tripz_two
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Being excited about an upcoming mushroom experience, I was getting myself into the mood by reading some trip reports, and thought what the hell, I will share my most personally profound trip with whoever cares to read this. There may be something beneficial here or that you can relate to. If so, please let me know.
To this day, this is my most humbling experience.
The lead up is not too important.. ¼ of B+ or Ecuador strain shrooms, and about 80mg mdma to go with. The dose of mdma was so light that I do not think of this as a true hippyflip.
My girlfriend and I were at her apartment, tripping together with friends one evening. It was relatively late and the friends left for a mission (to go get cigarettes).
Pink Floyd division bell was playing and we were in the living room. Out of utter contentment and euphoria, I laid down on the carpet on my front, and closed my eyes. I was quickly met with the expected swirling color explosions matching the spectacular Floyd songs playing behind be.
At this point something became different than normal trips. I began to visualize a simple merry-go-round type thing spinning slowly in front of me. I felt inclined to step from the safe place where I was standing, and to let this merry go round thing take me on its way. I remember tentatively trying to step on it, and feeling me lose myself. Lose “I”, or a sense of “me”. So apprehensively I looked at this thing in my mind spinning in front of me, and was afraid if I got on it I would lose me/my ego/die from the experience. Finally, as High Hopes began thundering on the stereo on the background, I let go and stepped onto the moving merry-go-round object.
Immediately I experienced profound ego loss, and was fine with it. At this point it was a foregone conclusion. I was beyond having any say so, having made my last conscious decision when I stepped on the moving platform.
As the song High Hopes became louder, I found myself observing empty darkness, and I remember feeling a bit – obstinate. I was in awe of this feeling of no personal self, but also something about my existence wanted to know how this all could be happening. What was going on? I wasn’t scared, I wanted “more”. And then it happened.
A voice/figure that I could not really focus on in this emptiness, came to be beside me, and began speaking. This entity was much more enlightened than I. I felt like a child in his presence. And the figure in this emptiness of space said to me “so you want to know how everything works? Well then, look for yourself..” and right then as the Floyd song was playing loudly in the background , I observed or was shown, a beautiful city of crystal or glass in this black emptiness of the sky. I was looking down at it from above. All the shapes of the city buildings were clear and simple, like glass chess pieces, but with a slightly pink tint. And some of them had pennants or flags on top. And there was a immense wind blowing through this crystal city that was surrounded by space. The energy of this city and the wind that I was hearing had some connection to heaven, but nothing was implicitly said to that effect.
I was so in awe that I had goose bumps and at the same time was euphoric. I felt like I had just been let in on a great secret. Simply seeing this city let me know that this being was able to juggle the billions of interconnected actions and thoughts of humans, and somehow it was related to this beautiful vision of something grander than our world “behind the scenes”. I felt as if I was being addressed by God, but the awe I felt was the same as if it were the man behind the curtain in the Wizard of Oz, the Architect from the matrix, or something along those lines.
At that point I was invited to remember what I had seen, even though I could only grasp a small amount of what I had seen, and was then sent back to my ego. I had tears of joy in my eyes as I opened my eyes and discovered my girlfriend sitting uncomfortably near me. It turns out she had collapsed on the floor just as I had, but instead had visions of hands coming out of the earth to take her under the ground, and it scared her badly. She would never tell me more about it. I to this day wonder if I was given a glimpse of ‘heaven’, and her of impending ‘hell’.
To this day, this is my most humbling experience.
The lead up is not too important.. ¼ of B+ or Ecuador strain shrooms, and about 80mg mdma to go with. The dose of mdma was so light that I do not think of this as a true hippyflip.
My girlfriend and I were at her apartment, tripping together with friends one evening. It was relatively late and the friends left for a mission (to go get cigarettes).
Pink Floyd division bell was playing and we were in the living room. Out of utter contentment and euphoria, I laid down on the carpet on my front, and closed my eyes. I was quickly met with the expected swirling color explosions matching the spectacular Floyd songs playing behind be.
At this point something became different than normal trips. I began to visualize a simple merry-go-round type thing spinning slowly in front of me. I felt inclined to step from the safe place where I was standing, and to let this merry go round thing take me on its way. I remember tentatively trying to step on it, and feeling me lose myself. Lose “I”, or a sense of “me”. So apprehensively I looked at this thing in my mind spinning in front of me, and was afraid if I got on it I would lose me/my ego/die from the experience. Finally, as High Hopes began thundering on the stereo on the background, I let go and stepped onto the moving merry-go-round object.
Immediately I experienced profound ego loss, and was fine with it. At this point it was a foregone conclusion. I was beyond having any say so, having made my last conscious decision when I stepped on the moving platform.
As the song High Hopes became louder, I found myself observing empty darkness, and I remember feeling a bit – obstinate. I was in awe of this feeling of no personal self, but also something about my existence wanted to know how this all could be happening. What was going on? I wasn’t scared, I wanted “more”. And then it happened.
A voice/figure that I could not really focus on in this emptiness, came to be beside me, and began speaking. This entity was much more enlightened than I. I felt like a child in his presence. And the figure in this emptiness of space said to me “so you want to know how everything works? Well then, look for yourself..” and right then as the Floyd song was playing loudly in the background , I observed or was shown, a beautiful city of crystal or glass in this black emptiness of the sky. I was looking down at it from above. All the shapes of the city buildings were clear and simple, like glass chess pieces, but with a slightly pink tint. And some of them had pennants or flags on top. And there was a immense wind blowing through this crystal city that was surrounded by space. The energy of this city and the wind that I was hearing had some connection to heaven, but nothing was implicitly said to that effect.
I was so in awe that I had goose bumps and at the same time was euphoric. I felt like I had just been let in on a great secret. Simply seeing this city let me know that this being was able to juggle the billions of interconnected actions and thoughts of humans, and somehow it was related to this beautiful vision of something grander than our world “behind the scenes”. I felt as if I was being addressed by God, but the awe I felt was the same as if it were the man behind the curtain in the Wizard of Oz, the Architect from the matrix, or something along those lines.
At that point I was invited to remember what I had seen, even though I could only grasp a small amount of what I had seen, and was then sent back to my ego. I had tears of joy in my eyes as I opened my eyes and discovered my girlfriend sitting uncomfortably near me. It turns out she had collapsed on the floor just as I had, but instead had visions of hands coming out of the earth to take her under the ground, and it scared her badly. She would never tell me more about it. I to this day wonder if I was given a glimpse of ‘heaven’, and her of impending ‘hell’.
