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Ok, so the morning after the Mexican night (23/7/05), I got up at like 8 and started cleaning up cos I didn't want the house to be messy for my trip. I washed most of the dishes and the house was reasonably tidy by about 10:30am.
R and B were still around but everyone else had gone home. They also had things to do that arvo so couldn't partake with me. M was hesitant but in the end decided to have some.
I ate 3 mushrooms to start with at around 11am. I started with just 3 cos I wanted to approach it all slowly, building up to where I wanted to be. M had just 2.
About 45 mins later I felt a definite lift/elevation in my headspace. The patterns around the room, such as in the wallpaper, seemed more 'meaningful'. All my senses seemed to open up a little more - not in the same way that they do with MDMA - that feels like everything is more sensitive, like all of a sudden I've got more nerve endings. No, with mushrooms the sensory adjustment felt more like. if sensory input came in through a 'gateway', that somehow that gateway had been widened/opened further, to let more of the world flow in.
About 5 - 10 minutes after that I could see 'into' the wall - kind of like how you have to 'look through' the page to make those 3D-Magic pictures work. The surface is flat but when you focus on it enough, all of a sudden it has depth.
R, who had had mushrooms for the first time a few weeks beforehand, knew what I was talking about and described it as a 'glassy' effect. Indeed it did look sorta like there was a panel of glass in front of everything.
At this stage it was around T+1:00, and although some of the shapes in the wallpaper moved almost imperceptibly when I looked at them, there were no visuals (OE or CE) and I didn't feel like I was 'tripping'. A short while later I ate 2 more. I tried to get M to have more cos she wasn't tripping either but the had gagged on the last one she ate & couldn't stand the taste.
M, R and I lay in bed for a while just chilling and talking, observing the effect of the shrooms. R went off to see if
B was awake yet, and while she was gone I couldn't resist exploring the new state of sensory awareness I found myself in. M & I kissed and petted, it felt amazing. I stroked her breasts and that made her whimper, then my hand found its way down to her beautiful pussy and I played there for a bit. I made her g-spot-cum a couple of times. It was an incredibly naughty thing to do given that we had guests still in the house, but I couldn't resist.
When R came back, she had the presence of mind to knock and shout 'Are you having sex?' she was half joking but it was appreciated. Not that it mattered that much as I'd heard her walking up the hall :D. Anyway R hung out with us for a bit more then had to go. Actually I think it was then (around the time she left) that i ate the other 2 mushrooms (totalling 5).
Anyway after that M had to wee so we got up and I took her to the bathroom. I went and hung out with B and she came and joined us. We all hung out in my room for a while. Meg said that the ocean in this watercolour picture she'd drawn was moving. I however did not even have the 'glassy' effect anymore. I think I went and ate one more mushroom, totalling 6.
After hanging out for a while, meg agreed to have more if it was ground up and mixed with juice. So I went off, ate a couple more (8 now) and got 5 more to put in juice. I muddled 3 mushrooms in the bottom of a metal cup, added mint and muddled some more. Then I poured in guava juice and lemonade. I tried to get meg to drink it but she refused cos she could see pieces of mushroom in it. So I strained it for her and she drank the result. In total I'd be surprsed if there was more than one mushroom worth in what she drank. I gave the strained out bits, as well as the 2 spare shrooms, to my brother, C. They didn't end up doing much to him, though his headache went away and he said he felt 'kinda funky' for a couple of hours. I think he did really feel it later when we did nangs though
.
Not long after that we all retreated to the lounge room. Meg wasn't feeling too good - she wasn't tripping at all, neither of us had any visuals, but she really wasn't enjoying the experience. IMO her problem was her intial dose was too low, and she wasn't getting the classic effects of mushrooms. But she hated the taste and so wouldn't go near any more. She curled up on a matress in the lounge room, and I sat in an armchair and looked at stuff.
Still not much was happening to me, and I had lost the euphoria I felt at the start of the trip. I think this was in part because M was having a bad time. She said she could still taste the mushrooms, and that they tasted revolting.
I sat in the armchair and as I stared at 2 shadows the edges of them started to flicker & morph. For a while I felt the strong sensation that something was about to happen, but nothing did. I think I went and ate 2 more (10 total) then. It was pushing for 2:00 then.
When I was staring at the shadows the morphing didn't seem very real. It was like I was looking desperately for any hallucinogenic effects - 'trying to bring the trip on'.
B left at around 2:30 and I curled up on the mattress with Meg. My housemate N shared it with us, and we had a doonah over all of us. I surreptitously started playing with Meg's body, N didn't seem to notice. I got more daring, my hand slid down M's stomach and into her pants, where it was hot and wet, just waiting to be touched. I lay there and made her come again and again with N right next to us. N actually fell asleep after a few minutes, so clearly hadn't noticed. I still cant believe I did something so risky and blatant, but I was wild with desire at the time.
