Mohamedbear
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Hi people, recently registered but I've been a long time lurker. I just want to share my progress on stopping heroin.
Ive started this journal on another well-known drugs forum but wanted to share my progress with you lot and hopefully help a few along the way.
So this is a bit about me.
Hey guys and gals my names mohamedbear I'm a 25 year old male from the UK that is currently on day 3 withdrawal from heroin... And going strong!
I'd like to tell you a bit about myself first and my previous medical procedures from which I believe my opiate use first stemmed from. In 2014 I had to have my colon (large intestine) removed due to ulcerative colitis and as a result a colostomy bag fitted to my stomach at 21 years of age with no previous history of colitis.
I have always enjoyed recreational drugs like: MDMA, Amphetamines, LSD, Magic mushrooms, Cannabis. So I knew how good the made me feel and used these for about 2 years before all this shit happened.
Then whilst in hospital I got my first taste of opiates and let's just say wow. I went from having the worst abdominal pain ever! That I can't even begin to describe the agony I was in. To then be given 10mg I. V morphine for the first time ever taking an opiate! Within seconds the severe abdominal pain had subsided and I was left with a complete feeling of bliss that I can only describe as floating on the fluffiest cloud you've ever seen, wrapped in a blanket of warmth .... This is when I first got a taste of opiates....
I spent 2 weeks in hospital, the first being treated with strong steroids, the occasional morphine shot and tramadol in between. After a week of symptoms getting worse I was rushed into surgery with whats known as a toxic mega colon. This is when my bowl was removed and a colostomy bag fitted ... I awoke from surgery not really knowing what surgery I'd had done because I was that out of it but I had a I. V morphine drip inserted that I could dispense at the press of a button.
Needless to say I pressed the hell out of that button... Despite only just coming round from surgery I experienced the same bliss! And you guessed it, I pressed the button that much I made myself sick to the stomach! Then my auntie visited me who had taken amphetamines all her life, at least 25 years my dad also being a 31 year amphetamine addict. My dad's been clean 3 years now and my auntie 11 weeks! So pleased for them both!
So my auntie visits and asks what drugs I'm on. ''anything good'' she says? I say yeah I. V morphine and show her the button. She goes whoa! Give us some! And then laughs and says nah, but if it was nitrous oxide I'd soon have a go.... She then tells me to be careful because people come into hospital ill and leave with a heroin addiction. About two days later is when I made myself really sick from abusing the button... Lol. It was a bad experience to say the least!
After this I didn't take any opiate painkillers and swore to my mum that I experienced withdrawals.... after two days of feeling like shite with zero sleep I was given 30mg oxy Contin, this was a horrible experience! I felt tired (I now know as nodding off) but paralysed at the same time stareing at the ceiling, unable to sleep and this was when I refused opiates.
A week after the operation I was released from hospital with codeine and tramadol and various other medications I needed for recovery, needless to say the last thing I wanted was opiates so I didn't take them just the other medication.
My recovery from this operation took a couple of months during which I didn't take any opiates just the other medication.
About half a year down the line, fit and healthy I was left with this feeling of depression and the thought of why has this happened to me....
Now because of my recreational drug use I knew how good drugs made me feel.... (temporarily) But didn't want to take any thing like mdma or amphetamines because of fear of health implications. So guess what... I took 120mg of codeine and felt great. I did this about twice a week but never experienced withdrawal because of my sporadic use. Fast forward a year and I discover poppy pod tea and this is when I first experienced proper opiate withdrawal. After three months of daily use I quit and had horrible withdrawals but made it through without the use of any other drugs and vowed never to do opiates again.
About another year after this I discovered tramadol and having vowed never to take opiates again proceeded to down 300-400mg daily purchased from a friend. I used daily for about half a year but supprisingly experienced very little withdrawal because of researching tapering and sticking to my schedule.
After quitting tramadol rather painlessly I went on another poppy pod binge just months after the tramadol addiction.
Amidst my poppy pod induced state of mind I hear my mate on about so and so who I happen to know and how they're selling brown (heroin) ... This immediately peaked my interests.... Partly because of the unpredictability off poppy pod tea's strength and a reliable source.
So I reached out... Obviously... And so began my descent into darkness using the very same class of drugs that once raised me above the darkness.... Haha shouldn't laugh because I've lost a lot due to this addiction. But being as I'm at the end of day 3 no opiates I feel like I can...
Since starting the dance with the devil (heroin) I've kicked the habit several times, about 3-4 times I loose count but always get drawn back after about a month or so of sobriety... The longest stretch of sobriety was about 3 months.
