Sweet Jane78
Bluelighter
So I used meth for 12 years and am now 99 days clean. This is the longest I’ve been clean in all that time. I was doing really good for those 90 days and on day 91 all of a sudden all the shit happening in my life seemed to hit me. I was supposed to go in for a UA after work, but then because it was a rough day I told my social worker I’d go the next day. As I was leaving work I decided it would be good to go in and talk to her and as I was driving there I started thinking about driving the opposite direction to score. I made it to the UA, thankfully.
In the last week since then I’ve been triggered multiple times. Twice by just the mention of meth on tv shows.
The really weird thing happened two nights ago. I went out for a walk around my neighborhood and I started feeling how I felt on meth. Not the high, but super paranoid, looking around and over my shoulders and even thinking I was seeing stuff moving in the bushes and trees. After that I couldn’t sleep until around 130am, when I usually go to bed around 9. It really freaked me out.
Everyone tells me it gets easier the long you go without. I’m just not feeling it at this point.
So, anyone please share your experiences and/or insights. Thanks
In the last week since then I’ve been triggered multiple times. Twice by just the mention of meth on tv shows.
The really weird thing happened two nights ago. I went out for a walk around my neighborhood and I started feeling how I felt on meth. Not the high, but super paranoid, looking around and over my shoulders and even thinking I was seeing stuff moving in the bushes and trees. After that I couldn’t sleep until around 130am, when I usually go to bed around 9. It really freaked me out.
Everyone tells me it gets easier the long you go without. I’m just not feeling it at this point.
So, anyone please share your experiences and/or insights. Thanks