MDMA, severe comedown

[herbavore]

^Thanks for the update. I am glad that you are seeing such improvement. For the depression and anxiety have you ever tried simple breathing exercises like mindfulness meditation? It can be very powerful medicine to detach from your thoughts enough to watch them like an observer. When an anxious or negative thought comes into your mind, you can observe it, learn something about yourself, and let it go. It takes practice but for me at least, nothing has been more effective against anxiety.

 

[Maya]

^agreed with herby!

The derealization and depersonalization will go away in time. Give it more time and you'll feel better. I was worse than you tbh, it took me about a year to feel like back to myself. You are at 4.5 weeks and you are already better. I toughened it up too going through panic attacks etc but i believe you are already doing that. Keep up the healthy living and you will recover faster I promise you that!

 

[Allein]

I too have suffered with deralisation, I described this to a number of doctors over a good few years with no real response, it was BL that helped me understand.

It was central to my breakdown, I had become so disconnected and very frightened. For me some of this was driven by anxieties and other problems but the real problem was my reaction to the world.

Ive been of the view for a long time that what we call reality is just a convenient construct, giving a dumbed down and limited view of the real here and now. The realisation of a less stable reality can be overwhelming especially if you become anxious and distressed about it .

My view of things have not changed, I still experience odd visuals, odd audio and just plain odd but I accept these things as just the well established oddness of it all. From what I can tell many never acknowledge any of this, it doesnt make them less of a person but they will have difficulty understanding where you are at.

I hope that makes some sense and has a little relevance to your situation.