When it got to 3pm I still wasn't feeling any different from the 2 shrooms i'd consumed around 2, so I went and ate all the remaining mushrooms, 6 of them, for a total of 16 p. subs consumed.
I did get noticeable effects after that. But still not what I'd call full blown OEVs. I felt the elevation and euphoria again. I was grinning and laughing like a maniac. During the peak of the experience I saw a poster divide itself up again and again, scores of simulacra radiating out from the original.
I looked at a poster of Gandalf fighting the Balrog, and everything in it swirled and moved. Someone mentioned cats, or purring, and I began to try and purr, started rubbing up against M, and declared that I was a cat. A while later I rolled over and off the matress in laughter, onto my back on the wooden floor. I didn't feel like getting up and I stayed that way for a while, feeling as if I might melt into the floor. I remained at this level for about an hour, then it started to wear off.
Ultimately I hadn't reached what i was looking for. I think this was a combination of too low a starting dose, the wrong mindset going into the trip, and having to do everyday normal things throughout (we had a plumber come over to fix the shower at about 1 that arvo!).
R came back over around 5 or so, and we sat on the back porch. By this stage the trip had turned introspective for me, and become almost unpleasant. It was like I was looking at myself, my life, from far away, and judging me. I could see clearly who i was, and I didn't like that person.
This was quite bizarre for me cos I dont usually have any problems with confidence or self esteem, and have always liked the person that I am. To have that turned topsy-turvy during the tapering-off stage of a mushroom trip was as bizarre as it was distressing.
I did, however, gain the most from the trip during this unpleasant introspective stage.
The thing is, I'd applied for ajob a coupla weeks before, clearly impressed, got thru as the only candidate to be interviewed. Basically I had the job (as a software developer) as long as I did OK on this take-home test they gave me. Anyway, I didn't start the test til Tues (got it on Fri) after saying I'd have it done by mid-week. i really struggled with it & ended up submitting something I knew wasnt what it could be. Basically, I screwed up. The day after I sent it I got an email back saying I didn't get the job.
I guess this occurrence made me look at my life, reassess my priorities. For a few extra hours of effort I probably could have had that job. Instead I missed out cos i put things like raves and parties first.
This all came back to me in a heavy way during the introspective stage of the trip.
That wan't all though. In my mind's eye I kept seeing different versions of me in 10 years time. The mushrooms made me feel very mellow, and I felt very hippy-ish and bohemian at this point. So one of the strongest images was of me as a relaxed older dude, sorta just chillin his was thru life, life being mellow in the same way I felt mellow at the time. Then M came in to the picture. She was sort of my relaxed hippy babe, gorgeous and flowing. Actually, M was in many of the versions of my life in 10 years. I was scared and excited to see her in so many of my visions of the future, and what I realised during the trip was how much she really means to me, how important & integral a part of my life she is.
I was also able to let go of some emotional baggage I've carried regarding our relationship since it started. Basically I've always felt insecure about my love for her because i could never convince myself that it came naturally - it was was more something that gre on me/out of me. But on mushrooms I realised that that doesn't matter now - no matter how it started or where it came from, loving her is the most natural thing in the world to me now.
Anyway, while R was here, C came running out of my room all excited - he'd found my nang stash! On Fri night I vaguely remember hiding half a box of nangs somewhere, then promptly forgetting about them. I assumed they'd been found and used, but obviously not
Doing nangs on shrooms was awesome. I got OEVs of fractal patterns flashing in front of my vision, and everything became an echo in time to the flashing of the pattern. Everything seemed to be happening at precise preordained moments, and when I spoke to my brother and he spoke back it was like a rythmic exchange of meaningful echoes.
I had 2, C 2 and R 1 nang each. We lost one that C wa gonna have when the balloon burst
.
M and I went off to have a shower and ended talking for like half an hour beforehand. I told her some of what I'd experienced - how i felt about her and all the futures that I'd seen. I cried when I tried to tell her some of it, and I cried because I felt so lucky to be with her there in that moment.
We kissed and started to play (Ms sex drive has gone ballistic lately!), I went down on her and then we had absolutely unbelievable, mind-blowing sex. I felt like I was going to die when I came. We showered together, got dressed, and went out to dinner at a great vegetarian restuarant arund the corner. The mushrooms had pretty much worn off I thought, though my pupils were still huge and my headspace ahdn't quite returned to normal.
I am eager to try mushrooms again, but next time I think I'll dry them, grind them and put them in gelcaps. Also next time I'll start with a bigger dose, maybe 6 or 8. I think I'll have a hard time convinving M to try them again, but I do believe she would benefit from it and should.
