Mirtazapine hell!!

[deadendgame]

I'm not gonna lie. I like this drug. I first got on it in the psych ward when one of my buddies in there suggested it. I'm a natural insomniac. My buddy was like hey, ask for remeron, it will knock you out cold and indeed it did. It started at 15 mg and now I'm on 45 mg of this shit. I been on it for a year, and let me tell you, these tablets make me feel asleep not immediately. But within half an hour, I am guaranteed to fall asleep. These tablets really do the trick because they help me sleep when I want and also I feel that the quality of sleep I get is good. I wake up feeling energized and refreshed. I tried not taking it yesterday and went through some withdrawal hell. Because this drug helps me sleep now, it is intuitive that the withdrawal would be the opposite of that which is not being able to fall asleep even when dead tired. And when I finally did collapse, I did not drift into a peaceful slumber. No, I felt like I was being dragged into two levels of hell. I had a vivid dream where I was lying in my bed incapacitated and stupified. I was literally too stupid to know what was going on. I felt like I was dying and my cell phone was next to me but I couldn't call 911. After some flailing around, I finally came to from this dream state and consciousness hit me like a freight train. I finally came to and felt like someone hit the back of my head with a bat. I was aiight except the headache that came from waking up. I don't know, maybe I'm not ready to quit. I'm hoping that when I pop them pills tonight that I get some legit normal sleep as usual. It was a good ride. I mean I had one year of really good sleep. I just did not know that the withdrawal/side effects were so bad. Thanks for listening yall and maybe yall can shed some light on how/why this happened.

 

[Moreaux]

Hey deadendgame! Are you wanting to stop the mirtazapine because you are abusing it? Sorry, i saw where you said you went from 15mg to 45 mg but it's possible the doctor increased the dose so I just want to confirm. Are you able to taper on your own?

 

[deadendgame]

Yes. I want to be able to sleep without it. It's not a big deal. I do get 8 to 9 hours of sleep a night, that is if I take the pills. If I don't, that's different in that the opposite situation happens. You see, even when I'm not tired, I can sleep whenever I want when I take Remeron. When I don't I can't even sleep when I'm tired. Like the other day I was dead tired and I couldn't fall asleep. Before I took it because I thought it helped me with my insomnia and in the short term it does. But in the long run, my insomnia is getting worse. Thanks so much!! I really appreciate it.

 

[Demetre]

If you are a natural insomniac and have weeded out all the food and external causes, (ie, drinking coffee at night or redbull, etc.) then it seems to be physiological and you might NEED pills to sleep. I would talk to your doctor about it and ask if there is anything less addictive to help. I always say that there is no miracle drug, some work will need to be applied. meditation, removing ALL distractions, including light, various things that you can journal and talk with your doctor about. If the 15mg were working, why did you up it? pills should assist not take over. I wonder if there's something that can help your brain produce more chemicals naturally that induce sleep.