When I first discovered heroin I started on one bag a day and after 3 months progressed onto 3 bags a day or more If I could afford it and soon began finding myself waking up in withdrawal. In a frenzy I searched every part of the Internet looking for a way to painlessly detox from heroin. After countless hours of reading I discovered lyrica (Pregabalin) and how people were using it to withdraw from opiates.... Painlessly!
I Immediately got onto my addict ''mates'' and got a box of 56 150mg pregabs and so began my first heroin detox.
I'll describe my opiate kicking regime below because it's been the same process every time. And I'll tell you this ... Kicking opiates is a piece of piss! Trust me this is the easy part but staying off them is a different story altogether demonstrated by my multiple relapses....
But up until my 3rd relapse my parents knew nothing of my addiction to one of the most addicting drugs of all times and I believe the combination of my parents not knowing and me using drugs to feel good (temporarily) where what made me relapse so easily because I had no one to share my accomplishments with.
Once my parents found out I quit cold turkey again using only pregabalin and made them happy and I felt pretty chuffed myself... This was my longest period of sobriety, 3 months! But once again I fell back onto the wagon but this time my use escalated to half a gram a day.
And now here I am again 3 days clean! Huray!
This time round I've well and truly hit rock bottom. I've stole off my family and lost all trust from them after being given chance after chance and me taking the piss time and time again. This time though I've contacted my local addiction center for some professional help because I just can't stay off the stuff ... And this is where I need counselling!
Initially when I contacted them I was still using and they were keen to put me on a script for either methadone or subbitex and at the time I was considering methadone because I just wanted some normality in my life. The entire process for getting a script takes 3-4 weeks... A long time really especially when you already can't afford your habit.
Its currently been 3 weeks and so far have been allocated a key worker, spilled my heart out, had a medical and have my clinic appointment some time this coming week but by then will be opiate free! Yippee!
I can't wait to tell my key worker I'm opiate free and prove it with a drugs test and show my parents the evidence!
So after this long long post (typed on my phone) I believe this is the time I'll remain opiate free because I ain't just got myself to prove it to and having a key worker there to support me and provide proper counciling to help me stay off em for good!
But here's to day 4!
I'll write up my withdrawal method tomorrow and explain it in full detail but if it wasn't for you guys... and gals I wouldn't have the valuable information I've got.
So take care every body and good luck to all!
Ive started this journal on another well-known drugs forum but wanted to share my progress with you lot and hopefully help a few along the way.
So this is a bit about me.
Hey guys and gals my names mohamedbear I'm a 25 year old male from the UK that is currently on day 3 withdrawal from heroin... And going strong!
I'd like to tell you a bit about myself first and my previous medical procedures from which I believe my opiate use first stemmed from. In 2014 I had to have my colon (large intestine) removed due to ulcerative colitis and as a result a colostomy bag fitted to my stomach at 21 years of age with no previous history of colitis.
I have always enjoyed recreational drugs like: MDMA, Amphetamines, LSD, Magic mushrooms, Cannabis. So I knew how good the made me feel and used these for about 2 years before all this shit happened.
Then whilst in hospital I got my first taste of opiates and let's just say wow. I went from having the worst abdominal pain ever! That I can't even begin to describe the agony I was in. To then be given 10mg I. V morphine for the first time ever taking an opiate! Within seconds the severe abdominal pain had subsided and I was left with a complete feeling of bliss that I can only describe as floating on the fluffiest cloud you've ever seen, wrapped in a blanket of warmth .... This is when I first got a taste of opiates....
I spent 2 weeks in hospital, the first being treated with strong steroids, the occasional morphine shot and tramadol in between. After a week of symptoms getting worse I was rushed into surgery with whats known as a toxic mega colon. This is when my bowl was removed and a colostomy bag fitted ... I awoke from surgery not really knowing what surgery I'd had done because I was that out of it but I had a I. V morphine drip inserted that I could dispense at the press of a button.
Needless to say I pressed the hell out of that button... Despite only just coming round from surgery I experienced the same bliss! And you guessed it, I pressed the button that much I made myself sick to the stomach! Then my auntie visited me who had taken amphetamines all her life, at least 25 years my dad also being a 31 year amphetamine addict. My dad's been clean 3 years now and my auntie 11 weeks! So pleased for them both!
So my auntie visits and asks what drugs I'm on. ''anything good'' she says? I say yeah I. V morphine and show her the button. She goes whoa! Give us some! And then laughs and says nah, but if it was nitrous oxide I'd soon have a go.... She then tells me to be careful because people come into hospital ill and leave with a heroin addiction. About two days later is when I made myself really sick from abusing the button... Lol. It was a bad experience to say the least!
