honeymoon period. Then I relapsed when a friend came over with benzos, since then it's been back to the norm, going back and forth between assorted benzos and opiates (mostly opana) and always some pot.
I feel bad because I have a great family that's really rooting for me, especially my mother, and they're still under the impression that I'm doing well. It's not the end of the world, I'm not addicted physically to anything and I don't see myself ODing, but I actually do desire to not do this shit anymore. I just wish I wouldn't have started, though that's a moot point now.
Drug addiction seems to have touched every man in my family when they were younger and their wives because of it. My father wasn't so lucky and ended up contracting hep c. He's dead now. I just want to put it behind me and be one of those guys that "used to have a problem" or "used to dabble" but is cool now.
For a little while after the incident I stayed clean, kept away from everyone, and had a nice drug-free honeymoon period. Then I relapsed when a friend came over with benzos, since then it's been back to the norm, going back and forth between assorted benzos and opiates (mostly opana) and always some pot.
I feel bad because I have a great family that's really rooting for me, especially my mother, and they're still under the impression that I'm doing well. It's not the end of the world, I'm not addicted physically to anything and I don't see myself ODing, but I actually do desire to not do this shit anymore. I just wish I wouldn't have started, though that's a moot point now.
Drug addiction seems to have touched every man in my family when they were younger and their wives because of it. My father wasn't so lucky and ended up contracting hep c. He's dead now. I just want to put it behind me and be one of those guys that "used to have a problem" or "used to dabble" but is cool now.