unsettled
Bluelighter
in retrospect it would probably have been, hydrocodone, oxycodone, adderall, xanax, valium, ambien, with lots of alcohol, mostly gin.
they would all be taken within a few hour period, we'd start off with the opiates, then some adderall, then start drinking and adding benzos and continuing to drink and have sex until we passed out, then wake up three hours later and go to our respective jobs.
basically very similar to what Heath Ledger died of, almost the exact same combination many nights in a row when my ex gf and I were going through a very self destructive yet fun period. at the time I really wasn't aware of the dangers of mixing all those drugs, just having fun with drugs and sex.
there were periods later on when I was more aware of the dangers but just depressed where I'd take a ton of Adderall and Drink for hours on end, sometimes days and nights without any sleep. Then when I'd need to sleep I'd just take xanax after xanax and keep drinking until I passed out, I passed out for almost 24 hours more than a few times during this period. I really think this was the period where drugs came closest to killing me, sometimes I'd take vicodin with all of this too. I didn't care if I lived or died for awhile there. The adderall and alcohol were the only things I enjoyed, or that allowed me to enjoy other things.
In comparison Heroin and Kpins have been much kinder to my body and mind when I've taken them, but I've always been tolerant to both when using them, never took more than my prescribed amount of kpin on heroin.
wow, after reading through all this it's kinda scary how long I've been tolerant to benzos and stimulants and opiates.
I really don't understand what is fun about taking benzos besides the times you're stressed out or trying to come down from stims. I never liked blacking out, I always strove for conciousness all the way till I wanted to crash. large amounts of alcohol and benzos is an instant recipe for disaster if you don't have a tolerance.
I think Heroin and Alcohol must be the worst not to mention most unpleasant combo, Heroin makes me want nothing but more H, maybe some dexedrine.
they would all be taken within a few hour period, we'd start off with the opiates, then some adderall, then start drinking and adding benzos and continuing to drink and have sex until we passed out, then wake up three hours later and go to our respective jobs.
basically very similar to what Heath Ledger died of, almost the exact same combination many nights in a row when my ex gf and I were going through a very self destructive yet fun period. at the time I really wasn't aware of the dangers of mixing all those drugs, just having fun with drugs and sex.
there were periods later on when I was more aware of the dangers but just depressed where I'd take a ton of Adderall and Drink for hours on end, sometimes days and nights without any sleep. Then when I'd need to sleep I'd just take xanax after xanax and keep drinking until I passed out, I passed out for almost 24 hours more than a few times during this period. I really think this was the period where drugs came closest to killing me, sometimes I'd take vicodin with all of this too. I didn't care if I lived or died for awhile there. The adderall and alcohol were the only things I enjoyed, or that allowed me to enjoy other things.
In comparison Heroin and Kpins have been much kinder to my body and mind when I've taken them, but I've always been tolerant to both when using them, never took more than my prescribed amount of kpin on heroin.
wow, after reading through all this it's kinda scary how long I've been tolerant to benzos and stimulants and opiates.
I really don't understand what is fun about taking benzos besides the times you're stressed out or trying to come down from stims. I never liked blacking out, I always strove for conciousness all the way till I wanted to crash. large amounts of alcohol and benzos is an instant recipe for disaster if you don't have a tolerance.
I think Heroin and Alcohol must be the worst not to mention most unpleasant combo, Heroin makes me want nothing but more H, maybe some dexedrine.
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