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Mushrooms,first large dose,Acceptance and Understanding

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St0rk

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Mushrooms-first large dose-Acceptance and Understanding

I've eaten mushrooms on a couple occasions, but they were 2 grams or less. This time I consumed 3 grams and my friend did the same at the dorm. I have experience with most other drugs like ecstasy, lsd, ketamine, and a bunch of other stuff that doesn't matter for this report.

I'm not going to describe what I saw because the same hallucinations have been posted countless times. I just want to share my thought process that has probably been shared countless times by other bluelighters. I'm only going to share the key point in my trip.

My friend and I began to talk about a few friends that we had concerns for. One has a serious addiction to lorcets and will probably only change until she reaches rock bottom because we have tried numerous times to help her. The other two are b/f and g/f in a new town and all they have are themselves and us to lean on.

I noticed myself talking down on them more than actually showing concern. I was criticizing the way they handled situations and the way they handle people. It was an ego-shattering experience because I noticed myself turning into the exact people that I was condemning. Basically I knew I was a hypocrite and while coming down off the mushrooms and figuring this out, it was probably the only true revelation I've had with any drug.

I'll try to never look down on anyone again and typing this will reinforce it. The next day at the store I was judging people off views alone and I was happy that I caught myself doing this and was able to stop.

People say ecstasy allows you to accept/understand everyone, but that acceptance last for a few hours. Psilocybin will last forever.
 
Definately man, psilocybin changed my life profoundly in that same area: intrapersonal relationships. Two years from my first trip, I find myself much more wise. "Wise" in that my default experience of the world is much more open and less in defense of my own self-concept... more compassionate.

I frequently find myself interactng and being around a diverse range of personalities who really have little in common with me, but I am able to interact with them automatically as friends, because even if we don't share hobbies, we are both equally human, equally persons, and I FEEL that common ground now very concretely.

I am immesurably less judgemental, and so I reveal myself more honestly to people without choosing to do so (automatically). And I can see that they appreciate it and respect me for it, as I respect them. Psilocybin has taken much prejudice from my eyes. I relate to people so much better.
 
I have found healing in Morning Glory seeds, Peyote, Psilocybian mushrooms, and I imagine Ayahuasca would as well, as I have experienced healing and divine conversations with God on 5-MeO-DMT. These psychedelics, especially those that are completely natural/organic seem to have a leading Spirit behind them, and the experience will not leave you unchanged. Some people despise the change and spend the rest of their lives trying to walk away from truth, but they will have to face it in the end. That's why I loved 5-MeO-DMT so much. I had a friend try it, and this friend of mind is the "Anti-Christ." He professed to worship Satan, and he lived his life hating himself, his family, and anyone that tried to get him to open up. After the peak of his 8mg insufflated 5-MeO-DMT trip, he looked at me with tears in his eyes and asked me if he could go to church with me on Sunday, and that he finally caught a glimpse of who God really is. I have received quite a bit from 2C-I, 2C-E, 2C-C, 2C-D, 4-HO/AcO-DiPT, 4-HO/AcO-MiPT, DXM, Ketamine, and other mind altering substances, but nothing compares to that which comes from nature in my opinion. I know most of these "synthetics" including MDMA/MDA are actually semi-synthetics derived from Nutmeg, Sassafrass, and such, but they are chemically produced, and are altered from the way they were naturally. I have nothing against MDMA and MDA. In fact, MDA is one of my favorite synthetics along with LSD, 4-HO-MiPT, and possibly 2C-E. It's just that I have yet to have a true life changing experience because of an entactogenic drug.
 
It really is an amazing tool if it's used properly and not to just get "Fucked Up".

I've found that it has an amazing ability to do something that is difficult if not impossible to do on your own. It allows you to be completely objective and to view yourself as you truly are without the ego and preconceived notions attached. I think this may be why some have a difficult time with psilocybin. Some aren't ready to see what it will show them.

I'm glad that you(the original poster) were able to have the same benefit from this amazing substance.
 
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