reality is a illusion
but then the illusion is real
so what are you escaping from, which part of yourself are you avoiding by centering on one side more than the other ?
thats up to you to notice, in the end for me its about balance, you can create a good head space to balance from when you meditate, you sure can avoid stuff just like you can take drugs to avoid stuff, but drugs can be a good way to deal with some stuff, it can be a great way to help you out, even if its the non trippy one, like alcohol, ive learn a lot about myself due to alcohol, it also made me able to reconnect with parts of my former self i had lost trough depression, tho it also brought back depression...
what are your intention when you go into meditation ? you probably are not trying to avoid stuff atm specially if you make a thread about it, and thats the important part here, but it aint like i started drinking for the sake of avoiding stuff, i was just having fun at first, but things changed, you might end up in a convent and renounce marital life and that kind of stuff and your real motivation might be more related to a underlying sexual problem or social problem more than a genuine interest in your belief system, its all tricky, its always good to psychoanalyze yourself to understand where you are coming from and where you are going, know thyself as they say, but dont forget that you aint your past, you are your present and that includes the past just as much as it includes your future, its like that pink floyd cover from dsotm, your past is that thin white line and your future is all those colors but you are that triangle, and that triangle is empty, you cant turn left and right at the same time, you cant choose red and blue and all colors at the same time, you can just pick one and create the past on that, escapism will arise if look back more than forward, if you loose balance, but if what you are practicing while meditating are your balancing skills then you should be ok, but its easy to get lost and believe that you are doing it right when parts of you might be caught up in false achievement, so you always need to be open to the idea that you might be doing it wrong
i use to think way too much about it all for the sake of doing it right but i ended doing it wrong by thinking too much, its like in highschool i would draw some pretty schedule to organize my time but i would waste so much time drawing them that i would fail at saving any time, i was simply making excuses not to start my homeworks right away
you never know for sure, but then that can be the interesting part, it wouldn't be much of a meditation if you would know for sure you are doing it right, i know when im doing it right because i know what kind of result i like to get, and i get them, and thats great, but that aint a end more than a begining, its a experience, and it doesnt have to be right or wrong, same thing with drugs, there is good and bad to be found, some people end up with a false sense of superiority, or a false sense of enlightenment, its tricky,
lately ive being meditating a lot and i know its in part because im avoiding stuff, but at the same time im confronting myself with it, because it help me deal with that stuff,
you are the judge of what you do, you learn from experience, you cant simply blindly believe that meditation is good for you simply because it can have benefit, its like masturbation, its like anything really, even if you are training good and loosing weight you might end up with knee problem, or feel like you are on a good diet until you get problems due to too much vitamins, you have kids and its the best thing in your life until 30 years later you realize maybe you could have waited 5 more years before getting there....
its all relative, are you escaping meditating this very moment because its easier to talk about it in here instead of actually doing it ?
thats one thing you can meditate on, you can meditate on meditating on meditating on meditating....
