I have been on methadone clinic for two and a half years 80 milligrams a day! day 4 of wit hdrawal and I know it's going to get worse I went off methadone and Xanax in 2009 cold turkey and that was hell I actually had dreams of the pink Mamba and the blue Mamba fighting it was so f***** up I just need help getting off of this s*** I don't know if I could do it cold turkey again I'm 43 and tired of this life. I am so dizzy when I stand up I have to sit right back down I can't eat and I just want to go and get something to make my skin lay down. I need to take care of my responsibilities but I can't even stand up for 2 seconds I don't want a miracle right now I just want I see the light in this long dark tunnel