SmashingWretzky
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jul 10, 2018
- Messages
- 22
I am in pretty uncomfortable position at present I can't get high. I am shooting pretty decent amounts a 1/2 G in two shots pretty close together.
I know the meth is good as everyone around me is getting spun off the exact same gear...
I felt a little buzz and i dry heaved the 2nd time. I have a pain in the stomach which is just heartburn nothing to stress about..
I don't want to keep redosing as I have been doing this long enough to know the amounts are out of hand as it is..
My body is feeling the years of abuse and as ive stated in a previous thread I am no longer experiencing the same feelings i craved its been years...
I think its time for me to put my cue in the rack so to speak. The last decade and a bit has been heaven and hell. The days of self medicating my problems are long behind me.
I am almost out of viens and while im aware I could find some more spots. I have always looked after the ones i had and rotated all the time. Even being safe im down to 1 and a half basically...
Its time for me to stop because I no longer have the fear or attachment to the drug i once did. It seems like the next step in my lifes progression..
Its been coming for a while and I don't have the desire to push the boundaries and compromise my well being. Years ago I wouldn't have stopped until i was as high as i could get or i ran out of gear.
I am gonna prepare for the mental battle that could be ahead. I am just tired and worn out. There is only so long you can play this game for. I have lost more than i ever won. Its all about choices and its time for me..
I have blabbed on here. Has anyone thats in recovery come to this similar crossroad.. The time just seems right to stop though its been years to reach this point...
I know the meth is good as everyone around me is getting spun off the exact same gear...
I felt a little buzz and i dry heaved the 2nd time. I have a pain in the stomach which is just heartburn nothing to stress about..
I don't want to keep redosing as I have been doing this long enough to know the amounts are out of hand as it is..
My body is feeling the years of abuse and as ive stated in a previous thread I am no longer experiencing the same feelings i craved its been years...
I think its time for me to put my cue in the rack so to speak. The last decade and a bit has been heaven and hell. The days of self medicating my problems are long behind me.
I am almost out of viens and while im aware I could find some more spots. I have always looked after the ones i had and rotated all the time. Even being safe im down to 1 and a half basically...
Its time for me to stop because I no longer have the fear or attachment to the drug i once did. It seems like the next step in my lifes progression..
Its been coming for a while and I don't have the desire to push the boundaries and compromise my well being. Years ago I wouldn't have stopped until i was as high as i could get or i ran out of gear.
I am gonna prepare for the mental battle that could be ahead. I am just tired and worn out. There is only so long you can play this game for. I have lost more than i ever won. Its all about choices and its time for me..
I have blabbed on here. Has anyone thats in recovery come to this similar crossroad.. The time just seems right to stop though its been years to reach this point...