MattPsy
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Substances consumed: 3.0g dried Psilocybe Subaeurginosa mushrooms
(These are about twice as strong per weight as the common P.Cubensis ones most of you guys in the US get).
Supplemental: 200mg 5-hydroxy-tryptophan
2000mg Ascorbic acid
2 assorted multivitamin tablets
500mg Omega-3 fatty acids
First bad trip. Thought I knew the "bad" territory... far, far from it. Had used mushrooms twice before, at dosages of 12.0g wet and 1.8g dried.
T+0 hrs.
Ate 2g, with a glass of Coke Citra.
T+1 hrs.
Slight visual patterning noted int he carpet, blurring of the edges of objects, intensified colors.
T+2 hrs.
Dissatisfied with effect level (stupid! should have waited!) as it seemed to reach a plateau, so I dosed another gram, and so did another friend at the same time.
T+3 hrs.
Had completely panicked, and left residence with a person i'd never met before as a companion to walk to a place that was about a kilometer walk, at roughly 2am in the morning, pitch black, extremely cold and breezy. Buildings are waving like thin trees int he wind, cars moving as balls of energy, tentacles of electricity shooting out of the underbody on to the road.
T+5 hrs.
It only got worse. As I sit in a chair, I am paralyzed in both speech and movement, extreme nausea. I can't communicate my condition. The people in the room spontaneously burst into flames, skin falling away in charred flakes, then reforming back to normality. Extreme emotional trauma, self loathing, time stands still to extend a experience that already lasts an eternity, suicidal thoughts. Though i'm told to just think positive, I foudn this completely impossible. Every tiome io tried to rise up against it and fight it, I was thown back with force, like an ekectric fence shocking an animal. Futile to try.
T+6 hrs.
Rather serious stuff happened. Forced seperation from friends, I have to walk back by myself. From from strong unconcious suggestion shortly earlier, my mind manifests crowds of screaming people, all rushing in chaos to avoid their inevitiable death and the end of days draws near. I know it's not real. But still they are presented, against my will. Mutilated & bloody bodies lie everywhere on the roads and footpaths
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T+7 hrs.
Through an EXTREMELY lucky happening, I was able to meet up with a friend who was coincidentially also tripping, and got transported back to their house, to lie down & chill. Effects are still in full force as like before (strong trauma and confusion) , but it's good to have another human nearby. This continued till T+10hrs.
Completely exhausted. Will not be using psychedelics for quite some time again, while I get my internal mental shit sorted![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
. I have some issues to resolve that this trip brought out with brutal intensity. So, it was not a total loss. Even the worst trip has wisdom, so long as you look in the right places for it.
Main lesson learnt was to not be impatient, especially when it comes to psychedelics. You can dose more, but you can't un-dose yourself (unless you are lucky enough to have a anti-psychotic 5-HT antagonist drug handy, which I don't).
(These are about twice as strong per weight as the common P.Cubensis ones most of you guys in the US get).
Supplemental: 200mg 5-hydroxy-tryptophan
2000mg Ascorbic acid
2 assorted multivitamin tablets
500mg Omega-3 fatty acids
First bad trip. Thought I knew the "bad" territory... far, far from it. Had used mushrooms twice before, at dosages of 12.0g wet and 1.8g dried.
T+0 hrs.
Ate 2g, with a glass of Coke Citra.
T+1 hrs.
Slight visual patterning noted int he carpet, blurring of the edges of objects, intensified colors.
T+2 hrs.
Dissatisfied with effect level (stupid! should have waited!) as it seemed to reach a plateau, so I dosed another gram, and so did another friend at the same time.
T+3 hrs.
Had completely panicked, and left residence with a person i'd never met before as a companion to walk to a place that was about a kilometer walk, at roughly 2am in the morning, pitch black, extremely cold and breezy. Buildings are waving like thin trees int he wind, cars moving as balls of energy, tentacles of electricity shooting out of the underbody on to the road.
T+5 hrs.
It only got worse. As I sit in a chair, I am paralyzed in both speech and movement, extreme nausea. I can't communicate my condition. The people in the room spontaneously burst into flames, skin falling away in charred flakes, then reforming back to normality. Extreme emotional trauma, self loathing, time stands still to extend a experience that already lasts an eternity, suicidal thoughts. Though i'm told to just think positive, I foudn this completely impossible. Every tiome io tried to rise up against it and fight it, I was thown back with force, like an ekectric fence shocking an animal. Futile to try.
T+6 hrs.
Rather serious stuff happened. Forced seperation from friends, I have to walk back by myself. From from strong unconcious suggestion shortly earlier, my mind manifests crowds of screaming people, all rushing in chaos to avoid their inevitiable death and the end of days draws near. I know it's not real. But still they are presented, against my will. Mutilated & bloody bodies lie everywhere on the roads and footpaths
.T+7 hrs.
Through an EXTREMELY lucky happening, I was able to meet up with a friend who was coincidentially also tripping, and got transported back to their house, to lie down & chill. Effects are still in full force as like before (strong trauma and confusion) , but it's good to have another human nearby. This continued till T+10hrs.
Completely exhausted. Will not be using psychedelics for quite some time again, while I get my internal mental shit sorted
. I have some issues to resolve that this trip brought out with brutal intensity. So, it was not a total loss. Even the worst trip has wisdom, so long as you look in the right places for it.Main lesson learnt was to not be impatient, especially when it comes to psychedelics. You can dose more, but you can't un-dose yourself (unless you are lucky enough to have a anti-psychotic 5-HT antagonist drug handy, which I don't).
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. Cheers for the comment.