limitless_euphoria
Greenlighter
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Hello all. Glad to finally be a member at Bluelight:
I went with limitless_euphoria on the off chance anyone from some of the other boards (probably the most notable one being Opiophile) that I used to be on might recognize me. If not, no big deal, here I am now. I've been sharing my war stories, drug knowledge and reading up on others' tales for well over a decade now but I guess I just popped my cherry as far as joining this board. I don't know whether I'd always assumed one had to pay for membership or somehow get an invite, but today, I sought a little adventure, lo and behold, here I am.
As far as my demographic info goes, I'm a 37-year-old male from the U.S., Connecticut if anyone cares. I've done drugs my entire adult life. I started drinking at age 12, progressed into marijuana in the '90s and in with the new millennium came the oxy, cocaine and pretty much anything else. By 2003 I was snorting heroin. By 2008 I was shooting it.
I first discovered buprenorphine in a detox center in 2004 as Buprenex. Then after at least a half-dozen failed attempts at stopping heroin on my own I found Suboxone around 2005. I've been on and off of that stuff (in one form or another Suboxone/Subutex/buprenorphine) for the past 11 years. I used to take ridiculously high dosages (e.g. 16 mg per day) now I'm a firm believer in less is more. Some of my long lost pals over at Opiophile (may one in particular rest in peace) taught me that. Nowadays I probably use 1-2 mg doses of bupe spread out and I feel pretty decent. I think the junkie in me does this because I know I only have to wait a few hours before I can use whereas doing 8-16 mg per day, you would have to wait at least 48-72 hours before you'd feel even a little tickle (and I'd find most of that was in your head even if it was quality product).
My second-favorite drug of choice is cannabis. The problem I have is that I am drug tested in order to be on buprenorphine. I typically save up urine that is negative for all drugs except bupe metabolites and the testing facility lets you do your business behind closed doors. This way I can plan when I want to play and be good during certain times of the month and collect the proper specimen cups that I need. Connecticut, USA does allow for Medical Marijuana but it's tenuous whether or not I'd meet the criteria and this program that my insurance takes disallows any street drugs (even if you have your card they could not care less). My wife does have her card and now that she goes to the dispensary, man does she come home with some goodies. I'm totally grooving on those new vape pens they have now. A couple of puffs off of one of those and it will rock your world unless your tolerance is sky high.
I used to be nuts about benzos but they really created a world of shit for me, straight up! I am a black-out benzo user. I damaged a hard drive full of music, pictures, data and other items I can never replace. I've also almost gotten arrested while under the influence of things like Xanax or Klonopin. I hide personal possessions and I cannot find them. I've lost my wallet countless times. My main supplier finally moved to another state so perhaps it's all for the best. What's more, I was cut off by my prescribing doctor and since that was done and my psychiatric meds for my bipolar disorder were downsized and properly adjusted my libido has recovered and it's nice to feel alive again. Benzos, much more so than opiates, turned me into the laziest sack of shit so it's best that I not be exposed to them although I prefer them tenfold over alcohol.
As far as my drugs of choice go, alcohol is actually the runt of my litter. The only reason I've ever consumed it is because here in the U.S. it's cheap, legal and right around the corner. You see ads for beer where the consumer seems so happy. Not I. Opiates, marijuana and benzos are more my speed: in that order. I used to like uppers in my 20s until they started making me paranoid. I guess one's brain chemistry can change over time.
My story does not come without regrets, however. I've had a marriage complete with two kids that's suffered do to my dalliances with drugs. I've made many half-assed attempts at recovery, still, I cannot tell you how many bills have gone unpaid, how many prized possessions have ended up at the pawn shop, and how many friendships have ended up tarnished because of my utter selfishness. Still, drugs are like this bad girlfriend that does nothing but treat you like shit, yet, she gives you the best sex so you just keep coming back for more and more abuse. I don't know how else to put it. LOL
Anyhow, that's me, that's my story, and I'm sticking to it.