After this I didn't take any opiate painkillers and swore to my mum that I experienced withdrawals.... after two days of feeling like shite with zero sleep I was given 30mg oxy Contin, this was a horrible experience! I felt tired (I now know as nodding off) but paralysed at the same time stareing at the ceiling, unable to sleep and this was when I refused opiates.
A week after the operation I was released from hospital with codeine and tramadol and various other medications I needed for recovery, needless to say the last thing I wanted was opiates so I didn't take them just the other medication.
My recovery from this operation took a couple of months during which I didn't take any opiates just the other medication.
About half a year down the line, fit and healthy I was left with this feeling of depression and the thought of why has this happened to me....
Now because of my recreational drug use I knew how good drugs made me feel.... (temporarily) But didn't want to take any thing like mdma or amphetamines because of fear of health implications. So guess what... I took 120mg of codeine and felt great. I did this about twice a week but never experienced withdrawal because of my sporadic use. Fast forward a year and I discover poppy pod tea and this is when I first experienced proper opiate withdrawal. After three months of daily use I quit and had horrible withdrawals but made it through without the use of any other drugs and vowed never to do opiates again.
About another year after this I discovered tramadol and having vowed never to take opiates again proceeded to down 300-400mg daily purchased from a friend. I used daily for about half a year but supprisingly experienced very little withdrawal because of researching tapering and sticking to my schedule.
After quitting tramadol rather painlessly I went on another poppy pod binge just months after the tramadol addiction.
Amidst my poppy pod induced state of mind I hear my mate on about so and so who I happen to know and how they're selling brown (heroin) ... This immediately peaked my interests.... Partly because of the unpredictability off poppy pod tea's strength and a reliable source.
So I reached out... Obviously... And so began my descent into darkness using the very same class of drugs that once raised me above the darkness.... Haha shouldn't laugh because I've lost a lot due to this addiction. But being as I'm at the end of day 3 no opiates I feel like I can...
Since starting the dance with the devil (heroin) I've kicked the habit several times, about 3-4 times I loose count but always get drawn back after about a month or so of sobriety... The longest stretch of sobriety was about 3 months.
When I first discovered heroin I started on one bag a day and after 3 months progressed onto 3 bags a day or more If I could afford it and soon began finding myself waking up in withdrawal. In a frenzy I searched every part of the Internet looking for a way to painlessly detox from heroin. After countless hours of reading I discovered lyrica (Pregabalin) and how people were using it to withdraw from opiates.... Painlessly!
I Immediately got onto my addict ''mates'' and got a box of 56 150mg pregabs and so began my first heroin detox.
I'll describe my opiate kicking regime below because it's been the same process every time. And I'll tell you this ... Kicking opiates is a piece of piss! Trust me this is the easy part but staying off them is a different story altogether demonstrated by my multiple relapses....
But up until my 3rd relapse my parents knew nothing of my addiction to one of the most addicting drugs of all times and I believe the combination of my parents not knowing and me using drugs to feel good (temporarily) where what made me relapse so easily because I had no one to share my accomplishments with.
Once my parents found out I quit cold turkey again using only pregabalin and made them happy and I felt pretty chuffed myself... This was my longest period of sobriety, 3 months! But once again I fell back onto the wagon but this time my use escalated to half a gram a day.
And now here I am again 3 days clean! Huray!
This time round I've well and truly hit rock bottom. I've stole off my family and lost all trust from them after being given chance after chance and me taking the piss time and time again. This time though I've contacted my local addiction center for some professional help because I just can't stay off the stuff ... And this is where I need counselling!
Initially when I contacted them I was still using and they were keen to put me on a script for either methadone or subbitex and at the time I was considering methadone because I just wanted some normality in my life. The entire process for getting a script takes 3-4 weeks... A long time really especially when you already can't afford your habit.
Its currently been 3 weeks and so far have been allocated a key worker, spilled my heart out, had a medical and have my clinic appointment some time this coming week but by then will be opiate free! Yippee!
I can't wait to tell my key worker I'm opiate free and prove it with a drugs test and show my parents the evidence!
So after this long long post (typed on my phone) I believe this is the time I'll remain opiate free because I ain't just got myself to prove it to and having a key worker there to support me and provide proper counciling to help me stay off em for good!
But here's to day 4!
I'll write up my withdrawal method tomorrow and explain it in full detail but if it wasn't for you guys... and gals I wouldn't have the valuable information I've got.
So take care every body and good luck to all!