R and B were still around but everyone else had gone home. They also had things to do that arvo so couldn't partake with me. M was hesitant but in the end decided to have some.
I ate 3 mushrooms to start with at around 11am. I started with just 3 cos I wanted to approach it all slowly, building up to where I wanted to be. M had just 2.
About 45 mins later I felt a definite lift/elevation in my headspace. The patterns around the room, such as in the wallpaper, seemed more 'meaningful'. All my senses seemed to open up a little more - not in the same way that they do with MDMA - that feels like everything is more sensitive, like all of a sudden I've got more nerve endings. No, with mushrooms the sensory adjustment felt more like. if sensory input came in through a 'gateway', that somehow that gateway had been widened/opened further, to let more of the world flow in.
About 5 - 10 minutes after that I could see 'into' the wall - kind of like how you have to 'look through' the page to make those 3D-Magic pictures work. The surface is flat but when you focus on it enough, all of a sudden it has depth.
R, who had had mushrooms for the first time a few weeks beforehand, knew what I was talking about and described it as a 'glassy' effect. Indeed it did look sorta like there was a panel of glass in front of everything.
At this stage it was around T+1:00, and although some of the shapes in the wallpaper moved almost imperceptibly when I looked at them, there were no visuals (OE or CE) and I didn't feel like I was 'tripping'. A short while later I ate 2 more. I tried to get M to have more cos she wasn't tripping either but the had gagged on the last one she ate & couldn't stand the taste.
M, R and I lay in bed for a while just chilling and talking, observing the effect of the shrooms. R went off to see if
B was awake yet, and while she was gone I couldn't resist exploring the new state of sensory awareness I found myself in. M & I kissed and petted, it felt amazing. I stroked her breasts and that made her whimper, then my hand found its way down to her beautiful pussy and I played there for a bit. I made her g-spot-cum a couple of times. It was an incredibly naughty thing to do given that we had guests still in the house, but I couldn't resist.
When R came back, she had the presence of mind to knock and shout 'Are you having sex?' she was half joking but it was appreciated. Not that it mattered that much as I'd heard her walking up the hall :D. Anyway R hung out with us for a bit more then had to go. Actually I think it was then (around the time she left) that i ate the other 2 mushrooms (totalling 5).
Anyway after that M had to wee so we got up and I took her to the bathroom. I went and hung out with B and she came and joined us. We all hung out in my room for a while. Meg said that the ocean in this watercolour picture she'd drawn was moving. I however did not even have the 'glassy' effect anymore. I think I went and ate one more mushroom, totalling 6.
After hanging out for a while, meg agreed to have more if it was ground up and mixed with juice. So I went off, ate a couple more (8 now) and got 5 more to put in juice. I muddled 3 mushrooms in the bottom of a metal cup, added mint and muddled some more. Then I poured in guava juice and lemonade. I tried to get meg to drink it but she refused cos she could see pieces of mushroom in it. So I strained it for her and she drank the result. In total I'd be surprsed if there was more than one mushroom worth in what she drank. I gave the strained out bits, as well as the 2 spare shrooms, to my brother, C. They didn't end up doing much to him, though his headache went away and he said he felt 'kinda funky' for a couple of hours. I think he did really feel it later when we did nangs though
. Not long after that we all retreated to the lounge room. Meg wasn't feeling too good - she wasn't tripping at all, neither of us had any visuals, but she really wasn't enjoying the experience. IMO her problem was her intial dose was too low, and she wasn't getting the classic effects of mushrooms. But she hated the taste and so wouldn't go near any more. She curled up on a matress in the lounge room, and I sat in an armchair and looked at stuff.
Still not much was happening to me, and I had lost the euphoria I felt at the start of the trip. I think this was in part because M was having a bad time. She said she could still taste the mushrooms, and that they tasted revolting.
I sat in the armchair and as I stared at 2 shadows the edges of them started to flicker & morph. For a while I felt the strong sensation that something was about to happen, but nothing did. I think I went and ate 2 more (10 total) then. It was pushing for 2:00 then.
When I was staring at the shadows the morphing didn't seem very real. It was like I was looking desperately for any hallucinogenic effects - 'trying to bring the trip on'.
B left at around 2:30 and I curled up on the mattress with Meg. My housemate N shared it with us, and we had a doonah over all of us. I surreptitously started playing with Meg's body, N didn't seem to notice. I got more daring, my hand slid down M's stomach and into her pants, where it was hot and wet, just waiting to be touched. I lay there and made her come again and again with N right next to us. N actually fell asleep after a few minutes, so clearly hadn't noticed. I still cant believe I did something so risky and blatant, but I was wild with desire at the time.
