/\ Haha all opiates "serve a purpose" it seems and then at some point that purpose always ceases to be a valid reason anymore.
I started tapering my sub due to an interaction I was having with another med and was surprised to see how much better my overall functioning has become. So I've gotten on a consistent tapering regimen now and honestly I haven't felt so good in a looong time. I've just been so zombied out and realized 6mg was just wayyy too much for me. Had 0 sex drive, sleeping 12 hours a day, was becoming very antisocial at work and what not.
Now I'm down to 3.25mg and feel sooo much smarter lol. My wit is coming back, am starting to get my sex drive back, starting to also sleep less. I'm going to continue to just very slowly taper myself and I'm not even going to think about quitting. I'll consider that whole debacle when the time comes. But its really eye opening to lower a dose of opiates and find yourself actually feeling better, when for so long we equate more opiates to feeling better. Our bodies just really do change overtime and we start getting less therapeutic effects and more side effects from the same dose, so we raise it, get a bit more therapeutic effects for a few more weeks + more side effects, then therapeutic effects fade again but side effects stay so we raise the dose again etc etc. And then pretty soon we are on a dose so high dealing with nothing but side effects and wds and feeling like such shit all the time.
Well at least thats usually my story with opiates.
The opiate train always seems to find its way into a dark neverending tunnel of frozen emotions and repressed desires and dreams. No matter what opiate I switch to or start on, no matter how good the ride feels in the begining, the tracks always seem to end in the same place it seems.
p Aw, well Im hanging in there though. No seizures or other weird medical issues since that bizarre trip to the ER I told ya'll about. Anyway, just wanted to say hello and hope all you other DSers are doing well tonight.XO 
