I did MDMA for the first time last night and had an extremely visual trip while rolling. I am very sensative to psychedelics. I did 35 hits of acid over 5 days back in September and basically rewired my brain. Even when I smoke pot it brings out the light acid visuals. I guess I have HPPD, but it doesn't bother or burden my life at all. But I guess any psych can bring out the visions. Anyway, on to this amazing experience. It will probably sound more like an acid or shroom trip, but it was just MDMA.
Whenever I try a drug for the first time I do it alone in a dark room with music pumping. I took out 4 pills which I planned to do through the night. A hefty dose for my first time. I started this out right around 1AM by chewing up and swallowing 2 pills. A friend told me it would be about 30-40 mins before i satrted to feel it. I started feeling them about 15-20 mins in. It kind of caught me off guard as I started notcing sparkles and patterns like I was coming up on acid. After about 45 minutes the euphoria hit with a rush and everything became soft and fuzzy. Trails started flowing. Every sensation felt amazing. I layed down in my bed and closed my eyes to take in the come up. This is when something really weird and totally unexpected happened. The euphoria left. I was still seeing and feeling everything, but it felt empty. I've dealt with fear and anxiety on psychs before, but I really wasn't expecting it on E. I kinda just layed there shivvering going through the sadness, despair type shit i've faced before when an acid trip went bad.
This was going on for about 10 minutes when in my mind I asked God why this was happening. "Why God? I'm just trying to understand why." I hadn't been paying attention to the music, but Tom Petty - Won't Back Down had come up on my Ipod. My ears caught the lyrics,
"Well I wont back down, no I wont back down
You can stand me up at the gates of hell
But I wont back down
Gonna stand my ground, wont be turned around
And Ill keep this world from draggin me down
Gonna stand my ground and I wont back down"
Then as clear as day everything stopped and through my internal dialogue God/me said "This moment."
The chorus of the song hit and the love of everything in existance, which is God to me, rolled through me. My teeth shook it felt like my whole body had an orgasm. I opened my eyes and saw nothing but love. Everything I looked at was beautiful. Anything I stared at I could look into. It was like LSD. The lines on my palms raised and swirled, danced, and smiled at me. The walls were flowing. It was like being on LSD but understanding and feelign the love behind every hallucination. The euphoria was overwhelming.
I got on a voice chat program to try and explain to my friend what was happening. I could barely speak I was so overwhelmed with euphoria. I remember thanking him for introducing me to E and that he was doing Gods work. I ranted about a bunch of stuff in my life and God and who knows what for a little bit. I'm positive it made no sense. I chewed up another pill.
I layed back down to enjoy the visuals and the euphoria. I'd go into tunnel vision and see all sorts of crazy shit. People, places, things, like I was watching a cosmic TV. At one point I felt this weight over my eyelids and this massive sphereical crystaline membrane encopased my vision. I've never smoked DMT, but I think it was the entrance I'd go through to the DMT space. I don't know why I thought that, it just seemed like I knew that's what it was. Every once and awhile everything in my vision, my body, everything, would atomize and I was floating towards a blackhole with thousands of them in the distance.
I saw entities watching me. I'd open my eyes and see something my chair give me a nod and zip away. Or pixie type things I've seen before on Salvia flying around. I held my hand out and one flew into my hand through my body and out of my other hand.
I went outside onto my balcony to cool off for a little bit. It was fairly cold out so it felt amazing to feel the wind against my overheating body. We had just gotten a little snow the day before, but it was melting and there were just sparatic clumps of it in the grass. Staring at them the piles of snow formed into corpses that turned and looked at me. I closed my eyes and looked again. This time the lawn was a battle field. There was a huge tribe of people slaying a beast. They had spears and were circling it and poking at it. This was really small scale, like the beast was the size of a skunk and people were way smaller. I don't know what it means, but it was one of the coolest hallucinations I've ever seen. It lasted about 10 seconds before the beast fell over and the visual faded. I figured after seeing this it was probably a good idea to head back inside. Nothing was overwhelming though. My heart rate felt fine. I felt calm, just flushed with euphoria and psychedelic visions.
I chewed up another pill and layed back down. Again more intense visuals rolled through me. I saw my reflection of my face in my hands. Anyone I thought of I could briefly visualize on the ceiling. I closed my eyes and saw people in tantric type sexual positions. Those visuals immediately morphed into a baby in a mothers womb. It represented the absolute product of love, life. I drifted off into ultimate love.
About 9 hours later I went to take a shower and was still feeling the rolls. When I closed my eyes I could see the water as bright lights and green vines grew up the walls of the shower. It was another amazing experience. I took a 2 hour nap then went to get some food. Came back and felt pretty lethargic most of the day. I slept for about 5 more hours and now feel great. This experience was the most amazinging thing to ever happen to me. It's right up there with my high dose lsd and dxm trips. I know it's not your typical E report, but this is what happened to me. The pills were pure mdma. I thought maybe they had been cut with acid or something, but I was assured they weren't. Here they are listed on pill reports: http://www.pillreports.com/index.php?page=display_pill&id=6026
Best experience of my life. I can't way to drop them again in a few weeks.
