stardragon
Bluelighter
I realized that, despite my statement that "this doesn't merit a trip report because I can't do a blow-by-blow" when I posted it in Daisybabe's mushroom trip report, it bloody well is a trip report, and if I wanted to get any comments on it, I should strip it out of that thread and post it in its own.
Okay, here's the particulars...
Substance: about 1.3 to 1.5 grams of what I believe were cubensis mushrooms, dried. I'm told they were a "potent Hawaiian strain", take that with a grain of salt; however I'm not sure if what follows is an "average" trip for that amount of mushrooms or not.
Set: I was actually thinking this would have been a small enough dose that I would get barely over threshold effects, enough that I could go out with a friend (whose call to pick me up I was waiting for) and be coherent but still in a different state. Well boy was I wrong, but we'll get to that in a minute
So this was a "yeah, let's try a little of this and start to get acquainted, no big deal" kind of mindset.
Setting: My house, mainly my room but also my back yard and a couple other rooms at various points. I was tripping by myself but my mother and father were also in the house, and I actually talked to my mother at a couple points near the beginning and end.
Effects:
Mushrooms eaten (or actually, chopped and swallowed without chewing, with water) at about 6:00 pm.
I started off for the first hour after I consumed them making periodic notes on the computer, but then I became unable to stand looking at the computer screen, the white field of it hurt my eyes.
While I have also gotten this effect on ecstasy, when rolling I was able to figure out how to fix it. With mushrooms just starting to really affect my head, my thoughts were ceasing to work as they normally did, and all I could figure out how to do was turn off the computer. So I did. Around the two hour mark I became unable to do much of anything but lie down and be taken into dreamland. So the rest of this has basically no conception of time whatsoever.
Everything was pretty much over by 10:00 pm, and by 10:30 pm (when I finally got a hold of the aforementioned friend) I was okay to drive, once I got a handle on the fact that my car was an enclosed space as opposed to the open spaces of the sky.
During the parts where I was awake and moving around, I saw some interesting visual effects such as a hexagonal pattern with a flower inside it superimposed like a field over everything, and the whole "objects breathing in and out" thing, as well as totally distorted depth perception, like I was often looking through a telephoto lens and everything was "flat", faraway objects looked closer than I knew they were... stuff like that.
The body feeling was a lot more like ecstasy than I imagined it would be.. not the sense of touch sensitivity, but I did get some of the same "I feel like I can feel the air currents in the room" and of my body being all warm, "awake" and "open". I also did some mirror-staring and got some of the same "wow, I am beautiful" that I get from ecstasy as well. I don't remember colours being heightened or anything like that.
The parts where I was lying down and simply taken into dreamland I can hardly remember. I remember hearing a lot of trance-like music inside my head (I was not playing any CDs or anything). The dreams were almost as strong as being awake, yet I felt like I was asleep. I think I almost DID fall asleep at some points, or at least was about to lose consciousness, or at least physical-body consciousness!
At several points I felt like I was going to float out of my body. Sometimes I was not able to feel my heart beat in the usual way I'm used to it resonating in my chest, and that was frightening, but I reasoned that if I was still breathing and walking, then I must be ok, and my heart hadn't stopped; I would worry if I noticed myself stopping breathing (although sometimes I felt like I had to consciously make myself breathe; while this was a little disconcerting, it was nowhere near as scary as the time I took a bunch of hydrocodone and actually had a pharmacological reason for respiratory depression). Everything would start to "go gray" (even though my eyes were close" and... dissolve is the best word I can put on it. It felt like the world around me was dissolving away, not really in the literal sense of a solid dissolving into a liquid, but more like a dissolve between two images in a motion picture or slideshow.
I think I was scared to leave because I equated that with dying and I didn't want to die, but having survived it once, I think I might be able to do it next time. This is cool, because "kicking me out of my body" and teaching me that it is not something I need to fear is one of the reasons I've been wanting to take LSD or mushrooms for quite some time, and I'm pleased that it was not a bad idea.
Thinking worked totally differently than usual consciousness, but this is no big surprise. Oddly, I was simultaneously aware that I was thinking the same thoughts over and over again, and at the same time they were new each time I thought them. I was unable to remember whether I had or hadn't done things (going to the bathroom and keeping all the various steps straight became quite an adventure), and my sense of time was totally fucked. Sometimes twenty minutes would pass in three, and sometimes the other way around.
