This is a story a man on the street told me today.... figured i'd share it 
I am very new here so not sure if this is where I should even post this.. But here it goes, I was on a 300-450mg avergae daily dose of oxycodone....taken nasally. I found a way to access life insurance funds from my father dying 2 years ago, which I am sick about and is one of the reasons I decided enough was enough. Its only been 11 days so take my advice for what its worth. But I went through this withdrawel with very little issues other than insomnia which I may have intensified from some of my recomendations.
But here it goes.... 12 Days ago I took my last roxy, I waited about 12 hours ( I have found I can never wait the full "suggested" 24 hours before taking a sub, I would always just score before feeling too bad) So I decided I was just going to do it and planned my morning/afternoon on the fact I may very well be in precipitated withdrawel, but in my mind to be sick and wanting to die for an hour or so was worth it to get this demon off my back. So I had someone take my 3 year old son that I have full custody of, and I broke 1 suboxene into 4 quarters. I crushed up a quarter and took it nasally (I have found I get double the effect over putting it under my tongue, which may be psychologically, but it still works for me) I then proceeded to lay down in bed and curl up in a ball for about 2 hours, stretching, yawning, yelling, and hating everything. A big part of me felt I at least deserved some suffering for the things I had done to family, myself, and my son. Plus it gave me a strong thing to think about if I ever continplate using again. Then it was done, after all those months holding that sub because I was afraid of precipitated withdrawels and couldn't wait even 18 hours without scoring, I just buckled down and dealt with them and was exactly where I had wanted to be. I was able to get up and spend the evening with my son, granted not at 100% but could of felt so much worse. I feel if you want to stop, no matter how long its been since you last took anyform of oxy/hydro/codein/heroin yadayadayada, that an hour or so of hell is worth it rather than trying to count the hours till you can take the sub, like I said I played that game for months and spent 10's of thousands more dollars wasted.
The next 3 days I took a quarter of a sub, and felt pretty good, still had some tiredness but was able to do my job 6 days a week which involves constantly walking 8-10+ miles a day in all weather conditions, and was able to come home and spend the evening with my son. I was not completely there, I told people I was under the weather and that satisified most peoples curiosities. After the sub ran out I tried going as long as possible without anything, because in my past using days I used half if not less of what the last 2 years was, I found that just a piece of sub for a few days completely eliminated all withdrawels. But being my habit had escalated, the insomnia immediately set in as well as agitation and all the other wonderful things that come with w/d's. I must say the sub got me through the worst part, other than the precipitated withdrawels I was able to function in society at a normal level that anyone not knowing my story would not of thought a thing. But after 2 days of not sleeping I decided to go with xanax to help sleep, then read on here about the effects of mixing adderall to that mix. I know this can be dangerous and start a whole other addicton, but I was only able to get small quantitites of each and have them given to me daily. As soon as I took the adderall 30mg, and about .75 mg of xanax ( I have no benzo tolerance) was never a fan, but I felt amazing. All my tiredness and exhaustion, and feeling like my legs weighed 500 pounds each, just went away. I was happy and could joke and have a good time with people, which was a huge step from the previous days of taking every little thing out on my son (which I hate myself for) Gonna spend the rest of my life making up for the things he shoulda had these last 3 years. But I've been doing the xanax/adderall mix for about 2 days now and it wonderful, I'm staying with my mother currently to help with my son while I work, and actually feel like shes gonna think i'm on e or even opiates again because of my mood change from 1 day to the next.
This is day 11 of being clean, no rehab or detox because I had to do it on my own or risk losing my son. And I took the last of my adderrall and xanax and feel good, seeing I only took them for a couple days I am feeling stopping those should not be any isssue. So basically my withdrawel symptoms from opiates went from a pain level of 10000 to 3 with the 1 suboxene, few adderall, and handful of xanax. Now I start at the gym tomorrow to try and get some positive dopamine flowing naturally and start rebuilding the years and years of damage I had done. Still have insomnia which is why I'm up typing this, and I'm sure the adderall is intensifying that greatly, but its a small price to pay to be 11 days clean from opiates, and finally seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. I am not endorsing any of these methods, I am just telling you what saved me, my job, and my son. You may have to change quantities or even drugs, but stay away from opiates!!
