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MDMA (IV'd) -- First time -- Too complex

sparklr

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A box of needles, please: IV Experiences

So here goes:
I have just recently "gotten into" the beautiful but sadly stigmatized practice of injection. And heh, PhreeX, you are right, if nothing else, the ACT itself is addicting, regardless of drug. And maybe moreso for me, who is very driven by aesthetics and protocal: a certain perfectionism in the completion of task and detail. Blah, blah, blah. I'm a filmmaker.
After finishing an eightball of coke in three sittings in a period of a week, I stopped for a week. This week long span being my first foray into shooting myself up and maybe only the third time of ever having experienced IV anything.
And with coke, though I started relatively small, approximately 30 mgs, the rush is a rush, no doubt about it. But there's just something more about the smell of boiling cocaine in saline and soft cold alcohol swipe on your arm. The pierce into the aptly distended vein. And the sudden taste of a warm cocaine freeze as the edges of your tongue goes numb right before it hits.
The whole practice of injection is tactile and comforting.
After that break, I wanted to inject again, but out of an inability to obtain more cocaine, I decided to try MDMA. Not my first choice, not even really my second, basically it's something that I could get that I could inject...
...I don't regret it, but will almost positively never do it again.
I started with approx. 40 mg. You feel it, but you don't FEEL it. You don't feel anything. It disconnects you in the worst possible way. Especially if your expecting what you would from IV coke. It gives a qualitively opposite effect, overstimulating your vision and everything in a rote, mechanical way while rendering your ability for empathy and emotion useless. It's almost as if the drug is saying, "You want a fuckin rush, here you go, but you're not going to enjoy it". It's very disconcerting. After a while, I tried to cry in an attempt to illicit negative emotion in my desperation to feel something. It reminded me of the ahedonia (lack of motivation and caring) that goes along with depression.
The thing I find so refreshing about injection in general is it's inherent honesty. It's simple. And powerful. You know exactly what you're doing and for what reasons. I made a comment in Medical about chemical masterbation and that's what this is. And you acknowledge the fact. There is no, "I gotta get throught this shift" *sniff*sniff*. When you inject, you have one objective in mind.
But that's the thing about MDMA, it's not coke, it's not heroin. It's not any of the ADD simulants or opioid pharmacueticals. Some drugs are just designed for injection. Simple, but powerful where an increase in intensity will increase pleasureable affect. But MDMA is too complex. There are too many extraneous conditions it is dependant on. Aside from the chemical pharmacology of it. And all the intensity does nothing but leave the most important aspects behind.
It's somewhat comparable to track and football. The faster your runners are the better is your track team, you win. You can hire the fastest guys for the Dolphins, but if you don't have a smart coach or quaterback, if there are no good plays, if the linebacks can't block, you're not going to score. You'll just have alot of guys in the other team's end zone in a realtively short amount of time. Superbowl here we come!!!
So, I don't know how to conclude this. Well, how 'bout we just leave it at that?
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[This message has been edited by sparklr (edited 01 May 2001).]
 
Very nice. I read one other experience of IV MDMA. He just experienced really intense colors and said that it was really intense. Too intense, quite like your experience.
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The thing that I don't understand is why IV'd mdma is not the most empathetic experience of one's life?! Anyone have any pharmacalogical explanations as to why these needle fiends aren't running around hugging everyone?
 
i read a post here a few years ago by someone who injected an E (not pure MDMA). he said that the rush was overwhelming and that when he was lying on the floor unable (or unwilling?) to move he started crying.
 
I like IV'ing mdma, the initial rush does cloud your emotion, but I find it extremely pleasurable.
Most people don't seem to like it all the much, I don't get it though, I think it's wonderful!
=D
 
I tried this once, howeverI was already on LSD. I can some it made for on impressive candyflip=D 8( =D 8o :\ 8( :p :| :o Peace, Spinal
 
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