(Methoxetamine) (25mg) - First time - underwhelming

[360-12]

Age 40's. Wt 82kg.

23.02 At home. 3/4 bottle of wine drunk. 25mg methoxetamine insufflated. Very fine white powder. No pain on insufflation. Very little taste apart from subtle sweetness.
23.22 alert?
23.41 bit more...hard to describe...slight vague feeling...not unpleasant
23.51 feel at maybe some sub tipping point...wait another 20mins. Not str8 but
not conventionally high. No real exp with dissociatives, so may be normal.
23.57 No real pyhsical body load
00.07 Been to toilet. Quietness def makes the slightly altered state more noticeable, v subtly altered. Not quite trippy and def not speedy. No euphoria noted. More a quiet reflective type substance at this level. Concentration is not too bad. Will re-assess on whether to re-dose at T+1.5
00.18 Def more...v subtle smooth hard to describe state. Not at all overwhelming...
00.26 ...just a bit different.
00.35 Finding it v difficult to describe this headspace. Not euphoric, vaguely trippy without any insight. Can't even really decide if it's enjoyable!? No paranoia or bad thoughts, just a bit...vacant...concentration wandering a bit. No real desire to re-dose atm. Not sure what I want to do. Playing poker with no real interest. Music doesn't appeal. A cross between bored and restless. Decide to stop poker due to vague apathy.
00.59 Cup of tea and surfing the web. No real empathy vibes. Doesn't strike me as a particularly social substance at this dose. Pupils are slightly narrowed. Could probably pass as str8 if talking to someone. I find it impossible to imagine what the effects of a bigger dose would be.

This dose has been easy to manage but pretty unsatisfying. State is definitely altered and although not threatening in the slightest, "normality" is more interesting! Feels like the world is wearing an old man's cheap beige overcoat somehow...

01.14 Overall an underwhelming experience. Never really took off although it feels like this could prob be quite a potent material at a higher dose.

 

[pofacedhoe]

a higher dose is intense, for me small bumps over an evening build up into a noticable euphoria (tho this was in a social seeting- i have come to realise this drug is wayyy more fun when you are with people, hence the small bumps), kind of like how the first cup of poppy tea in relaxing but the fifth or sixth is where the euphoria is at.

also MXE combines very well with small smounts of weed

 

[360-12]

I would normally have tried another bump, but I didn't particularly want to be up all night chasing a satisfying experience, especially when it seemed to be so curiously directionless - neither this nor that.

I feel that there was definitely something to be found on the other side of the wall. I'll try a slightly higher initial dose next time and take it from there. One positive is that there seems to be no real body load or discernible hangover at this level.