My first trip on lsd. A happy nightmare?

[Plurple]

At about 12am I get a strip with two co workers/friends. The source I get it from is someone I've known to have quality acid for years and he tells me what the name of it is and that it is double dipped. They get off work and I have to stay till 7am. I say screw it and take a hit. 10 minutes go by and I feel arrogant enough to take another hit. I sit there rolling the paper back and forth between my tongue, and think about how great it would be to have an out of body experience. I go and take another hit.
Its about 1am and I'm standing in the back room with one of my cooks(trip sitter) and it hits me like a ton of bricks. The walls start breathing and everything is getting bright and vivid. My mind starts racing a million miles per hour and I start shaking. I walk out for a cigarette, and I'm pacing back and forth frantically calling my co workers to come get me. They don’t answer, and I start panicking. I put in my headphones and go back to work to try and finish a few things.
At about 1:10 I'm finally able to get ahold of one of my friends. I'm in a confused state and I get in the car to go to one of their houses.
Once I get to their house I lay down on the bed and I start tripping nuts. I felt like every atom in my body was vibrating and moving. I felt heavy and tense and every muscle in my body clenching. I kept reminding myself I was in a safe place, time was irrelevant, and most importantly I was tripping. I needed to chill out. I felt like I was going to explode at my seems
1:30 comes around and everyone around me is doing something and its giving me crazy anxiety. My jaw is clenched so tight it hurts. I felt like I was trying to hold on to reality and I just couldn’t let go of myself. I was sure I was going to die. I asked “this will end right? Promise me this will end” then I grabbed a piece of paper and coloring utensils and I let my mind go. At this point I was no longer in control of myself. It was honestly really scary. I just remember being in a loop. Everything was circles. I didn’t know what to do with myself. I danced in my head and on the paper in font of me. I felt like I was in a loop of looking for something, not knowing what I was looking for. I saw greens, blues, purples, and pinks. Galaxies, circles, glowing green meteors dancing in circles in my mind. I kept seeing the word ACID written in crayon(kinda like from the old sesame Street shows or elmo) melting in front of me and becoming whole again. I kept saying life is a trip, my mind is a playground, and I am putty. I felt like I was melting, and coming apart at my seems. I felt crazy. My whole world was literally melting. I looked at my hands, ans every vein was popping up like a sketch being brought to life in front of my eyes. “Lifes a trip and im rolling in a circle, circle, circle. Rolling rolling rolling". I kept forgetting things as I was saying them and feeling like anything and everything I was saying didn't matter. Just the circles connecting things in my mind did.
I remember at one point I felt like I had just been reborn. Everything felt new and I felt like I was experiencing everything in life for the first time again. I even asked my friends “fire burns?” like I felt it had some other meaning. It felt like everyone else around me was talking a different language and I couldn't understand a word.
At about 4 in the morning, I remembered something from reality and like a lightbulb my peak stopped. I somewhat snapped back into reality and it felt instantly different.
From 4am-2pm I sat and listened to music and drew and let my mind sit and play trippy tricks on me. I was totally in my head or another dimension. I felt euphoric and I just sat and took everything in stride. Closing my eyes and letting my own mind's visuals trip me. The words on my phone looked like crayons, I could feel the vibrations of the music coursing through me, I watched water go through my hands. Just craziness.

Just all in all. Woah. I now feel enlightened to things I didn’t even know existed. I feel new.
Did I experience ego death? I know I had a bad trip. I was panicking the entire peak, but I just rolled with it because I knew there was no getting out of it anymore. Today I still feel detached from everything except myself. When I took it I was totally in the wrong place, time, and mindset. I just wanted to trip balls, and I got exactly what I wanted. I love and hate it at the same time.

 

[cannablissss]

I had sort of a bad trip my first time on LSD, and just like you, the guy I had gotten it from had informed me the tabs were "double-dipped." I posted a thread on here questioning why I got so sick, and numerous people told me there's really no such thing as a double dipped tab. There's no real way to tell how much acid you took, only that it was too much for a first timer, and most acid isn't dipped just FYI.
My experience was really fun, minus the four times I threw up. I felt really happy, so happy that I cried, and enjoyed watching inanimate objects breathe with me, and the fibers on my carpet danced around like little bugs.
I think you just took too much for your first time. I mean, you had three hits right? I only had two, and that was pushing it, only because an hour had passed without my feeling anything from the first one.
It sounds to me like you just had a really insane experience, possibly a little ego death. Did you lose the sensation that your heart was beating or that you were breathing at all? Most people who go through ego death have that effect.
If you ever decide to trip again, try one hit at a time, be patient with it and see how it affects you before taking more.

 

[Plurple]

It took everything I could to breathe. It felt like every muscle in my body was clenched. My jaws were clenched so tight I felt like my teeth were going to break. I felt like I was on a roll at coaster blasting into space at lightspeed. If that makes any sense. Lol.

 

[cannablissss]

Yeah, it makes sense to me! I would clench my fists a lot out of nowhere, I don't know why it makes you do that. But it's probably because LSD releases a lot of dopamine, which in turn can cause clenching of the jaws and muscles. Like I said, you were just really tripped out man.