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Most desperate thing you have done to obtain your DOC

SKR said:
It's the lies. And not necessarily or at all related to scamming or stealing or whatever, as an addict every moment of every day is a lie, you're living a double life and if you are high functioning then anyone that you love and those that love you are being lied to. You're caught in situations where you are not where you were supposed to be, often late for appointments, dates or catching up with mates that aren't drug buddies, you're always lying about what you were doing or where you're going. It's the lies that just kill me in the end.
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sad cuz its so true. i find myself having to choose words super carefully so i dont let slip where i came from or what i was doing...been caught in a lie before, shit been caught with dope in hand before...no talkin your way outta that. then you gotta remember all these lies youve been telling in case the shit comes up again, or else have an excuse why you cant remember where you were yesterday, or the last week... yea definitely weighs on ya, least i dont steal anymore tho. that one always shook me
 
sold possessions that were gifted to me, lied to family to get money, ripped people off when I acted as a middleman

I've never had an opiate habit, I feel like I would do much more desperate things in that situation
 
The lying is particularly painful. A lot of the time the person knows you are lying, but just doesn't want the argument of calling you on your bullshit.

I remember making my Mom cry so many times when I was on opiates. I was living in New York and she was in Florida, and we would talk. I remember telling her that everything was going well, and she burst out crying because my brother had called and told her everything. She still played along even though she was crying like I was telling her the truth, and still sent me the 100 dollars I needed to get by. She knew it was for drugs, but I swore up and down it wasn't.

It still breaks my heart a little when I think of it.
 
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