Methoxetamine-Life changing Methox Hole (M-hole)
Age: 22 (3 years ago)
Experience with drugs at that time: weed, hash, xtc/mdma, speed, ketamine, cocaine, 4fmp and methoxetamine
Other substances taken before this trip: alcohol-I guess 15 beers or something like that
DOse Methoxetamine: not sure, but I think at least 150 mg
Preliminary: This trip took place in march 2014. In that period I lived quite wild and not very responsible. I started taking hard drugs at the end of 2012. It started with an XTC-pil and because I liked this so extremely, I began to do this every week or so. This experience with methoxetamine is without a doubt the pinaccle of my drug experiences and I don?€™t think I will ever forget it.
The build up: sometimes studying gets boring, so I like to go out and get to drunk to get some temporary and direct pleasure. Nothing different on this Tuesday night. I go with a friend to a local pub and we are enjoying a nice game of pool. We start drinking quite fast and within an hour or so, the subject changes from a more casual topic to drugs. I tell my mate about my plan to roll again this next friday. He advises me not do so because he worries about my drug use which was indeed quite excessive at that time (sometimes more than once a week). Then later that night we go to a small cafe and to a strange, wild student disco. I spend loads of money on booze, get very drunk, and I have an argument with some guy about an unimportant topic. We decide to go home because we have drunk way too much already and we thought this night has come to its end. Our ways split and I walk into my student dorm while being quite intoxicated by all the beers that night.
Dosing: Suddenly I got big drug craving. This is not uncommon for me, especially when I have drunk too much. I think, do I actually have drugs in my house? Hey right, that methoxetamine. I think about last saturday. I took very little of this extreme strong substance and felt if for almost 3 hours or so. It wasn?€™t that nice after all, I went out that night and someone I know had a negative experience with this same substance. Maybe it was only that night? Now it can be better, right? I have snorted ketamine in bed a couple of times before and this was always interesting. I take off my contact lenses and take the pony pack. I start the Essential Mix 2011 of Maya Jane Coles and I snort a humble line. I listen to the music and I sense the slow coming up of the methoxetamine, suddenly I feel quite euphoric and I remind myself (falsely) that redosing won?€™t be any problem at all. I am lying in my bed, the safest location I guess? Only 10 minutes or so have passed since my first line and I urge to redose. I snort a bigger line, but still, not by any means a big line. I now enjoy the music extremely and I move passionate in my bed. I feel quite numbed, but also euphoric, very euphoric suddenly. What a night has it been and what will happen now. After another 10 minutes I urge to redose again and I imagine myself that the experience is still not that rough. I want to go hard, very very hard. I?€™m safe, so it will work out (in the end). I take the pony pack and in a short moment of complete recklessness and perhaps also anger and dissatisfaction with my life, I take two enormous points of the Methoxetamine. It seems to be quite a big pile and I snort it all. Then I realise what I have done. I decide to try to sleep and pray that it will not be as extreme as I fear. I close my eyes...
The experience: I awake, did I sleep? No idea, did I pass out? What the fuck is going on? Everything feels extremely different, everything feels strange. What is going on with my body? I?€™m literally in my head. It feels as if I?€™m in my soul, like my perception is not formed by my eyes, but much higher (more in the direction of the top of my upper head). I start to panic. Sometimes I remember that I?€™m on drugs, but one moment later I forget this. Maybe I have gone crazy, am I in a psychosis? I hear music, or is this a memory to the mix? Everything happens in my head. Do I ever go out of this strange place? This way I can?€™t ever function in society anymore. Do I get in my body ever again? Where is my body actually, wow, he is on my balcony. I think I recognise him. Or am I still in the dancing of that night? All these question arise and the intoxicated feeling doesn?€™t seem to weaken. Absolutely not, it gets stronger and stronger. Hours pass, but in my head it feels like years or ages. My head is a cocktail of extreme thoughts. It varies between bizarre visions about a mental hospital, about another world, about the night, about my life and how it all ends here. The trip teaches me that I?€™m living a wrong life and that I can change it. The trip is dark, I see a bizarre world existing of blocks and other mathematical figures, a world in which I only exist. A world that I understand. Suddenly I understand life, I think I understand life for the first time ever ultimately. It?€™s like I understand the world, like I can reflect on my life in a retrospective way and I can understand and even see that we?€™re all part of a bigger, bizarre, mathemetical whole. I can not communicate with God, but I sense the proximity of something bigger than myself. Is it God, my parents, the whole world? Or is it something more abstract like love? Perhaps it?€™s a combination? I?€™m not sure. Then the trip starts to get more vague again, it goes on and one. It?€™s an almost religious, mystical experience which is not only terrifying, but also spectacular and enlightening.
