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So I got a small amount of mxe a few days back, and gave it a go last night and to say it was interesting.
I'm not really a person for psychedlics or dissassociates but i'm currently trying to beat an opiate addiction and have heard good things about mxe helping with withdrawals, but I was not in withdrawals during this trip, as I had taken a dose of 6 grams of kratom about 3 hours prior to the start of this experience.
Initially I just planned on doing a bump or two while watching "the wire" season 3 in bed.
By the way, the wire is a fucking amazing show, can't stress that enough.
So I start with a bump or two, probably 15-20 mg total, and I'm just chilling watching the wire. I had also taken about .5mg of xanax a few hours prior to beginning this mxe report, so I feel the more dissassociative effects of mxe or psychelic effects were dampened downed and it was a pretty chill experience.
So I take the bump, I like drip from snorting stuff, when it's just a small drip.
The effects begin to set in after about 15-20 minutes, it just feels a bit warm and also a little bit foreign and weird, but enjoyable.
I'm watching the wire and continue taking bumps. I begin to get these empathogenic feelings, feelings of connection to the characters. I can definetely see the serotonin effects of this drug, I have no doubt it has some effect on the serotonin receptors. My chest pains I constantly worry about begin to fade away. (I've had ekg's and shit done, it appears to be related to anxiety and not actual cardiac problems) I was content just laying in bed, relaxed, watching this show.
All of a sudden I can understand the complex structure of what is occuring in the show, the wire. The way the drug trade is connected from the lowest levels on the streets with the addicts, to the mid level players and the ballers that can make enough money to start legitimate businesses and begin to build an empire with the money, making it clean through said businesses. The cat and mouse game of the police vs the drug trade was interesting aswell. Everything is connected. The polictical aspect of the show was interesting to me all of a sudden, how these corrupt politcians are connected to high level drug dealers that are investing drug money into political campaigns and pushing the right buttons with the right corrupt politicians to begin to build an empire in there respective city, balitmore. That is the goal at least of the main character stringer bell, and his partner avon barksdale isn't quite on the same page, he is more about the gang banging shit and the street level aspect of "the game" and I suddenly understood this complex tension between these two characters, because stringer wanted to elevate this thing they've made by becoming big in the baltimore drug game, and use that money to get past that petty gangster shit of the game and to make money through legit income streams and to begin to build real businesses so they can actually have real power in baltimore, not just power in the drug game. He wants his drug money to work for him and make him real money without the possible risk of drug dealing shit. He wants to distance himself from the game, and just basically finance packages for the lower level dealers to sell, and he doesn't get near the drugs or the game anymore, and will just have his people do the work for him while he invests that money into real businesses. Avon is more of just a gangster at heart, he doesn't care about being a businessman, he just wants to be the hardest mother fucking kingpin out there and just wants to control as much of the streets as possible, and I suddenly can understand every aspect of their decisions or at least their thought process. This conflict of stringer wanting to distance them from the being directly involved in the drug trade and instead becoming more business oriented people, with avon just wanting to still be a gang banger is really interesting. It causes this interesting unspoken conflict I observed. Even though they are childhood friends who have been in the game from the beginning and have worked there way to kingpin status. Anyways, enough about the show, I just found it interesting that mxe at these low doses insuffuflated really gave me a perspective that was alot more complex then I usually would have of a tv show when watching it.
It's weird, but that thought, the thought of how anyone can go out there, and start making a business, and then use that money to start making money for them got me thinking. It got me thinking about how I should start my own business, it got me thinking about how simple I had been thinking about life, it got me thinking about how I could take current revenue streams I have, and build them up into something more. It got me thinking about how people really get rich, and climb the social ladder. It made me feel like the world was at my finger tips. It was really enlightening and an amazing thought process. This whole time I'm just in my bed, half watching the show, half feeling warm and a bit dissassociated and stuck in a complex thought process, and half taking more bumps of mxe lol
All of a sudden I had a whole new perspective on the possiblities of life. It was like something clicked in my head. I could understand how the people around me in my life think and do what they do, and how everyone is just out there trying to make it in life. But suddenly it seemed more simple to me, this brain fog I feel like I've had for months or even years now was gone. Things were clear, and my priorities in life became clear.
I ended up taking 4 more grams of kratom at this point, hoping it would make things feel even better. It didn't, if anything things got foggy again. I also smoked a bit of weed and took some more xanax, so that was probably my mistake as well, that shit clogs up your mental cognitive abilities.
I ended up having trouble falling to sleep for about 7 hours after all this, but I have a new found appreciation for mxe, but I don't want to really use it again. I feel a bit exhausted today, I only got 4 hours of sleep, but mxe's effect on serotonin especially just when taking small bumps over hours became evident last night, and it made everything feel more connected for me.
I could see everyones perspective, from like a third person view, on why people do what they do.
So yea, I probably took about 7-8 bumps of 5-10mg mxe throughout this whole period. I think that dose range is the perfect area, just a few bumps and then maintaining that high for a bit, while in a comfortable setting, it can really be quite an interesting drug.
Anyways, so that is my trip report, it is more about how the drug changed my entire thought process, almost like a bit of a brain reboot.
Struggling with an opiate addiction is exhausting, and also having untreated adhd makes things quite foggy at times, my mind is quite scattered, and this mxe experience made things simple and easy to see in my mind, it was great.
Hope this is interesting to some of you guys, sorry if it is a shit trip report lol I tried!
