Mind vs me

I noticed my mind is quickly thinking of something else when I start to think about my brother passing.

Not 100% sure what my mind is trying to tell me, maybe i am worried about the way i will react? Maybe trying to keep me safe from doing something stupid like acting out on emotions.
It really makes me wonder, if this 'barrier' of sorts is a defensive mechanism, or now is not the time to mourn for my loss.

I am looking at is help, and not harm. My mind has its own way with dealing with feelings and emotins on a sober level, because while on drugs i used to numb the pain. Now my brain is using the feelings to slowly change my attitude.

Either way, thought I would share about where i am at with this.

 

Hi. I am very, very sorry for your loss. A sibling passing is something I have not yet had to endure. I feel for you. And am always willing to talk.

If I may ask... Is your brothers passing something recent? Or did it happen a while ago?

From what I gathered... it sounds recent...? I'm so sorry again love.

I think you may be correct about your mind using a defense mechanism to cope.
For me personally... It really isn't a bad thing when my mind moves away from things I am not yet ready to confront. It's a "safe place". Drugs can numb things very well, like you stated. But a sober mind takes care of things on its own; i.e. Changing thoughts.

Hope this was of some value to you.