Hey everyone this is my first report and first experience with MDMA so I am going to ask a few questions along the way, so please look out for them! Thank you 
The roll
I have been wanting to do MDMA for quite a while now and I finally got my hands of a strong 200mg pill, I wasn't even planning on doing it on this night but I took it just in case I felt like doing it. I have only had previous drug experience with weed and that is about it. So MDMA was a real big step for me, but I thought I was ready for it.
We got to the party at about 7:30 with three friends C, S & E. Only S knew I may do this tonight, well we got in and everything seemed really chill people sitting next to a bon fire, various groups all talking having beers and what not just all having a good time. It crept up to 9:00 and E & S convinced me to do it, they were both drinking along with everyone else, but they wanted me to have this experience with them around and not with others. I know a lot of people say that's a bad mix MDMA and alcohol, but I thought it was fine everyone was chilled and friendly so I decided to drop.
Not until about 9:45 I felt the come up. My vision was the first to go, every time I moved my head it felt like my eyes were not focusing on anything and took about 2 seconds or so to catch up to where I was. It felt fairly strange but I liked it, then I began to have a big fat grin on my face and shortly after that it felt like everything has been changed, colours were different people seemed totally different and I had a slight buzz around me. This is were I started to panic, I felt quite sick in my stomach and felt like I didn't want to be there, almost as if my body has felt the effects but my mind was rejecting it. But shortly after that bliss came about, I felt so good like a fire was inside my heart pounding with the music, all C, S & E found me and asked how I was going I just wanted to hug them and talk to them for hours, I now know what the bonding feels like, it was incredible I understood everyone, shame was no one else knew what I was going through. And soon the intense bliss after about 5 minutes of being on a high went really low I still felt great but it wasn't near how people explained it, (Basically my body didn't feel the intense euphoria everyone said to me) is that because it was only 100mg? But I still felt absolutely great, felt no social anxiety at all, I walked up to everyone at that party and talked to them, without me looking strange at all, I found my friend C, and talked to her for about 30 minutes and just wanted to keep going it was an unreal feeling! I know why they call it rolling, it feels like you have so much momentum within yourself you can do whatever you want.
After we talked for a bit more we decided to get to the park C, E and I we sat there looking up at the stars just talking it felt like we became so close that a real loving connection was made, even the day after I met up with them and still had it - was so weird but I liked it. I wish they had only experienced it with me, I hope the have an idea of what I feel.
Come down
It was about 11:45 when I started to come down, it felt like the night went in a blink of an eye, but I think it was due to the fact many of the people left around then. But I still had a positive glow around me.
That night I could not sleep until about 3:30am but it felt like I was awake but really I was dreaming and saw the time read 6:00am the next time I checked it. Was a terrible sleep, and the next day I had a nice afterglow but that soon faded by 3PM and I felt very tired and sluggish.
But everything was so worth it I felt so at peace and I feel so much closer to my friends, that I actually love them now!
-Spaced.
So was the reason I didn't feel that intense euphoria because of my dosage?
Or was it because it was my first time and I didn't know what to expect completely?
But all in all thank you for reading my report hope you enjoyed it.
The roll
I have been wanting to do MDMA for quite a while now and I finally got my hands of a strong 200mg pill, I wasn't even planning on doing it on this night but I took it just in case I felt like doing it. I have only had previous drug experience with weed and that is about it. So MDMA was a real big step for me, but I thought I was ready for it.
We got to the party at about 7:30 with three friends C, S & E. Only S knew I may do this tonight, well we got in and everything seemed really chill people sitting next to a bon fire, various groups all talking having beers and what not just all having a good time. It crept up to 9:00 and E & S convinced me to do it, they were both drinking along with everyone else, but they wanted me to have this experience with them around and not with others. I know a lot of people say that's a bad mix MDMA and alcohol, but I thought it was fine everyone was chilled and friendly so I decided to drop.
Not until about 9:45 I felt the come up. My vision was the first to go, every time I moved my head it felt like my eyes were not focusing on anything and took about 2 seconds or so to catch up to where I was. It felt fairly strange but I liked it, then I began to have a big fat grin on my face and shortly after that it felt like everything has been changed, colours were different people seemed totally different and I had a slight buzz around me. This is were I started to panic, I felt quite sick in my stomach and felt like I didn't want to be there, almost as if my body has felt the effects but my mind was rejecting it. But shortly after that bliss came about, I felt so good like a fire was inside my heart pounding with the music, all C, S & E found me and asked how I was going I just wanted to hug them and talk to them for hours, I now know what the bonding feels like, it was incredible I understood everyone, shame was no one else knew what I was going through. And soon the intense bliss after about 5 minutes of being on a high went really low I still felt great but it wasn't near how people explained it, (Basically my body didn't feel the intense euphoria everyone said to me) is that because it was only 100mg? But I still felt absolutely great, felt no social anxiety at all, I walked up to everyone at that party and talked to them, without me looking strange at all, I found my friend C, and talked to her for about 30 minutes and just wanted to keep going it was an unreal feeling! I know why they call it rolling, it feels like you have so much momentum within yourself you can do whatever you want.
After we talked for a bit more we decided to get to the park C, E and I we sat there looking up at the stars just talking it felt like we became so close that a real loving connection was made, even the day after I met up with them and still had it - was so weird but I liked it. I wish they had only experienced it with me, I hope the have an idea of what I feel.
Come down
It was about 11:45 when I started to come down, it felt like the night went in a blink of an eye, but I think it was due to the fact many of the people left around then. But I still had a positive glow around me.
That night I could not sleep until about 3:30am but it felt like I was awake but really I was dreaming and saw the time read 6:00am the next time I checked it. Was a terrible sleep, and the next day I had a nice afterglow but that soon faded by 3PM and I felt very tired and sluggish.
But everything was so worth it I felt so at peace and I feel so much closer to my friends, that I actually love them now!
-Spaced.
So was the reason I didn't feel that intense euphoria because of my dosage?
Or was it because it was my first time and I didn't know what to expect completely?
But all in all thank you for reading my report hope you enjoyed it.
