solidsnake77
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Well, I could got from a reliable source, 10 doses of LSD, 10mcg per tab. I microdosed before in the past, with shrooms, with more or less benefits. I decided to try with LSD, hoping maybe this give me the shot of energy, wellbeing and creativity that could push me up a little bit. I took my dose on the morning, after the breakfast.
The first couple hours I felt tingling, little waves of euphoria and the colours were more vivid, they are yet but no problem with that. After that I start to feeling a umconfortable head ache, and like in a haze state, I don't feel in a good state to meet with people for example. Probably the unique joint of the day of weed, 2 hours after the take, contribuited to that state, or maybe that 10 micrograms isn't my sweetspot, and I know 10mcg is a standard dose to md with LSD, or maybe I don't currently passing through a good moment of my life to do microdose. I explain a little bit my current situation:
My life is very fucked up: I have chronic pain since 8 years ago, without diagnostic. I've been 4 years on a daily habit of strong opiates, under medical prescription. After that I detoxicated with Suboxone and some meds more, and 7 months after start with Suboxone I get off gradually, because after the first 2-3 months I had very weird side effects, like strongs head aches, brain fog, even a weird sense of being only a viewer in my life when I went out for a walk. I found kratom then, and this was a godsend, helped me to kick off Suboxone and I could live almost 2 years without need of taking more painkillers, although I recognize I had some relapses, but I could manage it.
That was a few years ago. The last week I left behind me an habit of dihydrocodeine of 4 months, I reached a little more than 10 grams (were 30mg per pill), and I think I have PAWS of it: lack of motivation, no interest in nothing, don't want to go out... I barely have real friends or so much contact with people, except some casual days I meet with a friend or shit like that.
I know I'm not happy. In fact, I'm passing through a existential crisis due all my situation. I don't want to live all my life in pain, but I don't want to live all my life being an addict, in the last months buying meds stronger than that I have in prescription because their not enough to my pain. I started buying DHC because I found a job and I needed make my double journal without pain and without withdrawals symptoms due tolerance. Finally I had to quit the job, because I spent so much money buying pills only to relief the pain, and I was doing malabres to can keep working.
I have a treatment with a technique called Transcraneal Magnetic Stimulation in one month, one time per week for 6-7 weeks. If this treatment works, maybe finally I could live without pain and without being an addict with all the shit that is correlated with this. But if not.. holy shit, I don't want to think in that, because then I think I'll lost all my wish of live. I can't keep a job with this condition, it's been demostrated a few times before in my life.
If you read all of above till this, thank you for your time. Now my question is: is worth it doing microdose with LSD if one is not happy with their life? Could be counterproductive? Sometimes I think in suicide, but I don't do it because I know my mother would be totally devasted, and maybe she couldn't overcome it.
Is like, I think I lived all, and a life pretty intense with just 25 years.
Any advise would be appreciate it. Thanks in advance.
The first couple hours I felt tingling, little waves of euphoria and the colours were more vivid, they are yet but no problem with that. After that I start to feeling a umconfortable head ache, and like in a haze state, I don't feel in a good state to meet with people for example. Probably the unique joint of the day of weed, 2 hours after the take, contribuited to that state, or maybe that 10 micrograms isn't my sweetspot, and I know 10mcg is a standard dose to md with LSD, or maybe I don't currently passing through a good moment of my life to do microdose. I explain a little bit my current situation:
My life is very fucked up: I have chronic pain since 8 years ago, without diagnostic. I've been 4 years on a daily habit of strong opiates, under medical prescription. After that I detoxicated with Suboxone and some meds more, and 7 months after start with Suboxone I get off gradually, because after the first 2-3 months I had very weird side effects, like strongs head aches, brain fog, even a weird sense of being only a viewer in my life when I went out for a walk. I found kratom then, and this was a godsend, helped me to kick off Suboxone and I could live almost 2 years without need of taking more painkillers, although I recognize I had some relapses, but I could manage it.
That was a few years ago. The last week I left behind me an habit of dihydrocodeine of 4 months, I reached a little more than 10 grams (were 30mg per pill), and I think I have PAWS of it: lack of motivation, no interest in nothing, don't want to go out... I barely have real friends or so much contact with people, except some casual days I meet with a friend or shit like that.
I know I'm not happy. In fact, I'm passing through a existential crisis due all my situation. I don't want to live all my life in pain, but I don't want to live all my life being an addict, in the last months buying meds stronger than that I have in prescription because their not enough to my pain. I started buying DHC because I found a job and I needed make my double journal without pain and without withdrawals symptoms due tolerance. Finally I had to quit the job, because I spent so much money buying pills only to relief the pain, and I was doing malabres to can keep working.
I have a treatment with a technique called Transcraneal Magnetic Stimulation in one month, one time per week for 6-7 weeks. If this treatment works, maybe finally I could live without pain and without being an addict with all the shit that is correlated with this. But if not.. holy shit, I don't want to think in that, because then I think I'll lost all my wish of live. I can't keep a job with this condition, it's been demostrated a few times before in my life.
If you read all of above till this, thank you for your time. Now my question is: is worth it doing microdose with LSD if one is not happy with their life? Could be counterproductive? Sometimes I think in suicide, but I don't do it because I know my mother would be totally devasted, and maybe she couldn't overcome it.
Is like, I think I lived all, and a life pretty intense with just 25 years.
Any advise would be appreciate it. Thanks in advance.