Whenever I try a drug for the first time I do it alone in a dark room with music pumping. I took out 4 pills which I planned to do through the night. A hefty dose for my first time. I started this out right around 1AM by chewing up and swallowing 2 pills. A friend told me it would be about 30-40 mins before i satrted to feel it. I started feeling them about 15-20 mins in. It kind of caught me off guard as I started notcing sparkles and patterns like I was coming up on acid. After about 45 minutes the euphoria hit with a rush and everything became soft and fuzzy. Trails started flowing. Every sensation felt amazing. I layed down in my bed and closed my eyes to take in the come up. This is when something really weird and totally unexpected happened. The euphoria left. I was still seeing and feeling everything, but it felt empty. I've dealt with fear and anxiety on psychs before, but I really wasn't expecting it on E. I kinda just layed there shivvering going through the sadness, despair type shit i've faced before when an acid trip went bad.
This was going on for about 10 minutes when in my mind I asked God why this was happening. "Why God? I'm just trying to understand why." I hadn't been paying attention to the music, but Tom Petty - Won't Back Down had come up on my Ipod. My ears caught the lyrics,
"Well I wont back down, no I wont back down
You can stand me up at the gates of hell
But I wont back down
Gonna stand my ground, wont be turned around
And Ill keep this world from draggin me down
Gonna stand my ground and I wont back down"
Then as clear as day everything stopped and through my internal dialogue God/me said "This moment."
The chorus of the song hit and the love of everything in existance, which is God to me, rolled through me. My teeth shook it felt like my whole body had an orgasm. I opened my eyes and saw nothing but love. Everything I looked at was beautiful. Anything I stared at I could look into. It was like LSD. The lines on my palms raised and swirled, danced, and smiled at me. The walls were flowing. It was like being on LSD but understanding and feelign the love behind every hallucination. The euphoria was overwhelming.
I got on a voice chat program to try and explain to my friend what was happening. I could barely speak I was so overwhelmed with euphoria. I remember thanking him for introducing me to E and that he was doing Gods work. I ranted about a bunch of stuff in my life and God and who knows what for a little bit. I'm positive it made no sense. I chewed up another pill.
I layed back down to enjoy the visuals and the euphoria. I'd go into tunnel vision and see all sorts of crazy shit. People, places, things, like I was watching a cosmic TV. At one point I felt this weight over my eyelids and this massive sphereical crystaline membrane encopased my vision. I've never smoked DMT, but I think it was the entrance I'd go through to the DMT space. I don't know why I thought that, it just seemed like I knew that's what it was. Every once and awhile everything in my vision, my body, everything, would atomize and I was floating towards a blackhole with thousands of them in the distance.
I saw entities watching me. I'd open my eyes and see something my chair give me a nod and zip away. Or pixie type things I've seen before on Salvia flying around. I held my hand out and one flew into my hand through my body and out of my other hand.
I went outside onto my balcony to cool off for a little bit. It was fairly cold out so it felt amazing to feel the wind against my overheating body. We had just gotten a little snow the day before, but it was melting and there were just sparatic clumps of it in the grass. Staring at them the piles of snow formed into corpses that turned and looked at me. I closed my eyes and looked again. This time the lawn was a battle field. There was a huge tribe of people slaying a beast. They had spears and were circling it and poking at it. This was really small scale, like the beast was the size of a skunk and people were way smaller. I don't know what it means, but it was one of the coolest hallucinations I've ever seen. It lasted about 10 seconds before the beast fell over and the visual faded. I figured after seeing this it was probably a good idea to head back inside. Nothing was overwhelming though. My heart rate felt fine. I felt calm, just flushed with euphoria and psychedelic visions.
I chewed up another pill and layed back down. Again more intense visuals rolled through me. I saw my reflection of my face in my hands. Anyone I thought of I could briefly visualize on the ceiling. I closed my eyes and saw people in tantric type sexual positions. Those visuals immediately morphed into a baby in a mothers womb. It represented the absolute product of love, life. I drifted off into ultimate love.
About 9 hours later I went to take a shower and was still feeling the rolls. When I closed my eyes I could see the water as bright lights and green vines grew up the walls of the shower. It was another amazing experience. I took a 2 hour nap then went to get some food. Came back and felt pretty lethargic most of the day. I slept for about 5 more hours and now feel great. This experience was the most amazinging thing to ever happen to me. It's right up there with my high dose lsd and dxm trips. I know it's not your typical E report, but this is what happened to me. The pills were pure mdma. I thought maybe they had been cut with acid or something, but I was assured they weren't. Here they are listed on pill reports: http://www.pillreports.com/index.php?page=display_pill&id=6026
Best experience of my life. I can't way to drop them again in a few weeks.