I went with limitless_euphoria on the off chance anyone from some of the other boards (probably the most notable one being Opiophile) that I used to be on might recognize me. If not, no big deal, here I am now. I've been sharing my war stories, drug knowledge and reading up on others' tales for well over a decade now but I guess I just popped my cherry as far as joining this board. I don't know whether I'd always assumed one had to pay for membership or somehow get an invite, but today, I sought a little adventure, lo and behold, here I am.
As far as my demographic info goes, I'm a 37-year-old male from the U.S., Connecticut if anyone cares. I've done drugs my entire adult life. I started drinking at age 12, progressed into marijuana in the '90s and in with the new millennium came the oxy, cocaine and pretty much anything else. By 2003 I was snorting heroin. By 2008 I was shooting it.
I first discovered buprenorphine in a detox center in 2004 as Buprenex. Then after at least a half-dozen failed attempts at stopping heroin on my own I found Suboxone around 2005. I've been on and off of that stuff (in one form or another Suboxone/Subutex/buprenorphine) for the past 11 years. I used to take ridiculously high dosages (e.g. 16 mg per day) now I'm a firm believer in less is more. Some of my long lost pals over at Opiophile (may one in particular rest in peace) taught me that. Nowadays I probably use 1-2 mg doses of bupe spread out and I feel pretty decent. I think the junkie in me does this because I know I only have to wait a few hours before I can use whereas doing 8-16 mg per day, you would have to wait at least 48-72 hours before you'd feel even a little tickle (and I'd find most of that was in your head even if it was quality product).
My second-favorite drug of choice is cannabis. The problem I have is that I am drug tested in order to be on buprenorphine. I typically save up urine that is negative for all drugs except bupe metabolites and the testing facility lets you do your business behind closed doors. This way I can plan when I want to play and be good during certain times of the month and collect the proper specimen cups that I need. Connecticut, USA does allow for Medical Marijuana but it's tenuous whether or not I'd meet the criteria and this program that my insurance takes disallows any street drugs (even if you have your card they could not care less). My wife does have her card and now that she goes to the dispensary, man does she come home with some goodies. I'm totally grooving on those new vape pens they have now. A couple of puffs off of one of those and it will rock your world unless your tolerance is sky high.
I used to be nuts about benzos but they really created a world of shit for me, straight up! I am a black-out benzo user. I damaged a hard drive full of music, pictures, data and other items I can never replace. I've also almost gotten arrested while under the influence of things like Xanax or Klonopin. I hide personal possessions and I cannot find them. I've lost my wallet countless times. My main supplier finally moved to another state so perhaps it's all for the best. What's more, I was cut off by my prescribing doctor and since that was done and my psychiatric meds for my bipolar disorder were downsized and properly adjusted my libido has recovered and it's nice to feel alive again. Benzos, much more so than opiates, turned me into the laziest sack of shit so it's best that I not be exposed to them although I prefer them tenfold over alcohol.
As far as my drugs of choice go, alcohol is actually the runt of my litter. The only reason I've ever consumed it is because here in the U.S. it's cheap, legal and right around the corner. You see ads for beer where the consumer seems so happy. Not I. Opiates, marijuana and benzos are more my speed: in that order. I used to like uppers in my 20s until they started making me paranoid. I guess one's brain chemistry can change over time.
My story does not come without regrets, however. I've had a marriage complete with two kids that's suffered do to my dalliances with drugs. I've made many half-assed attempts at recovery, still, I cannot tell you how many bills have gone unpaid, how many prized possessions have ended up at the pawn shop, and how many friendships have ended up tarnished because of my utter selfishness. Still, drugs are like this bad girlfriend that does nothing but treat you like shit, yet, she gives you the best sex so you just keep coming back for more and more abuse. I don't know how else to put it. LOL
Anyhow, that's me, that's my story, and I'm sticking to it.
