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Recovery Meth Cravings, Flashbacks, Triggers

Sweet Jane78

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So I used meth for 12 years and am now 99 days clean. This is the longest I’ve been clean in all that time. I was doing really good for those 90 days and on day 91 all of a sudden all the shit happening in my life seemed to hit me. I was supposed to go in for a UA after work, but then because it was a rough day I told my social worker I’d go the next day. As I was leaving work I decided it would be good to go in and talk to her and as I was driving there I started thinking about driving the opposite direction to score. I made it to the UA, thankfully.
In the last week since then I’ve been triggered multiple times. Twice by just the mention of meth on tv shows.
The really weird thing happened two nights ago. I went out for a walk around my neighborhood and I started feeling how I felt on meth. Not the high, but super paranoid, looking around and over my shoulders and even thinking I was seeing stuff moving in the bushes and trees. After that I couldn’t sleep until around 130am, when I usually go to bed around 9. It really freaked me out.
Everyone tells me it gets easier the long you go without. I’m just not feeling it at this point.
So, anyone please share your experiences and/or insights. Thanks
 
i think there was a "trigger" thread being published @Eligiu sorry for any inconvenience

So, anyone please share your experiences and/or insights.
Just walk the fuck away from it. Really. It aint gonna hurt ya if ya do, right?
IME... meth is not a life sustainable product. Hell just the lack of sleep is danging imo. Its caustic as fuck its sometime garbage ya may get a bag with fent and done we do not know all the factors that may or may not be involved.
First off I wanna see if just walking away from meth a valid option.
iirc from years ago the lack of sleep can bring some weird shit with it
 
I'm working on a trigger thread for ROA but I just got locked up in a psych ward for a few days. Publishing will take place shortly and you're welcome to check out there.
 
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