Shame, benzos are god's gift from his loins to me; different strokes for different folks though!
Ethan8, how long have you been on the benzos? If it's been a long term thing you've got some heavy tolerance building and probably wouldn't recommend upping the dose. If you still have horrible anxiety or related problems, perhaps your doctor can combine it with something else?
Either way, I find valium to give me a bit more of a cloudy head and a body high and xanax to be the best for my anxiety also giving me a nice head high. Haven't tried any of those extremely strong ones mentioned previous, but I have heard they absolutely get the job done!
I was on /am on mirtazapine a excelent anti-d in the UK for depression and when cominded with testerones/gym/change in life ,kicking old habits anxiety faded unless steroid dose was either too high or a compound that did not sit with me.
So I stay clean [anti-d + steroids + 10mg zolpidem] to me that f--king clean after my younger life.
My Mum died ,I had benzo and pretty much everything access but I held it together and felt pretty 'tough' after that.
Not to be....
Moved to Thailand to live my reason my very stable reasonably well off GF of 7 year and learn to teach etc [something I know feel 'reasonably' good at' .......and well. .....something fuckedup in our relationship almost 3 years ago now...
I lowered the steroid as they are a bad idea if you know your training and diet and life will be fukd but of course didn't drop it below a 4 x HRT level [ok for my size].......however I am in Thailand my brain sends me off to hospital to collect benzo's .ritain -raising it everymonth ,bottles of 500 x 50mg tramadol at a pop and then I start to hit the booze too.
Thing have got better but they are still shit as in I'm now a [very surprised relapsed] junkie at 40 y.o......living alone now.......we tried to hold it 2gether but she could deal with the mood swings.
I keep trying to hit stronger shit trying to get morphine the other day but [luckily] its impossible and it's Thailand so I'm not getting involved with street shit.
I'm slo back in the gym and on diet thus off booze [that one was easy] .I'm not going out 'on the town [and what a town it is] but I am getting fucked up everyday but just enough so that even in my posh school no1 notices ,if anything ,it makes me more entertaining for me Grade 1's.......I still know my responsibilities.......but none to myself.
If I'm suffering anxiexty and I am thus benzo's ......lets' be realistic ,its the the 700-800mg doses per day of tramadol ,60mg of ritalin and raising steroids.
Elvis land ,drugs to get up ,drugs to not then pass out ,alarm set to take drug half a hour before getting up so I wake up alert and a rather shitty synthetic opoid all day taking me up or down depending on upper/downer used with it .....to be honest ....all at once 4 timesa day usually to feel normal -appear normal -function pretty good ,eat fine etc but.....I'm still a junkie and if they had codeine or oxys or I could safely score H I probably would.....and I've never tried any.
Main thing is apart from the lonelyness after a 7 yr break in a strange country knowing no1 really I have been visitied by my old friend depression which I do put down to the Mirtazapine and testosterone.
Trust me to pick to of the shittiest drugs, -trammy and benzos to quit.........one day.
Sorry life fukin boring story ,I just snorted 20mg rit ,probably why.....