I felt great on this 11th day just for one last update... I had the day off, and decided to have a fun father/son day... I owe him many more.... But we went and got our haircuts, played some dek hockey, climbed a mountain, and had some happy meals. To me thats one of the most amazing days I have ever had, and it didn't involve me crushing up 10 little blue pills to even function enough to pick him up and drive him home and plop him on the couch to watch movies till bedtime.. Thats not the life any child or parent deserves, its only been 11 days and technicaly I am not completely clean, but I was regulating the "Helping drugs" and am out. Looking forward to a good future, and to be able to give my son the most amazing life ever, seeing his mother left him last year, broke my heart, but I've been trying my best to be daddy and mommy even reading books on it lol thats m obsessive compulsive side, but lifes moving forward and things are looking amazing. This may be a lot of rambling but I hope you get my recomendations out of it , and maybe it could help even 1 person. I have been through withdrawels numerous times, this time started off the worst, and my life was saved just by a sub, some adds, and a little xanax. And if your one of those people "waiting" to take that suboxene just do it I'd say 90% of the time you wont and will end up scoring. I mean I've gone to the point of breaking up my sub, rolling something up, bending down to do it and still stopping myself in case I could get oxys later and I didn't wanna hate myself for missing out. Its so sick the things we tell ourselves, so take your last at bed, wake up wait as long as you can and TAKE the sub regardless of the withdrawels they may cause, it will be so worth it in the end. I'm reading books on being a good father and spend every minute I have making up the things I put my son through (deals, long rides, sketchy places) It just disgusts me I ever did such a thing. But just 11 days clean my mind is clearer and tomorrow or saturday is my all done it all day.... moving on in life, and moving up... see you guys at the top... I'm new here but have been through this all countless times, and I enjoy helping people, so if anyone needs help, or someone to talk to, or even a ride to an NA meeting I live in Mass. and am willing to help a fellow addict. Hope this helps at least one of you!
I am very new here so not sure if this is where I should even post this.. But here it goes, I was on a 300-450mg avergae daily dose of oxycodone....taken nasally. I found a way to access life insurance funds from my father dying 2 years ago, which I am sick about and is one of the reasons I decided enough was enough. Its only been 11 days so take my advice for what its worth. But I went through this withdrawel with very little issues other than insomnia which I may have intensified from some of my recomendations.
But here it goes.... 12 Days ago I took my last roxy, I waited about 12 hours ( I have found I can never wait the full "suggested" 24 hours before taking a sub, I would always just score before feeling too bad) So I decided I was just going to do it and planned my morning/afternoon on the fact I may very well be in precipitated withdrawel, but in my mind to be sick and wanting to die for an hour or so was worth it to get this demon off my back. So I had someone take my 3 year old son that I have full custody of, and I broke 1 suboxene into 4 quarters. I crushed up a quarter and took it nasally (I have found I get double the effect over putting it under my tongue, which may be psychologically, but it still works for me) I then proceeded to lay down in bed and curl up in a ball for about 2 hours, stretching, yawning, yelling, and hating everything. A big part of me felt I at least deserved some suffering for the things I had done to family, myself, and my son. Plus it gave me a strong thing to think about if I ever continplate using again. Then it was done, after all those months holding that sub because I was afraid of precipitated withdrawels and couldn't wait even 18 hours without scoring, I just buckled down and dealt with them and was exactly where I had wanted to be. I was able to get up and spend the evening with my son, granted not at 100% but could of felt so much worse. I feel if you want to stop, no matter how long its been since you last took anyform of oxy/hydro/codein/heroin yadayadayada, that an hour or so of hell is worth it rather than trying to count the hours till you can take the sub, like I said I played that game for months and spent 10's of thousands more dollars wasted.
