Another day of just looking away.
Guess there's no more to see there, anyway.
She seems happier, so I try and say, fuck it.
I closed the door, after all, she only locked it.
Forget that it all feels like it did
before her unprecedented return.
Never mind how everything reminds me,
how every single memory burns.
For I know well that I brought it all on myself.
I had a chance, but crawled back in my shell.
She seems to be swimming, why try and make her drown?
She seems to be flying, why try and shoot her down?
So stupid is my jealousy.
How clear, my hypocrisy.
Seems to be fate, inevitability, though
the thought does not exactly appeal to me.
I think, couldn't we have discussed this?
Couldn't we have sat down, negotiated?
But I backed out of this too early, the trick
is to work through it all, not to escape it
and all the vulnerability such emotion entails,
because she was willing to accept me,
but I was determined to fail.
So congratulations to me
on my morbid victory.
Guess there's no more to see there, anyway.
She seems happier, so I try and say, fuck it.
I closed the door, after all, she only locked it.
Forget that it all feels like it did
before her unprecedented return.
Never mind how everything reminds me,
how every single memory burns.
For I know well that I brought it all on myself.
I had a chance, but crawled back in my shell.
She seems to be swimming, why try and make her drown?
She seems to be flying, why try and shoot her down?
So stupid is my jealousy.
How clear, my hypocrisy.
Seems to be fate, inevitability, though
the thought does not exactly appeal to me.
I think, couldn't we have discussed this?
Couldn't we have sat down, negotiated?
But I backed out of this too early, the trick
is to work through it all, not to escape it
and all the vulnerability such emotion entails,
because she was willing to accept me,
but I was determined to fail.
So congratulations to me
on my morbid victory.