I also can totally see where the idea comes from that these things can transport you to the spirit-world. Because I really felt like I was trying to "go there" but also holding back.
Okay, here's the particulars...
Substance: about 1.3 to 1.5 grams of what I believe were cubensis mushrooms, dried. I'm told they were a "potent Hawaiian strain", take that with a grain of salt; however I'm not sure if what follows is an "average" trip for that amount of mushrooms or not.
Set: I was actually thinking this would have been a small enough dose that I would get barely over threshold effects, enough that I could go out with a friend (whose call to pick me up I was waiting for) and be coherent but still in a different state. Well boy was I wrong, but we'll get to that in a minute
So this was a "yeah, let's try a little of this and start to get acquainted, no big deal" kind of mindset.Setting: My house, mainly my room but also my back yard and a couple other rooms at various points. I was tripping by myself but my mother and father were also in the house, and I actually talked to my mother at a couple points near the beginning and end.
Effects:
Mushrooms eaten (or actually, chopped and swallowed without chewing, with water) at about 6:00 pm.
I started off for the first hour after I consumed them making periodic notes on the computer, but then I became unable to stand looking at the computer screen, the white field of it hurt my eyes.
While I have also gotten this effect on ecstasy, when rolling I was able to figure out how to fix it. With mushrooms just starting to really affect my head, my thoughts were ceasing to work as they normally did, and all I could figure out how to do was turn off the computer. So I did. Around the two hour mark I became unable to do much of anything but lie down and be taken into dreamland. So the rest of this has basically no conception of time whatsoever.
Everything was pretty much over by 10:00 pm, and by 10:30 pm (when I finally got a hold of the aforementioned friend) I was okay to drive, once I got a handle on the fact that my car was an enclosed space as opposed to the open spaces of the sky.
During the parts where I was awake and moving around, I saw some interesting visual effects such as a hexagonal pattern with a flower inside it superimposed like a field over everything, and the whole "objects breathing in and out" thing, as well as totally distorted depth perception, like I was often looking through a telephoto lens and everything was "flat", faraway objects looked closer than I knew they were... stuff like that.
The body feeling was a lot more like ecstasy than I imagined it would be.. not the sense of touch sensitivity, but I did get some of the same "I feel like I can feel the air currents in the room" and of my body being all warm, "awake" and "open". I also did some mirror-staring and got some of the same "wow, I am beautiful" that I get from ecstasy as well. I don't remember colours being heightened or anything like that.
The parts where I was lying down and simply taken into dreamland I can hardly remember. I remember hearing a lot of trance-like music inside my head (I was not playing any CDs or anything). The dreams were almost as strong as being awake, yet I felt like I was asleep. I think I almost DID fall asleep at some points, or at least was about to lose consciousness, or at least physical-body consciousness!
At several points I felt like I was going to float out of my body. Sometimes I was not able to feel my heart beat in the usual way I'm used to it resonating in my chest, and that was frightening, but I reasoned that if I was still breathing and walking, then I must be ok, and my heart hadn't stopped; I would worry if I noticed myself stopping breathing (although sometimes I felt like I had to consciously make myself breathe; while this was a little disconcerting, it was nowhere near as scary as the time I took a bunch of hydrocodone and actually had a pharmacological reason for respiratory depression). Everything would start to "go gray" (even though my eyes were close" and... dissolve is the best word I can put on it. It felt like the world around me was dissolving away, not really in the literal sense of a solid dissolving into a liquid, but more like a dissolve between two images in a motion picture or slideshow.
I think I was scared to leave because I equated that with dying and I didn't want to die, but having survived it once, I think I might be able to do it next time. This is cool, because "kicking me out of my body" and teaching me that it is not something I need to fear is one of the reasons I've been wanting to take LSD or mushrooms for quite some time, and I'm pleased that it was not a bad idea.
Thinking worked totally differently than usual consciousness, but this is no big surprise. Oddly, I was simultaneously aware that I was thinking the same thoughts over and over again, and at the same time they were new each time I thought them. I was unable to remember whether I had or hadn't done things (going to the bathroom and keeping all the various steps straight became quite an adventure), and my sense of time was totally fucked. Sometimes twenty minutes would pass in three, and sometimes the other way around.
I also can totally see where the idea comes from that these things can transport you to the spirit-world. Because I really felt like I was trying to "go there" but also holding back.
