Help! Meth tolerance has gotten so high now im IV'ing/smoking fentanyl also. I dont want to die, honestly i dont but i also just can't stop....

[aspear1368]

So i just needed to get this off my chest to somebody, anybody who understands. This is a post about what I got going on but its also a harm reduction question. Ill get the harm reduction question out of the way first. Obviously fent is extremely potent and deadly any way it's consumed but is smoking or iv generally considered more potent and then which R.O.A produces less overdose and deaths? So I relapsed about a yesr and a half ago. Ive always been in and out of recovery since i was 16 im now 28. So a year snd a half or so ago I was working and they hired a new guy which would be the worst thing for me prob him too cause very quickly we both learned we like to get high like eachother. I liked and always have had a love for Crystal while his thing was smoking fetty (fentanyl) so we started smoking and snorting meth together along with taking insane amounts of Xanax and that went on for a few months and on the low i began shooting the crystal by myself. He would always smoke fetty with me but I never tried it for the longest and eventually did and tbh it wasn't great.The nausea was always too much and it was so short-lived. I tried it another few times with him and it was alright. I prefer heroin but that's impossible to get where im at fast forward to now me and him dont talk anymore and ive continued to use meth daily . So much so I get a few seconds of a rush then im borderline back at baseline no matter the dose. So my drug addict self wanted something more. The only thing where im at is crystal and fentanyl well whats readily available anywhere including skid row. So I bought 20 worth of fetty . The guy I was with always smoked it but me being a needle fiend at this point tried shooting the tiniest little bit and blacked out I believe cause when I came to I ran to the bathroom to vomit a day later I tried smoking. Those affects seem much much more well for fentanyl at least controlled. Im honestly scared shitless this is whats going to finally put me down but I just can't stop. I lie to everyone which ive become scary good at and I fear the end is one way or another is coming soon. Everything seems like it's seconds away from crashing down and I just cant seem to stop. I just keep getting more drugs no matter what and feel like I cant live without it. I just needed to get that out there to someone/ anyone who would take the time to read this and ask those who believe in god to say a prayer for me and for those who dont I ask that you keep me on my mind cause I think those 2 asks are the only things at this point that can save me from myself. Thank you everyone! God bless and thank you for reading this!

 

[Zopiclone bandit]

I bet it's not even Fent you are using, I bet it's actually Xylazine & that will kill you.

 

[KangRex]

So i just needed to get this off my chest to somebody, anybody who understands. This is a post about what I got going on but its also a harm reduction question. Ill get the harm reduction question out of the way first. Obviously fent is extremely potent and deadly any way it's consumed but is smoking or iv generally considered more potent and then which R.O.A produces less overdose and deaths? So I relapsed about a yesr and a half ago. Ive always been in and out of recovery since i was 16 im now 28. So a year snd a half or so ago I was working and they hired a new guy which would be the worst thing for me prob him too cause very quickly we both learned we like to get high like eachother. I liked and always have had a love for Crystal while his thing was smoking fetty (fentanyl) so we started smoking and snorting meth together along with taking insane amounts of Xanax and that went on for a few months and on the low i began shooting the crystal by myself. He would always smoke fetty with me but I never tried it for the longest and eventually did and tbh it wasn't great.The nausea was always too much and it was so short-lived. I tried it another few times with him and it was alright. I prefer heroin but that's impossible to get where im at fast forward to now me and him dont talk anymore and ive continued to use meth daily . So much so I get a few seconds of a rush then im borderline back at baseline no matter the dose. So my drug addict self wanted something more. The only thing where im at is crystal and fentanyl well whats readily available anywhere including skid row. So I bought 20 worth of fetty . The guy I was with always smoked it but me being a needle fiend at this point tried shooting the tiniest little bit and blacked out I believe cause when I came to I ran to the bathroom to vomit a day later I tried smoking. Those affects seem much much more well for fentanyl at least controlled. Im honestly scared shitless this is whats going to finally put me down but I just can't stop. I lie to everyone which ive become scary good at and I fear the end is one way or another is coming soon. Everything seems like it's seconds away from crashing down and I just cant seem to stop. I just keep getting more drugs no matter what and feel like I cant live without it. I just needed to get that out there to someone/ anyone who would take the time to read this and ask those who believe in god to say a prayer for me and for those who dont I ask that you keep me on my mind cause I think those 2 asks are the only things at this point that can save me from myself. Thank you everyone! God bless and thank you for reading this!

Bro, I'm 42 kinda going through the same thing. I keep telling myself it'll be no big deal, when the time comes, I'll just quit, but that time hasn't come yet... Everything is so good in my life, but it's, like you said, it's only one fuck up away from being completely over. For me, I've found that opioids and amphetamines are the only combination that seems to help me deal with my Borderline Personality Disorder (that's right, I also discovered I've been suffering with that my whole life, which makes a lot of sense) and feel like a normal person. I've also gotten to a point where lying is second nature. I don't know... My plan is to kick using ADHD medication and Kratom. I've been keeping my Fentanyl intake as low as possible, but the meth, just like you've experienced, has gotten to the point where I rush and then feel basically normal most of the time. The difference is, today I started having chest pains and I'm afraid it's getting to the point where, if I don't stop, I'm gonna have a heart attack... I don't have any advice man, just commiseration. I know how weird and lonely it feels. I hope we can both get away from the life before it takes ours...