Be safe with drugs guys.
I'm not really a person for psychedlics or dissassociates but i'm currently trying to beat an opiate addiction and have heard good things about mxe helping with withdrawals, but I was not in withdrawals during this trip, as I had taken a dose of 6 grams of kratom about 3 hours prior to the start of this experience.
Initially I just planned on doing a bump or two while watching "the wire" season 3 in bed.
By the way, the wire is a fucking amazing show, can't stress that enough.
So I start with a bump or two, probably 15-20 mg total, and I'm just chilling watching the wire. I had also taken about .5mg of xanax a few hours prior to beginning this mxe report, so I feel the more dissassociative effects of mxe or psychelic effects were dampened downed and it was a pretty chill experience.
So I take the bump, I like drip from snorting stuff, when it's just a small drip.
The effects begin to set in after about 15-20 minutes, it just feels a bit warm and also a little bit foreign and weird, but enjoyable.
I'm watching the wire and continue taking bumps. I begin to get these empathogenic feelings, feelings of connection to the characters. I can definetely see the serotonin effects of this drug, I have no doubt it has some effect on the serotonin receptors. My chest pains I constantly worry about begin to fade away. (I've had ekg's and shit done, it appears to be related to anxiety and not actual cardiac problems) I was content just laying in bed, relaxed, watching this show.
All of a sudden I can understand the complex structure of what is occuring in the show, the wire. The way the drug trade is connected from the lowest levels on the streets with the addicts, to the mid level players and the ballers that can make enough money to start legitimate businesses and begin to build an empire with the money, making it clean through said businesses. The cat and mouse game of the police vs the drug trade was interesting aswell. Everything is connected. The polictical aspect of the show was interesting to me all of a sudden, how these corrupt politcians are connected to high level drug dealers that are investing drug money into political campaigns and pushing the right buttons with the right corrupt politicians to begin to build an empire in there respective city, balitmore. That is the goal at least of the main character stringer bell, and his partner avon barksdale isn't quite on the same page, he is more about the gang banging shit and the street level aspect of "the game" and I suddenly understood this complex tension between these two characters, because stringer wanted to elevate this thing they've made by becoming big in the baltimore drug game, and use that money to get past that petty gangster shit of the game and to make money through legit income streams and to begin to build real businesses so they can actually have real power in baltimore, not just power in the drug game. He wants his drug money to work for him and make him real money without the possible risk of drug dealing shit. He wants to distance himself from the game, and just basically finance packages for the lower level dealers to sell, and he doesn't get near the drugs or the game anymore, and will just have his people do the work for him while he invests that money into real businesses. Avon is more of just a gangster at heart, he doesn't care about being a businessman, he just wants to be the hardest mother fucking kingpin out there and just wants to control as much of the streets as possible, and I suddenly can understand every aspect of their decisions or at least their thought process. This conflict of stringer wanting to distance them from the being directly involved in the drug trade and instead becoming more business oriented people, with avon just wanting to still be a gang banger is really interesting. It causes this interesting unspoken conflict I observed. Even though they are childhood friends who have been in the game from the beginning and have worked there way to kingpin status. Anyways, enough about the show, I just found it interesting that mxe at these low doses insuffuflated really gave me a perspective that was alot more complex then I usually would have of a tv show when watching it.
It's weird, but that thought, the thought of how anyone can go out there, and start making a business, and then use that money to start making money for them got me thinking. It got me thinking about how I should start my own business, it got me thinking about how simple I had been thinking about life, it got me thinking about how I could take current revenue streams I have, and build them up into something more. It got me thinking about how people really get rich, and climb the social ladder. It made me feel like the world was at my finger tips. It was really enlightening and an amazing thought process. This whole time I'm just in my bed, half watching the show, half feeling warm and a bit dissassociated and stuck in a complex thought process, and half taking more bumps of mxe lol
All of a sudden I had a whole new perspective on the possiblities of life. It was like something clicked in my head. I could understand how the people around me in my life think and do what they do, and how everyone is just out there trying to make it in life. But suddenly it seemed more simple to me, this brain fog I feel like I've had for months or even years now was gone. Things were clear, and my priorities in life became clear.
I ended up taking 4 more grams of kratom at this point, hoping it would make things feel even better. It didn't, if anything things got foggy again. I also smoked a bit of weed and took some more xanax, so that was probably my mistake as well, that shit clogs up your mental cognitive abilities.
I ended up having trouble falling to sleep for about 7 hours after all this, but I have a new found appreciation for mxe, but I don't want to really use it again. I feel a bit exhausted today, I only got 4 hours of sleep, but mxe's effect on serotonin especially just when taking small bumps over hours became evident last night, and it made everything feel more connected for me.
I could see everyones perspective, from like a third person view, on why people do what they do.
So yea, I probably took about 7-8 bumps of 5-10mg mxe throughout this whole period. I think that dose range is the perfect area, just a few bumps and then maintaining that high for a bit, while in a comfortable setting, it can really be quite an interesting drug.
Anyways, so that is my trip report, it is more about how the drug changed my entire thought process, almost like a bit of a brain reboot.
Struggling with an opiate addiction is exhausting, and also having untreated adhd makes things quite foggy at times, my mind is quite scattered, and this mxe experience made things simple and easy to see in my mind, it was great.
Hope this is interesting to some of you guys, sorry if it is a shit trip report lol I tried!
Be safe with drugs guys.
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