The most strange moments of the trip begin. My soul, which already seems to extremely small in this bizarre space, breaks apart in 8 pieces. My body has left me hours ago, but this terrifies me once again. I have no time to relax, because I feel like I?€™m floating in space around the earth. It feels like I?€™m dying, I explode with the planet in some way and I?€™m dead along with the entire world. I don?€™t know who I was actually, I have no clue of my name. What is my name and how are others persons I know named? I feel like I have finally discovered the truth and this feels extremely relieving.
Moments pass and I don?€™t realise anything at all sometimes. I start to come back again a little. I?€™m starting to get these strange ideas which I had at the begin of the trip. I?€™m lying in a hospital bed because I?€™m mentally ill and within seconds my nurse comes to tell me that I need my medication. I wait, I try to move, but this isn?€™t possible at all. I think another hour passes.
In the end, I start to recognise my own room. It?€™s about 5 or 6 hours after the intake of the Methoxetamine. I have extreme double vision. I realise that I?€™ve been tripping all morning as a raging lunatic. After another 2 hours I?€™m capable of grabbing my own glasses. It?€™s totally deformed in size. It looks like a giant goggle vision. I grab my phone, but I can?€™t read it properly. It?€™s also looking very strange, like a big calculator. After a while, I walk to my mirror and barely recognise myself. It looks like I?€™m a total freak. My pupils are huge and it looks like I?€™m run over by ten trains. I can pee again and I drink some milk. My body still feels extremely numb and weird. After another 6 hours I feel like the after effects have finally come down.
Conclusion: it was a very stupid decision to dose to recklessly. THe combination with alcohol, the very high dose (my second time MXE), the bad preparation and the argument before were bad factors. I still think it was worth it. The out of body experience, the near death experience and the meaning of life experience were all so freaking impressive that I?€™m extremely glad that I did this. However, I would advise again this to anyone because most of the time it felt like I?€™ve gone dangerously too far, both mentally and physically. And lastly, I would like to warn against methoxetamine as it?€™s an extreme strong Research Chemical and one should be very careful with it.
Cheers,
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Age: 22 (3 years ago)
Experience with drugs at that time: weed, hash, xtc/mdma, speed, ketamine, cocaine, 4fmp and methoxetamine
Other substances taken before this trip: alcohol-I guess 15 beers or something like that
DOse Methoxetamine: not sure, but I think at least 150 mg
Preliminary: This trip took place in march 2014. In that period I lived quite wild and not very responsible. I started taking hard drugs at the end of 2012. It started with an XTC-pil and because I liked this so extremely, I began to do this every week or so. This experience with methoxetamine is without a doubt the pinaccle of my drug experiences and I don?€™t think I will ever forget it.
The build up: sometimes studying gets boring, so I like to go out and get to drunk to get some temporary and direct pleasure. Nothing different on this Tuesday night. I go with a friend to a local pub and we are enjoying a nice game of pool. We start drinking quite fast and within an hour or so, the subject changes from a more casual topic to drugs. I tell my mate about my plan to roll again this next friday. He advises me not do so because he worries about my drug use which was indeed quite excessive at that time (sometimes more than once a week). Then later that night we go to a small cafe and to a strange, wild student disco. I spend loads of money on booze, get very drunk, and I have an argument with some guy about an unimportant topic. We decide to go home because we have drunk way too much already and we thought this night has come to its end. Our ways split and I walk into my student dorm while being quite intoxicated by all the beers that night.
Dosing: Suddenly I got big drug craving. This is not uncommon for me, especially when I have drunk too much. I think, do I actually have drugs in my house? Hey right, that methoxetamine. I think about last saturday. I took very little of this extreme strong substance and felt if for almost 3 hours or so. It wasn?€™t that nice after all, I went out that night and someone I know had a negative experience with this same substance. Maybe it was only that night? Now it can be better, right? I have snorted ketamine in bed a couple of times before and this was always interesting. I take off my contact lenses and take the pony pack. I start the Essential Mix 2011 of Maya Jane Coles and I snort a humble line. I listen to the music and I sense the slow coming up of the methoxetamine, suddenly I feel quite euphoric and I remind myself (falsely) that redosing won?€™t be any problem at all. I am lying in my bed, the safest location I guess? Only 10 minutes or so have passed since my first line and I urge to redose. I snort a bigger line, but still, not by any means a big line. I now enjoy the music extremely and I move passionate in my bed. I feel quite numbed, but also euphoric, very euphoric suddenly. What a night has it been and what will happen now. After another 10 minutes I urge to redose again and I imagine myself that the experience is still not that rough. I want to go hard, very very hard. I?€™m safe, so it will work out (in the end). I take the pony pack and in a short moment of complete recklessness and perhaps also anger and dissatisfaction with my life, I take two enormous points of the Methoxetamine. It seems to be quite a big pile and I snort it all. Then I realise what I have done. I decide to try to sleep and pray that it will not be as extreme as I fear. I close my eyes...