The next 3 days I took a quarter of a sub, and felt pretty good, still had some tiredness but was able to do my job 6 days a week which involves constantly walking 8-10+ miles a day in all weather conditions, and was able to come home and spend the evening with my son. I was not completely there, I told people I was under the weather and that satisified most peoples curiosities. After the sub ran out I tried going as long as possible without anything, because in my past using days I used half if not less of what the last 2 years was, I found that just a piece of sub for a few days completely eliminated all withdrawels. But being my habit had escalated, the insomnia immediately set in as well as agitation and all the other wonderful things that come with w/d's. I must say the sub got me through the worst part, other than the precipitated withdrawels I was able to function in society at a normal level that anyone not knowing my story would not of thought a thing. But after 2 days of not sleeping I decided to go with xanax to help sleep, then read on here about the effects of mixing adderall to that mix. I know this can be dangerous and start a whole other addicton, but I was only able to get small quantitites of each and have them given to me daily. As soon as I took the adderall 30mg, and about .75 mg of xanax ( I have no benzo tolerance) was never a fan, but I felt amazing. All my tiredness and exhaustion, and feeling like my legs weighed 500 pounds each, just went away. I was happy and could joke and have a good time with people, which was a huge step from the previous days of taking every little thing out on my son (which I hate myself for) Gonna spend the rest of my life making up for the things he shoulda had these last 3 years. But I've been doing the xanax/adderall mix for about 2 days now and it wonderful, I'm staying with my mother currently to help with my son while I work, and actually feel like shes gonna think i'm on e or even opiates again because of my mood change from 1 day to the next.
This is day 11 of being clean, no rehab or detox because I had to do it on my own or risk losing my son. And I took the last of my adderrall and xanax and feel good, seeing I only took them for a couple days I am feeling stopping those should not be any isssue. So basically my withdrawel symptoms from opiates went from a pain level of 10000 to 3 with the 1 suboxene, few adderall, and handful of xanax. Now I start at the gym tomorrow to try and get some positive dopamine flowing naturally and start rebuilding the years and years of damage I had done. Still have insomnia which is why I'm up typing this, and I'm sure the adderall is intensifying that greatly, but its a small price to pay to be 11 days clean from opiates, and finally seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. I am not endorsing any of these methods, I am just telling you what saved me, my job, and my son. You may have to change quantities or even drugs, but stay away from opiates!!
I felt great on this 11th day just for one last update... I had the day off, and decided to have a fun father/son day... I owe him many more.... But we went and got our haircuts, played some dek hockey, climbed a mountain, and had some happy meals. To me thats one of the most amazing days I have ever had, and it didn't involve me crushing up 10 little blue pills to even function enough to pick him up and drive him home and plop him on the couch to watch movies till bedtime.. Thats not the life any child or parent deserves, its only been 11 days and technicaly I am not completely clean, but I was regulating the "Helping drugs" and am out. Looking forward to a good future, and to be able to give my son the most amazing life ever, seeing his mother left him last year, broke my heart, but I've been trying my best to be daddy and mommy even reading books on it lol thats m obsessive compulsive side, but lifes moving forward and things are looking amazing. This may be a lot of rambling but I hope you get my recomendations out of it , and maybe it could help even 1 person. I have been through withdrawels numerous times, this time started off the worst, and my life was saved just by a sub, some adds, and a little xanax. And if your one of those people "waiting" to take that suboxene just do it I'd say 90% of the time you wont and will end up scoring. I mean I've gone to the point of breaking up my sub, rolling something up, bending down to do it and still stopping myself in case I could get oxys later and I didn't wanna hate myself for missing out. Its so sick the things we tell ourselves, so take your last at bed, wake up wait as long as you can and TAKE the sub regardless of the withdrawels they may cause, it will be so worth it in the end. I'm reading books on being a good father and spend every minute I have making up the things I put my son through (deals, long rides, sketchy places) It just disgusts me I ever did such a thing. But just 11 days clean my mind is clearer and tomorrow or saturday is my all done it all day.... moving on in life, and moving up... see you guys at the top... I'm new here but have been through this all countless times, and I enjoy helping people, so if anyone needs help, or someone to talk to, or even a ride to an NA meeting I live in Mass. and am willing to help a fellow addict. Hope this helps at least one of you!
