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Mushrooms - Semi exp - Book of Fairytales and Nightmares

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psykiz

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I had some mushrooms left over from the other weekend so i decided to eat them on Friday night as i had nothing planned for the rest of the weekend.
I'm not sure of the exact quantity consumed, but was a fairly small amount.

So around 11pm i ate the mushrooms, washing them down with juice. I knew i had a little bit of a wait before they hit me, so after having a few cones I sat down to play a little bit more of my Final Fantasy game.
After about half an hour i can feel my body tingling, and i'm feeling nice. Nothing much to note for about the next hour and a half, no visuals, although the sound coming from the TV sounded kindof hollow at times, and sightly distorted. My body was still feeling good and the tingles were coming in waves, pretty intensely.
I decide to stop playing the game for awhile and just sink into the lounge and enjoy the tingling sensations.
As soon as i closed my eyes i saw so many pretty colours and patterns twirling and swirling around, the patterns would keep morphing and changing. Slowly the patterns stopped and faded away to a scene of a garden party, Lots of men and women in suits and nice dresses. It could have been a wedding, i cant remember too much from the scene but there was lots of green bushes and alot of white (i'm not too sure what the white things were though).
I focused on a man with a little girl standing infront of him, she's probably about 4 or 5 and the cutest little girl i've ever seen, wide brown eyes and shiny brown hair. She smiled at me.
Then the scene fades away into another, i cant remember anything distinct about the other scenes that played through, but i know they were all happy, pretty, wonderful images...
Slowly the scenes turn darker and darker, making me feel uneasy, eventually quite afraid of these things i was seeing. As soon as i started feeling scared a white light came into the left hand side of my visions, and slowly the white light moved across my view until all the bad things were gone. As the light reached the very end of its journey i realised it wasnt a light at all, but a cover of a book that had just been shut. The book belonged to a dwarfy/goblin type thing. He was a really friendly looking character, old with grey hair, sitting in an armchair by a fire.
I opened my eyes after i realised that it was only a book that the goblin had opened.
But i started thinking...
Was that book like a book to my mind? did he just open it and show me such happy things? What are the bad things? Do i have demons inside?
I wanted to go back into the story book and find out the answers, but i was scared of going back in there.
I decided to play some more final fantasy to take my mind of things and calm me down a little. After about 5 minutes of playing i came to a part in the game where everything on the screen was really trippy (not cuz i was tripping), and cuz i was tripping everything was even more trippy and confusing with patterns and colours everywhere so i had to give up playing.
I was feeling more relaxed so i decided to shut my eyes again and see what happened.
It was different this time though. Like.. what i was seeing before was stuff from INSIDE my mind. But this time the images just looked like i was watching a movie of things, i wasnt actually THERE in the moment. It didnt feel the same anymore so i decided to go to bed.
I fell asleep not long after going to bed and woke up fine in the morning, a little tired but good =]

Now I'm a little scared of taking mushrooms again because im afraid of what they made me see and how they made me feel...
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regardless of whether or not your reproach is entirely up to you,

however, might i point out that, the mushroom experience, as well as the experience of other psychedelics...is Not supposed to be Fun. many of the most profound and helpful experiences are very mentally and emotionally trying.

seeeing as though you directly understood the metaphors and 'visions' you were shown (ie: everything was a book, a glance at your self...etc). i would suggest to ponder on the meaning and depth of what you've been shown. some revelations and understandings take quite a while to 'come into view'


*a quick metaphor about mushrooms*
They are the gardener, tending the fields of your mind....
planting seeds of understanding, seeds of concept, seeds of thought.

before planting, the ground must be tilled, to best serve the growth of these seeds. the tilling process can be quite arduous, strenuous, and difficult. but the aim of the process is to prepare your mind for understandings.

when will the seeds grow...what seeds were planted....and Where, where in the fields were they planted?
the answers to these will be actualized by yourself in time.
maybe the seeds began growing during the experience,
maybe they will not grow for a while.

however, the foundation for some particular growth is thuroughly planned by these cosmic gardeners :)

(overall, i'd say every experience is like a seed, psychedelic or not....mushrooms just get to work quick.)
 
mushrooms have been my least favourite drug, as the only time i ever have enjoyed it was the first time i ate them.

There is another image i can remember from that night as well.
A big huge tree with bushy green leaves, the branches branched out and slowly turned into paths twisting and winding around and away from the tree.
It (as well as the book) was as if the tree was my mind, and all the paths leading away from it were paths i had travelled in my life.
I have been thinking about this trip since then, i havent had any big revalations or anything.
I dont think i spent enough time in my head to understand anything, as the whole experience (with my visions) only lasted around 5-10 mins (it seemed like longer in my head). I want to go back there and explore and find out what these demons inside my head were.
Oh.. and something i forgot to add.
Once the golbin guy had closed the book i felt a great sense of relief wash over me, i was glad that book had been shut.
IGNVS - Not sure of the dosage as i didnt measure it.
 
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