Hey all. For background information (and I'll try to make this brief). I'm a longtime sufferer of severe major depression, ADHD, OCD, and severe anxiety. I've also got a host of GI problems, endocrine problems, and chronic pain, so let's just say I'm on a first name basis with my pharmacist. As far as my medications go, I'm prescribed:
alprazolam (anxiety) - 6mg/day
temazepam (insomnia) - 30mg/day
hydrocodone (pain) - 30mg/day
tizanidine (muscle pain/spasms) - 8mg/day
amitriptyline (depression/nerve pain) - 100mg/day
ondansetron (nausea) - 24mg/day PRN
promethazine (nausea) - 75mg/day PRN
hyoscyamine (stomach spasms) - .375mg/day
and dexlansoprazole (GERD) - 60mg/day.
I will soon also be on testosterone replacement therapy. The reason I mention this is I know that a hormonal imbalance such as low testosterone can have dramatic effects on one's affect, so I don't know if I should speak with my psychiatrist about making changes in the depression department before I get in to see my endocrinologist or see how that pans out.
Just the past week or so my depression has been a lot worse than normal. I'm having suicidal ideation again, I'm engaging in old-habits that can and will compromise my current treatment, and I'm in a constant state of melancholic apathy. I've dirtied my piss by smoking weed a couple times (which makes me nervous these days, I don't even know why I try anymore), I've been using methamphetamine intravenously (which makes me anxious, paranoid (usually), and in the end exponentially more depressed), and some other things I'd rather not mention here.
I don't know why I do this shit. I start to climb out of the grave I've dug for myself just to cease progress and start burying myself again. It's like I just get into such a strong state of apathy long enough to start fucking up again, and then lament over it. I really don't want to come off of the amitriptyline, because it helps quite a bit with my nerve pain. I can't supplement with a new-generation SSRI/SNRI, as they have paradoxical effects on me as far as depression and anxiety go.
I don't know, however, if it would be safe for me to start an MAOI. I've avoided these like the plague sense I started seeking pharmaceutical tools to help with depression, but I feel like it's the only option I have left. If anyone has any suggestions or anecdotal reports of experiences with MAOI's, they would be greatly appreciated.
alprazolam (anxiety) - 6mg/day
temazepam (insomnia) - 30mg/day
hydrocodone (pain) - 30mg/day
tizanidine (muscle pain/spasms) - 8mg/day
amitriptyline (depression/nerve pain) - 100mg/day
ondansetron (nausea) - 24mg/day PRN
promethazine (nausea) - 75mg/day PRN
hyoscyamine (stomach spasms) - .375mg/day
and dexlansoprazole (GERD) - 60mg/day.
I will soon also be on testosterone replacement therapy. The reason I mention this is I know that a hormonal imbalance such as low testosterone can have dramatic effects on one's affect, so I don't know if I should speak with my psychiatrist about making changes in the depression department before I get in to see my endocrinologist or see how that pans out.
Just the past week or so my depression has been a lot worse than normal. I'm having suicidal ideation again, I'm engaging in old-habits that can and will compromise my current treatment, and I'm in a constant state of melancholic apathy. I've dirtied my piss by smoking weed a couple times (which makes me nervous these days, I don't even know why I try anymore), I've been using methamphetamine intravenously (which makes me anxious, paranoid (usually), and in the end exponentially more depressed), and some other things I'd rather not mention here.
I don't know why I do this shit. I start to climb out of the grave I've dug for myself just to cease progress and start burying myself again. It's like I just get into such a strong state of apathy long enough to start fucking up again, and then lament over it. I really don't want to come off of the amitriptyline, because it helps quite a bit with my nerve pain. I can't supplement with a new-generation SSRI/SNRI, as they have paradoxical effects on me as far as depression and anxiety go.
I don't know, however, if it would be safe for me to start an MAOI. I've avoided these like the plague sense I started seeking pharmaceutical tools to help with depression, but I feel like it's the only option I have left. If anyone has any suggestions or anecdotal reports of experiences with MAOI's, they would be greatly appreciated.