When it got to 3pm I still wasn't feeling any different from the 2 shrooms i'd consumed around 2, so I went and ate all the remaining mushrooms, 6 of them, for a total of 16 p. subs consumed.
I did get noticeable effects after that. But still not what I'd call full blown OEVs. I felt the elevation and euphoria again. I was grinning and laughing like a maniac. During the peak of the experience I saw a poster divide itself up again and again, scores of simulacra radiating out from the original.
I looked at a poster of Gandalf fighting the Balrog, and everything in it swirled and moved. Someone mentioned cats, or purring, and I began to try and purr, started rubbing up against M, and declared that I was a cat. A while later I rolled over and off the matress in laughter, onto my back on the wooden floor. I didn't feel like getting up and I stayed that way for a while, feeling as if I might melt into the floor. I remained at this level for about an hour, then it started to wear off.
Ultimately I hadn't reached what i was looking for. I think this was a combination of too low a starting dose, the wrong mindset going into the trip, and having to do everyday normal things throughout (we had a plumber come over to fix the shower at about 1 that arvo!).
R came back over around 5 or so, and we sat on the back porch. By this stage the trip had turned introspective for me, and become almost unpleasant. It was like I was looking at myself, my life, from far away, and judging me. I could see clearly who i was, and I didn't like that person.
This was quite bizarre for me cos I dont usually have any problems with confidence or self esteem, and have always liked the person that I am. To have that turned topsy-turvy during the tapering-off stage of a mushroom trip was as bizarre as it was distressing.
I did, however, gain the most from the trip during this unpleasant introspective stage.
The thing is, I'd applied for ajob a coupla weeks before, clearly impressed, got thru as the only candidate to be interviewed. Basically I had the job (as a software developer) as long as I did OK on this take-home test they gave me. Anyway, I didn't start the test til Tues (got it on Fri) after saying I'd have it done by mid-week. i really struggled with it & ended up submitting something I knew wasnt what it could be. Basically, I screwed up. The day after I sent it I got an email back saying I didn't get the job.
I guess this occurrence made me look at my life, reassess my priorities. For a few extra hours of effort I probably could have had that job. Instead I missed out cos i put things like raves and parties first.
This all came back to me in a heavy way during the introspective stage of the trip.
That wan't all though. In my mind's eye I kept seeing different versions of me in 10 years time. The mushrooms made me feel very mellow, and I felt very hippy-ish and bohemian at this point. So one of the strongest images was of me as a relaxed older dude, sorta just chillin his was thru life, life being mellow in the same way I felt mellow at the time. Then M came in to the picture. She was sort of my relaxed hippy babe, gorgeous and flowing. Actually, M was in many of the versions of my life in 10 years. I was scared and excited to see her in so many of my visions of the future, and what I realised during the trip was how much she really means to me, how important & integral a part of my life she is.
I was also able to let go of some emotional baggage I've carried regarding our relationship since it started. Basically I've always felt insecure about my love for her because i could never convince myself that it came naturally - it was was more something that gre on me/out of me. But on mushrooms I realised that that doesn't matter now - no matter how it started or where it came from, loving her is the most natural thing in the world to me now.
Anyway, while R was here, C came running out of my room all excited - he'd found my nang stash! On Fri night I vaguely remember hiding half a box of nangs somewhere, then promptly forgetting about them. I assumed they'd been found and used, but obviously not
Doing nangs on shrooms was awesome. I got OEVs of fractal patterns flashing in front of my vision, and everything became an echo in time to the flashing of the pattern. Everything seemed to be happening at precise preordained moments, and when I spoke to my brother and he spoke back it was like a rythmic exchange of meaningful echoes.
I had 2, C 2 and R 1 nang each. We lost one that C wa gonna have when the balloon burst
. M and I went off to have a shower and ended talking for like half an hour beforehand. I told her some of what I'd experienced - how i felt about her and all the futures that I'd seen. I cried when I tried to tell her some of it, and I cried because I felt so lucky to be with her there in that moment.
We kissed and started to play (Ms sex drive has gone ballistic lately!), I went down on her and then we had absolutely unbelievable, mind-blowing sex. I felt like I was going to die when I came. We showered together, got dressed, and went out to dinner at a great vegetarian restuarant arund the corner. The mushrooms had pretty much worn off I thought, though my pupils were still huge and my headspace ahdn't quite returned to normal.
I am eager to try mushrooms again, but next time I think I'll dry them, grind them and put them in gelcaps. Also next time I'll start with a bigger dose, maybe 6 or 8. I think I'll have a hard time convinving M to try them again, but I do believe she would benefit from it and should.
