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School started and I might take the whole semester off. I cant stay up more than 16 hours cause my body starts hurting in many places. Damnit.

My ltc is going well but im still weak to sleep deprivarion, being hungry, being on medication or alcohol. why am I so sensitive
 
Hey guys. Since I also speak french because im from montreal I decided to make some research about this ltc phenomenon in the french world and stumbled across some frenchman who thook a ap. with one of the best neuros in france. So he went there and explained he used alot of drugs etc and told him about feeling bad after taking mdma. The neuro didnt really factor in all his usage. He told him the brain is making false signals mimicking how he felt at the start (Or the badtrip). He did lors of tests that were inconclssive. No damage nothing. It was an eye opener even tho we probably cant draw conclusion from that thread. Felt lile sharing.
 
I don't need this but I just stumbled across it. For people looking for possible suitable antidepressants. http://assurexhealth.com/products/

It looks like you need a dr's order but they seem to do some genetic testing to determine which antidepressants have the best chance of helping you...
 
ScaredFirstTimer said:
You mentioned in an earlier post that you smoke "weed that won't give you anxiety" or something. Do you still smoke that exclusively, or have you tried other stuff? I live in a country where this shit will never be legalized in any meaningful way, so I only have access to hash and some weed here and there.
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Ive done, coke, shrooms, acid and various forms of pot. The psychedelics dont exactly give me anxiety, but rather depressed because I still dont feel exactly right. Its weird. I wouldnt reccomend it. But weed is fine. I can smoke when ever and how ever much I want, does nothing I regret to me. Though Im not sure how It effects my DP still. That part is still there. So Im still questioning how much weed is really good for me.
 
Anyone get physical symptoms from their ltc? Ive been experiencing dry eyes dry skin dry tongue randomly, few days im ok and some days im not. I get chest and stomach pain. Digestion problems. Any advice?
 
Abovetheclouds96 said:
I had those exact issues and trust me they get better!! Im currently a little over 3 months into my recovery and I still occasionally have them, cause sometimes I have vision issues and severe tension headaches which kinda fuck with me when I'm trying to socialize, but the general social anxiety that I had greatly decreased. It started to get better around my 2 month mark so just hang in there! To be honest, xanax helps a lot too, but smoking weed and hangovers made it worse. Just take care of urself and learn ways to cope with the anxiety. I've found that some breathing exercises help somewhat
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Is Xanax really OK? How did the "comedown" feel when the Xanax effect disappeared and the anxiety returned?
 
Anyone getting the vision thing and dry tongue gums like i am? Did you guys get sny anwsers for those?
 
Thanks for the reply bro. Sucks cause it comes and goes. I get happy when it goes then sad again when it comes back.
 
g.real said:
Thanks for the reply bro. Sucks cause it comes and goes. I get happy when it goes then sad again when it comes back.
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Changing your way you think about the symptoms help there a lot! The fastes way to get rid of them is to welcome them. treat them as temporary companions. Try to not score them as bad symptoms. I know that may sound strange at first, especially when we got symptoms that really got physical, but thats all anxiety induced. If you learn to not observe them the whole time, they will disappear :)

Edit: You feel said when it comes and happy when it is not present?
You notice a symptom and feel bad: Stop for a second and consider what may be depressing you. Is it your interpretation that this will never go away or is some serious damage? If so, be safe your brain isnt damaged, you have just some bad anxiety/"LTC" induced symptoms.
It’s the thoughts that you have about these symptoms, that are affecting how you feel.

Hope this helps in someway

 
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Ok so people who experience the same thing i do. Dryness, vision problem, stomach and chest pain. Did they need to seek medical help or did it just go away with time?? I do try my best not to think about it. ive been trying to go out more despite my symptoms. Sometimes when im out and im in a good mood i still get them but i press on hoping it will stop sooner then later hoping it will just be a lesson learned and i will be able to move on. Thanks for the words. Any more advice opinions, tricks, or medicine whatever is welcome.
 
Is there anything that can be done to combat DP/Derealization?
I have started to work again a few hrs a day and im going on therapy 2 times a week.
But i dont think the therapy is gonna relieve derealization.
Ive only had massive dp in combination with panic attacks. Havent had that in 2 months tho.
Anyone? Its the worst feeling ever. Like reality/everything you like to do feels fake.
Im really struggling.. If you got out of it do you have any suggestions?
 
inzania said:
Is there anything that can be done to combat DP/Derealization?
I have started to work again a few hrs a day and im going on therapy 2 times a week.
But i dont think the therapy is gonna relieve derealization.
Ive only had massive dp in combination with panic attacks. Havent had that in 2 months tho.
Anyone? Its the worst feeling ever. Like reality/everything you like to do feels fake.
Im really struggling.. If you got out of it do you have any suggestions?
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Dissassociation was my worst symptom. I still deal with it on and off (I figured that I am just prone to it and I believe I had spells of it pre-LTC). The best way to deal with it is learning how to cope with it. I know how terrible it can feel and how scary it is but once you get over your fear of it, it really goes away and is quite manageable even when a spell pops up. CBT was instrumental in me learning how to cope with my DP/DR. Once I let my guard down, I slowly regained control over my life and consciousness. Once you learn to ignore it properly, it will go away.

