Thanks for the thoughts people, I always take on board what others say and value every opinion. I did not touch the dmt nor lyrica. I don't want to 'justify' my drug use but I only stick to compounds of natural origin and the mdma is synthed from a tree bark and if anything stops my psychosis dead in its tracks as long as I sleep and I suffer no rebound psychosis. Including Saturday I have only done mdma twice and dmt twice as of rehab last july. I do not take drugs to get high, I use them as a coping mechanism and means of escape. I do not have ordinary brain chemistry and drugs don't effect me as they do others, cannabis stops psychosis like nothing else and allows me to sleep and other than that I do not touch any other drugs other than those mentioned bar the odd opiate session. I wish I did not have to touch any drugs to be able to function, I don't even function on them but it makes the suffering just about manageable. I would love to go to bed at night without the aid of anything and feel safe and sleep through the night then wake up feeling refreshed, strong and able to work but I cant. When you have not been able to sleep at all for days on end and the demons are feeding off your suffering, you would want to escape that too right? There is only so much a person can take and to be honest I am surprised I am not back to be flat out on everything, its not often I have any restbite from suffering and I am doing my best as I know I am approaching the point of no return and I would rather die on my knees suffering than give my soul to junk again.