Whoops, I seem to have written an essay. Might be some useful/helpful info towards the top, the rest is just about my comedown experience. I never really wrote about it on here -- felt like I couldn't deal with the abuse I'd get for taking so much. Now I've learned that I can just get Mugabe to post "I bought 1g of meph" below my post and you'll all fixate on him. And his cock.
Visible focusing...everything seems blurry on and off, like iv'e just woken up and have hazy eyes (I usually have perfect vision.)
0% motivation - even after 2 10 hour sleeps, I just feel so tired and can’t seem to focus on anything, generally feeling spaced out.
Mild stimulation in arms, legs and head, like the beginnings of a pill come up.
Mild jaw tension/teeth chattering
Dizziness
Depression/ paranoia - only mild but enough to know im not my usual self.
I usually expect some of these symptoms on a comedown but they don’t seem to be fading whatsoever and today (Monday) I feel like im actually on something as apposed to recovering from a weekend session. It’s kind of freaking me out because this in my opinion doesn’t seem normal.
I definitely won’t be taking this stuff again and wouldn’t advise anyone else to do so either.
Has anyone had this problem after taking drone?? Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
You just perfectly described my comedowns. I thought that they were more to do with sleep deprivation and lack of food -- but you shouldn't have that after 1 night, so I guess it is the meph after all.
It will get better. Honestly. The fear that I'd feel like that forever was what completely cracked me up.
I've been through it twice now, I do have some (slightly odd!!) things that helped me. Will put them here - the rest of the post is a self pitying ramble about how crap it was the first time.
Some of these might be complete bollocks, but they made me feel better.
- Be certain that it
will get better. It will.
- If you possibly can, take the next week off work/college/whatever and sleep sleep sleep
- Eat. Constantly. Steer clear of big meals, they'll bite you with complete narcolepsy about half an hour later. Bananas are nice. So are caramelised cashews. And pistachio nuts. And lots and lots of chocolate. Cheesy poofs. I guess just try a bar of choc and see if it gives temporary relief.
- If you can get your hands on some benzos, they don't help with the symptoms at all but do stop the "fuuuuuuuuuck I can't cooooope!!!" moments
- Music. Odd one. I couldn't concentrate on anything at all normally - but if I put in headphones and some crappy pop, for some reason I was able to concentrate on work pretty much normally, for short (~1 hour) periods of time
- Exercise.... if you're into it, it'll probably help. I'm not -- but a brisk walk or a **mini** jog (just enough to get my heartrate up) helped
- GBL is quite nice, took away the dizziness and brain zaps... and made me not give a fuck about not being able to concentrate
- My un-harm-reduction tip: This might not work for everyone, but works for me. If you absolutely have to concentrate the next day, take some GBL the night before... recreational level doses. Get about 4-5 hours sleep. Drink 5 cups of coffee and eat a load of Pro Plus. For me, caffeine kept the sleepiness away, and the G-hangover gave me a single minded focus and stopped my mind from flitting constantly from one thing to another. Too much sleep meant the caffeine made me a sketchy mess, so I guess maybe don't start by eating half a box of Pro Plus
- Powerade and Lucazade are nice.
- Asprin seemed to help a bit
- If you're feeling/being sick, try an OTC med for it. Someone in ADD swears by Stugeron (cinnarizine) -- tell the pharmacist you want something for motion sickness. It didn't help me and gave me horrible cotton mouth. I found ginger really helped though.
Oh, and a bonus tip:
- Don't take acid for the first time when feeling like this
Eh, I'm academically smart.... something had to lose out, and I guess all common sense (well, sense generally) didn't make the cut.
The first time I had a comedown like this, it lasted for 11 days. I DESERVED IT, I'd been on the meph nearly every day for about 3 weeks.... with very little sleep or food. I hope that yours will be shorter...
By far the worst was around about day 10. I'd been sleeping often more than 12 hours every night.... an that day I took the day off sick from work because I was just too exhausted, and couldn't face another day of running off to the loos to be sick. I went back to sleep for another 6 hours... then woke up to find that I still felt every bit as exhausted, but I couldn't sleep any more!
I felt like such a complete failure.... a day off sick because I was feeling
tired, 18 hours of sleep and still so exhausted I could do nothing but lie in a heap. I could think of no explanation -- "addiction" didn't seem to fit as I had no craving for meph. I thought that it might never ever get any better -- that my options were to either accept life as an addict and take it every day.... or eventually lose my job, lose my home, go live with my parents and exist in a state of exhaustion and stupidity forever.
I thought about killing myself. I thought about how I'd do it, and the people I'd leave behind. I cried for hours out of sheer misery and desperation, at the feeling that I had absolutely no options.
I talked to Evad on MSN,
a lot that afternoon... he happened to be online at the wrong time (or the right time, from my perspective). That conversation at least got me away from the "
I have failed at life because I am miserable. Happiness is the measure of success, therefore I have completely failed and am worthless" train of thought, and maybe a wee bit more importantly made me realise that I didn't
really want to kill myself.
Then it was the weekend... I was awake for maybe 10 hours of it. I planned to order more meph on Monday, and then once I'd stabilised a bit, figure out what the hell I was going to do. But hey, I got lucky. Got to work on Monday morning and realised that I felt tired, not utterly mentally wiped. Coffee perked me up again. I could concentrate, I could solve problems, think of abstract ideas. I could let my eyes out of focus without feeling zaps through my whole body.
I had another multi week binge recently, with pretty much the same comedown. I did cry a couple of times, but from random mood swings, not suicidal desperation. I think that's mostly because I knew it would end.... it was the uncertainty that was driving me crazy.
Also, I'd picked up a couple of things from the last time that helped a lot - that's the stuff I put above.
I think it's because of whatever messing meph does with serotonin. Basing that only because the wiki page for SSRI discontinuation seems to near perfectly describe the symptoms I had:
dizziness, light-headedness, vertigo or feeling faint; shock-like sensations or paresthesia; anxiety; diarrhea; fatigue; gait instability; headache; insomnia; irritability; nausea or emesis; tremor; and visual disturbances.
And
persistent adverse effects
agitation, anxiety, akathisia, panic attacks, irritability, aggressiveness, worsening of mood, dysphoria, crying spells or mood lability, overactivity or hyperactivity, depersonalization, decreased concentration, slowed thinking, confusion and memory/concentration difficulties.
I didn't have all of those, but it seemed to hit the nail on the head on some of them!
Ask an obvious question: why the HELL do I still take meph, when I know it'll likely result in a binge and a week of hell??? I'll say "because it's a really fun drug". Ask "but is it worth it?". No, it's not, especially if you get week long comedowns from a single night on it. But then, ask a drinker if being drunk is worth the hangover, and I think objectively they'd answer no. But my love/hate affair with mephedrone is far from over.
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