The experience: I awake, did I sleep? No idea, did I pass out? What the fuck is going on? Everything feels extremely different, everything feels strange. What is going on with my body? I?€™m literally in my head. It feels as if I?€™m in my soul, like my perception is not formed by my eyes, but much higher (more in the direction of the top of my upper head). I start to panic. Sometimes I remember that I?€™m on drugs, but one moment later I forget this. Maybe I have gone crazy, am I in a psychosis? I hear music, or is this a memory to the mix? Everything happens in my head. Do I ever go out of this strange place? This way I can?€™t ever function in society anymore. Do I get in my body ever again? Where is my body actually, wow, he is on my balcony. I think I recognise him. Or am I still in the dancing of that night? All these question arise and the intoxicated feeling doesn?€™t seem to weaken. Absolutely not, it gets stronger and stronger. Hours pass, but in my head it feels like years or ages. My head is a cocktail of extreme thoughts. It varies between bizarre visions about a mental hospital, about another world, about the night, about my life and how it all ends here. The trip teaches me that I?€™m living a wrong life and that I can change it. The trip is dark, I see a bizarre world existing of blocks and other mathematical figures, a world in which I only exist. A world that I understand. Suddenly I understand life, I think I understand life for the first time ever ultimately. It?€™s like I understand the world, like I can reflect on my life in a retrospective way and I can understand and even see that we?€™re all part of a bigger, bizarre, mathemetical whole. I can not communicate with God, but I sense the proximity of something bigger than myself. Is it God, my parents, the whole world? Or is it something more abstract like love? Perhaps it?€™s a combination? I?€™m not sure. Then the trip starts to get more vague again, it goes on and one. It?€™s an almost religious, mystical experience which is not only terrifying, but also spectacular and enlightening.
The most strange moments of the trip begin. My soul, which already seems to extremely small in this bizarre space, breaks apart in 8 pieces. My body has left me hours ago, but this terrifies me once again. I have no time to relax, because I feel like I?€™m floating in space around the earth. It feels like I?€™m dying, I explode with the planet in some way and I?€™m dead along with the entire world. I don?€™t know who I was actually, I have no clue of my name. What is my name and how are others persons I know named? I feel like I have finally discovered the truth and this feels extremely relieving.
Moments pass and I don?€™t realise anything at all sometimes. I start to come back again a little. I?€™m starting to get these strange ideas which I had at the begin of the trip. I?€™m lying in a hospital bed because I?€™m mentally ill and within seconds my nurse comes to tell me that I need my medication. I wait, I try to move, but this isn?€™t possible at all. I think another hour passes.
In the end, I start to recognise my own room. It?€™s about 5 or 6 hours after the intake of the Methoxetamine. I have extreme double vision. I realise that I?€™ve been tripping all morning as a raging lunatic. After another 2 hours I?€™m capable of grabbing my own glasses. It?€™s totally deformed in size. It looks like a giant goggle vision. I grab my phone, but I can?€™t read it properly. It?€™s also looking very strange, like a big calculator. After a while, I walk to my mirror and barely recognise myself. It looks like I?€™m a total freak. My pupils are huge and it looks like I?€™m run over by ten trains. I can pee again and I drink some milk. My body still feels extremely numb and weird. After another 6 hours I feel like the after effects have finally come down.
Conclusion: it was a very stupid decision to dose to recklessly. THe combination with alcohol, the very high dose (my second time MXE), the bad preparation and the argument before were bad factors. I still think it was worth it. The out of body experience, the near death experience and the meaning of life experience were all so freaking impressive that I?€™m extremely glad that I did this. However, I would advise again this to anyone because most of the time it felt like I?€™ve gone dangerously too far, both mentally and physically. And lastly, I would like to warn against methoxetamine as it?€™s an extreme strong Research Chemical and one should be very careful with it.
Cheers,
substancecode_mxe
substancecode_alcohol
substancecode_gabaergics
substancecode_dissociatives
explevel_secondtime
roacode_insufflated
exptype_positive
exptype_glowing
_combo_
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