4DQSAR
Bluelighter
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I note that the BL Shrine doesn't appear to have retain the people who died before 2002.
Back in 2001 CherryColouredFunk (his partner) posted that MGTG had been found dead by the police. He had consumed 1l of cheap whisky and there were traces of other drugs in his system. He wasn't found for a number of days because he had become so isolated.
I didn't know Tom well but several times I got on a bus or got a lift to go see him with a view to lending him my support. But a few months before he dies, he had ODed on 2CB and ended up in hospital. In fact, his behaviors were so self-destructive that there was even a thread titled 'Bluelighter Most Likely To...' which in retrospect, cannot have helped his self-esteem.
What bothered me the most was that just a couple of months before his death, I moved some 200 miles away. I knew from PMs that Tom was struggling but at the time I was in an abusive relationship and was coerced into NOT getting on a train to help him. It was my wife who shamefacidly told me Tom was dead. I will always feel guilty that I didn't ignore her and go. Because I'm damned sure Tom would have come to help me.
So I will always feel guilr for that.
But Tom was in a cycle of self-destruction and I suppose if he hadn't died on that day, he would likely have done so on another day.
Back in 2001 CherryColouredFunk (his partner) posted that MGTG had been found dead by the police. He had consumed 1l of cheap whisky and there were traces of other drugs in his system. He wasn't found for a number of days because he had become so isolated.
I didn't know Tom well but several times I got on a bus or got a lift to go see him with a view to lending him my support. But a few months before he dies, he had ODed on 2CB and ended up in hospital. In fact, his behaviors were so self-destructive that there was even a thread titled 'Bluelighter Most Likely To...' which in retrospect, cannot have helped his self-esteem.
What bothered me the most was that just a couple of months before his death, I moved some 200 miles away. I knew from PMs that Tom was struggling but at the time I was in an abusive relationship and was coerced into NOT getting on a train to help him. It was my wife who shamefacidly told me Tom was dead. I will always feel guilty that I didn't ignore her and go. Because I'm damned sure Tom would have come to help me.
So I will always feel guilr for that.
But Tom was in a cycle of self-destruction and I suppose if he hadn't died on that day, he would likely have done so on another day.