Mea Culpa

I cannot escape the feeling that I am simply letting everyone down. It's a poor thought but I feel like a disappointment to all at the moment.

I don't see my friends enough, I haven't really achieved enough this year, I'm always "just keep my head above water" at work. I've done some fucking stupid shit as well. Quite possibly a lot of this rests in my head, but I can't shake the feeling that people are seeing themselves as being second in my life. I don't feel good enough for a lot of things right now, and I just had to get that out.

I don't know how I'm going to get rid of this complex, but its eating at me right now. I feel like a fuckup. There is no comfort for me. No rest for the wicked.

 

Well, step 1 down. You know what is going on, what went on and where you need to be going. Find comfort on making steps towards positive changes in your life. even if you are still spinning your wheels a bit, it will help. It helped my bf.

 

C'est la vie...I've been at that point before.

 

:/ thanks for all the comments!