these torments move so quickly threw my head
i can't keep a thought and not sure which subject i am on.
there goes u
wow, there i am at 8-is that a demon? Opps no, just my father
and his red hot Old Grand Dad.
There was nothing i could do to get myself away from him
and here i sit, needing to get away from u...and not really wanting too
when do u say enough is just enough?
it took me 16 years to finally stand up to my donor and walk away...
walk away from the scares and bruises that "were only for my own good"
yeah i know they made me strong...but really-i could have gotten here without it..thank u
all the marks went away like u said they would...what do u know u old fuck!
i had to get the hell out-out of this god forsaken town that only pulled me down
down and out is what i was...hell i was an all state b-baller with a habit
no one minded it much...i kept winning...really?
ever see a chick with 30 point in 2 quarters and revive herself in the stall at half time...
yeah well it got me through...
through the misery that i couldn't tell....
how dare i cry or take that award winning smile off my face
yeah those couple of years after school are so much a blur...
just sitting here tryin to remember...
all i see is that night...oh that night..
it was the moment where everything was so clear
when for the first time i didn't think my father was that bad at all
wakin up i think was the worse part of that moment...
seeing my clothes...my blood...oh the bruises that made me wish for my fathers hatred
how could someone be so heartless
walking home was probably the shameless part of it...
holding it all (literally) together-walkin threw that door...to him
who could never understand that it wasn't my fault
i just wanted pizza
maybe thats why i don't remember ur face
sometimes in life the worse things can be so right...
sometimes...well only a couple of times...i have to thank that stranger
thank u-u tormented soul who will forever live with ur guilt...and for starting my sobriety
thank u-for takin my dignity-my pride-my hope and my security-for u saved my life...
but just remember its about the karma
B
i can't keep a thought and not sure which subject i am on.
there goes u
wow, there i am at 8-is that a demon? Opps no, just my father
and his red hot Old Grand Dad.
There was nothing i could do to get myself away from him
and here i sit, needing to get away from u...and not really wanting too
when do u say enough is just enough?
it took me 16 years to finally stand up to my donor and walk away...
walk away from the scares and bruises that "were only for my own good"
yeah i know they made me strong...but really-i could have gotten here without it..thank u
all the marks went away like u said they would...what do u know u old fuck!
i had to get the hell out-out of this god forsaken town that only pulled me down
down and out is what i was...hell i was an all state b-baller with a habit
no one minded it much...i kept winning...really?
ever see a chick with 30 point in 2 quarters and revive herself in the stall at half time...
yeah well it got me through...
through the misery that i couldn't tell....
how dare i cry or take that award winning smile off my face
yeah those couple of years after school are so much a blur...
just sitting here tryin to remember...
all i see is that night...oh that night..
it was the moment where everything was so clear
when for the first time i didn't think my father was that bad at all
wakin up i think was the worse part of that moment...
seeing my clothes...my blood...oh the bruises that made me wish for my fathers hatred
how could someone be so heartless
walking home was probably the shameless part of it...
holding it all (literally) together-walkin threw that door...to him
who could never understand that it wasn't my fault
i just wanted pizza
maybe thats why i don't remember ur face
sometimes in life the worse things can be so right...
sometimes...well only a couple of times...i have to thank that stranger
thank u-u tormented soul who will forever live with ur guilt...and for starting my sobriety
thank u-for takin my dignity-my pride-my hope and my security-for u saved my life...
but just remember its about the karma
B