I unknowingly gave myself a etiz habit last month after popping them for fun and not realizing that they would produce physical withdrawals. Needless to say, once I realized I was doing and that I was playing with fire, I quit cold turkey. I did not take very much or them for very long but I did get a few days of rebound anxiety and insomnia -which in turn triggered symptoms IDENTICAL to my LTC. As I had been down this road before with DP/DR, I knew exactly how to deal with it. After two days, I was fine. I am sure if these symptoms were new, I would go online and FREAK myself out and be stuck with a longer term episode of DP/DR.

It is all about your approach to dealing with the symptoms. I used to be a hypochondriac (which I am convinced lead directly to my LTC being so nasty). Anxiety is a real motherfucker and will convince you of things that do not exist.

I had to take a step back and convince myself that I was acting and thinking completely irrationally. I just waited it out wiht the help of CBT. Now I am fine and have the tools to overcome any anxiety that creeps up in my life from time to time.

Also, for those worried about being stuck in a disassociative state their entire lives (I sure was), my therapist said if your level of disassociation ebbs and flows throughout the day or week or month - then it will not be permanent, it is just a symptom of stress and anxiety.
 
Dawglaw said:
Dissassociation was my worst symptom. I still deal with it on and off (I figured that I am just prone to it and I believe I had spells of it pre-LTC). The best way to deal with it is learning how to cope with it. I know how terrible it can feel and how scary it is but once you get over your fear of it, it really goes away and is quite manageable even when a spell pops up. CBT was instrumental in me learning how to cope with my DP/DR. Once I let my guard down, I slowly regained control over my life and consciousness. Once you learn to ignore it properly, it will go away.

I unknowingly gave myself a etiz habit last month after popping them for fun and not realizing that they would produce physical withdrawals. Needless to say, once I realized I was doing and that I was playing with fire, I quit cold turkey. I did not take very much or them for very long but I did get a few days of rebound anxiety and insomnia -which in turn triggered symptoms IDENTICAL to my LTC. As I had been down this road before with DP/DR, I knew exactly how to deal with it. After two days, I was fine. I am sure if these symptoms were new, I would go online and FREAK myself out and be stuck with a longer term episode of DP/DR.

It is all about your approach to dealing with the symptoms. I used to be a hypochondriac (which I am convinced lead directly to my LTC being so nasty). Anxiety is a real motherfucker and will convince you of things that do not exist.

I had to take a step back and convince myself that I was acting and thinking completely irrationally. I just waited it out wiht the help of CBT. Now I am fine and have the tools to overcome any anxiety that creeps up in my life from time to time.

Also, for those worried about being stuck in a disassociative state their entire lives (I sure was), my therapist said if your level of disassociation ebbs and flows throughout the day or week or month - then it will not be permanent, it is just a symptom of stress and anxiety.
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Im actually thinking of buying The Linden Method. Not sure tho. My Dp/DR has calmed down the last 2 months, the "fluctuation" has been more of a getting better over time thing. I think its because i've become less anxious. I mean, i do cry some times due to "despair" of having it but i havent had a panic in maby 2 months. Thanks for the advice. Im glad im back to work even tho i feel like this. It gives me something to do during the day. DP/DR is the worst thing a person can suffer in my opinion. Only have Derealization ,dizziness and a low level constant headache. Thats how its been for a while. I dont even pay attention to the static "visual snow" anymore. Its the least bothersome part of this condition. Feel sad that ive had maby ocassions in 3 months snapping out of it. I've enjoyed those moment so much that i basically cryied every time. The moments lasted in avg 1 hr. When you say you know how to deal with it, how do you deal with it? And how did you notice improvement before you recovered?
 
For those who are scared like me that the eye floaters are permanent, they arent. When i'm on my adhd med, I see them and they are almost black, everywhere. When i'm relaxed, 90% go away. It's just anxiety or whatever is causing what we have. It's going to go away sometime. dont be scared
 
Kind of embarrassing but anyone else have dry skin? My balls have been cracking no matter how much lotion i put on and the skin around my eye brows as well almost everyday.
 
Some people have mentionnel dry skin yes. Try drinking crazy amounts of water if you didnt already try that.

We all get lots of different symptoms it seems. Me for example, my veins are HUGE when I get tired. I mean, they are probably near maximum size. When im tired I also have what seems to be nerve pain in my arms.

Symptoms come and go I'd say.
 
I have eye floaters on ocassion too me2point0. Or at least I notice them on occassion;).
We just have to get rid of the anxiety and all mental and physical symptoms get better/disappear. Sports, healthy diet, enough sleep combined with a CBT(The best way is to go to a therapist or at least trying to get the CBT working at home - google "Moodgym") is the best way to get out of this. After my nasty setback in December, where anxiety overwhelmed me after a huge hangover from drinking way to much im on a good way again. Life became so much easier again and I feel I got all tools in my hand I need for recovery.
With time, patience and a bit of work the life gets beautiful again :)
 
Anyone have high blood pressure? Also having shoulder blade pains. Anyway to help that or just a wait it out thing?
 
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