I am wondering if anyone can give me tip or advice how to get off this wonderful plant. I say wonderful plant because it got me off iv heroin and has saved my ass so many times and helped me so much with chronic pain over the years. I truly love kratom and believe it is a good and magical plant, when used in moderation. But because I used it as an opiate replacement, the time has come now where I must bid it farewell and I am having such a difficult time.
I am stuck living in my mom's basement as a result of a 3 year heroin addiction that caused me to lose my job, my car and my life savings. My mom is a good women but she also suffers chronic pain and has become increasingly bitter and negative over the years. I on the other hand, have gone down a spiritual road exploring Christianity, shamanism and other spiritual traditions while also using entheogens. I long to practice asceticism and spiritual austerities and live close to nature, but I absolutely need a peaceful, positive environment to do it and living in the city with my mom just isn't right for me anymore.
The problem is, I want/feel like I need to be off kratom before I move out. Kratom has caused me to fail to save up enough money even for a car over the past year, because I constantly spend all my extra cash on kratom. For a long time I was even getting at terrible prices because I was trying to only buy small amounts at a time to help me use less but as a result I was paying shipping fees over and over and not getting bulk prices. I feel like if I dont get off kratom, I am going to be stuck living this unsatisfactory life in my mom's basement for ever. And yet I just can't ever seem to quit.
I work a physical job and when i get home I am so tired and sore. Kratom withdrawal on top of that is just too much for me. I always try to taper but then end up getting stuck once I get down to abotu a half teaspoon at a time and usually work my way back up again. How can I stop this never ending cycle so I can move on with my life?
I have tried going to NA, but I really only find it helpful for the psychological aspect of quitting. When I am in WD and feeling physically terrible, I stop caring about everything NA has to say and just dose to feel better. How can I get through the physical symptoms? I feel like I am just too weak.
I am stuck living in my mom's basement as a result of a 3 year heroin addiction that caused me to lose my job, my car and my life savings. My mom is a good women but she also suffers chronic pain and has become increasingly bitter and negative over the years. I on the other hand, have gone down a spiritual road exploring Christianity, shamanism and other spiritual traditions while also using entheogens. I long to practice asceticism and spiritual austerities and live close to nature, but I absolutely need a peaceful, positive environment to do it and living in the city with my mom just isn't right for me anymore.
The problem is, I want/feel like I need to be off kratom before I move out. Kratom has caused me to fail to save up enough money even for a car over the past year, because I constantly spend all my extra cash on kratom. For a long time I was even getting at terrible prices because I was trying to only buy small amounts at a time to help me use less but as a result I was paying shipping fees over and over and not getting bulk prices. I feel like if I dont get off kratom, I am going to be stuck living this unsatisfactory life in my mom's basement for ever. And yet I just can't ever seem to quit.
I work a physical job and when i get home I am so tired and sore. Kratom withdrawal on top of that is just too much for me. I always try to taper but then end up getting stuck once I get down to abotu a half teaspoon at a time and usually work my way back up again. How can I stop this never ending cycle so I can move on with my life?
I have tried going to NA, but I really only find it helpful for the psychological aspect of quitting. When I am in WD and feeling physically terrible, I stop caring about everything NA has to say and just dose to feel better. How can I get through the physical symptoms? I feel like I am just too weak.
