I wonder if this is a good idea...
I don't even know why I'm doing this?!?!
I think maybe I'm doing this so I can look at this months later and see what progress I've made, starting with some bulletpoints that describe where I'm at.
*Overly sexual - too yang here.
*Depressive and self defeating - I haven't been trying hard enough, not quite sticking head in sand, but not pushing.
* Not really balanced...
* Starting to embrace yoga as a way of living, with Ayurvedic practices joining me as of today, need to get consistent practice going again - I KNOW 3 times a week felt so good for my mind and body.
* Trying to help myself more than others is a resolution I'm making today - here - right now, FOR NOW.
* I Have become scared of people a lil somehow -I've always been shy, but I've become a lil more scared of seeing people, showing them me in times of hardship, instead of inflicting it on them...how do I feel like I'm not being a downer if I'm going through bad times, and just still somehow be fun to be around??! I don't know or remember.
I'm going to try to stop doing any drugs, until AT LEAST I receive my next payslip, including smoking weed, drinking alcohol, AND doing DMT.
Any drugs I get given I will hoard away for halloween/xmas/NYE - it's time for sober trance dancing Jimmy I feel - to push myself out of comfort zones of needing a smoke or a psychedelic to speed up feeling comfortable on the dancefloor - take it to the next level, Tasha helped you find your dance again after Lucia, now find your next level on your own.
ALso, need to start going to places to dance as much as possible, I've been slacking and it makes me happy.
I need to tell "HER" exactly how I feel again,when I give her her birthday present...which is late.
Which leads me to needing to write that down, as I could easily forget with my stoner memory - oh yes, I want to know if she's been sleeping with other people, and if she has I want to tell her that I don't like the idea of her sleeping with other people.
SHe said it...I need to say it, I'm very much in love with her now.
Today is the start of a trial of sobriety, nothing but yoga, work, art and dance...occasionally with seeing friends at their/my houses - just until I find my balance, and my swing of things...I need that swing, that momentum, the ball needs to start rolling and it CANNOT stop anymore.
See you later boyo...*slaps self in face*
I don't even know why I'm doing this?!?!
I think maybe I'm doing this so I can look at this months later and see what progress I've made, starting with some bulletpoints that describe where I'm at.
*Overly sexual - too yang here.
*Depressive and self defeating - I haven't been trying hard enough, not quite sticking head in sand, but not pushing.
* Not really balanced...
* Starting to embrace yoga as a way of living, with Ayurvedic practices joining me as of today, need to get consistent practice going again - I KNOW 3 times a week felt so good for my mind and body.
* Trying to help myself more than others is a resolution I'm making today - here - right now, FOR NOW.
* I Have become scared of people a lil somehow -I've always been shy, but I've become a lil more scared of seeing people, showing them me in times of hardship, instead of inflicting it on them...how do I feel like I'm not being a downer if I'm going through bad times, and just still somehow be fun to be around??! I don't know or remember.
I'm going to try to stop doing any drugs, until AT LEAST I receive my next payslip, including smoking weed, drinking alcohol, AND doing DMT.
Any drugs I get given I will hoard away for halloween/xmas/NYE - it's time for sober trance dancing Jimmy I feel - to push myself out of comfort zones of needing a smoke or a psychedelic to speed up feeling comfortable on the dancefloor - take it to the next level, Tasha helped you find your dance again after Lucia, now find your next level on your own.
ALso, need to start going to places to dance as much as possible, I've been slacking and it makes me happy.
I need to tell "HER" exactly how I feel again,when I give her her birthday present...which is late.
Which leads me to needing to write that down, as I could easily forget with my stoner memory - oh yes, I want to know if she's been sleeping with other people, and if she has I want to tell her that I don't like the idea of her sleeping with other people.
SHe said it...I need to say it, I'm very much in love with her now.
Today is the start of a trial of sobriety, nothing but yoga, work, art and dance...occasionally with seeing friends at their/my houses - just until I find my balance, and my swing of things...I need that swing, that momentum, the ball needs to start rolling and it CANNOT stop anymore.
See you later boyo...*slaps self in face*
