*** copied from old BL journal ***
I was absolutely NUTS in my head Thursday night and Friday at work. I called my doctor on Friday so he could call in a script for paroxetine (generic paxil). He had already left the office so the nurse said it would be called in on Monday (yesterday).
My boss could tell that I was fucked in the head on Friday. We go way back and understand each others struggles. He had a sample pack of 10 mg Lexapro that he gave me. I took one a day from Friday to Monday. I noticed some positive effects although the full benefits take a couple of weeks to materialize. I knew it was working because I experienced the dreaded symptom of ejaculatory delay on Saturday night. I fuckin' hate that particular side affect. The girl I'm sleeping with wants me to have orgasms. I dig it but I am more interested in pleasing her (although I absolutely do enjoy cumming!)
Anyway, I picked up my 20 mg paroxetine today and started my first dose. I have been noticing lately that I have a lot of anxiety. I want to stay away from anti-anxiety meds since its my understanding that they are all benzodiazapenes and I gotta watch myself around addictive substances since I ALWAYS end up abusing them.
I'm gonna wait for the paroxetine to take its full effect and see if it helps with anxiety and go from there. This will also give me time to do research on the issue and possible non-addictive meds. I'm unsure if I've always been anxious or not. I kinda think I have been but the parox. must have helped in the past.
Off topic... I had my blood taken today and I get the results in one to two days. Cool! No more condoms for me! I hate those things! More often than not it kills my hard-on. That's just a real blow to a guys confidence when you have an amazingly beautiful woman laying naked in front of you and all of a sudden... nothing!
The lady who processed me at the blood place was really friendly when I was signing in but when she went to draw my blood she got real quiet. My track marks are still visible (especially to a phlebotomist). Its okay. Everyone has had some sort of shame in their past.
I was absolutely NUTS in my head Thursday night and Friday at work. I called my doctor on Friday so he could call in a script for paroxetine (generic paxil). He had already left the office so the nurse said it would be called in on Monday (yesterday).
My boss could tell that I was fucked in the head on Friday. We go way back and understand each others struggles. He had a sample pack of 10 mg Lexapro that he gave me. I took one a day from Friday to Monday. I noticed some positive effects although the full benefits take a couple of weeks to materialize. I knew it was working because I experienced the dreaded symptom of ejaculatory delay on Saturday night. I fuckin' hate that particular side affect. The girl I'm sleeping with wants me to have orgasms. I dig it but I am more interested in pleasing her (although I absolutely do enjoy cumming!)
Anyway, I picked up my 20 mg paroxetine today and started my first dose. I have been noticing lately that I have a lot of anxiety. I want to stay away from anti-anxiety meds since its my understanding that they are all benzodiazapenes and I gotta watch myself around addictive substances since I ALWAYS end up abusing them.
I'm gonna wait for the paroxetine to take its full effect and see if it helps with anxiety and go from there. This will also give me time to do research on the issue and possible non-addictive meds. I'm unsure if I've always been anxious or not. I kinda think I have been but the parox. must have helped in the past.
Off topic... I had my blood taken today and I get the results in one to two days. Cool! No more condoms for me! I hate those things! More often than not it kills my hard-on. That's just a real blow to a guys confidence when you have an amazingly beautiful woman laying naked in front of you and all of a sudden... nothing!
The lady who processed me at the blood place was really friendly when I was signing in but when she went to draw my blood she got real quiet. My track marks are still visible (especially to a phlebotomist). Its okay. Everyone has had some sort of shame in their past.