Stark
Bluelight Crew
I like to think that I'm a well-adjusted person, and able to deal with all the situations that I find myself in.
But as things become difficult for me, it's a downward spiral as I start noticing how things I thought had been dealt with properly were just covered up by procrastination, avoidance, and simply rationalizing them out of existance.
Ignorance is bliss until I'm no longer able to delude myself.
I consider my closest friends the one that I can have no contact with for months or even years and then pick right up where we left off as if no time had passed. As I get older, these people are becoming harder and harder to find. I'm finding it damned near impossible to make any new close friends.
I've always been a solitary creature. Is making myself a pariah self-destructive, or just being true to my nature?
I can only hope that it will never be too late to change, either way.
