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Mcat help needed, if you could take a look id appriciate it a lot.

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purple43

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Ok, so.... yes, another Mcat post.
First of all let me tell you a little about me
Im a 21 year old guy, about 10st3 and really dont often take drugs. i think im my time iv had about 3 pills, 1 mcat pill once, 2 mushroom sessions and very rarely smoke weed so i am far from a drug taker.

Anyway. last june (2009) i was at my mates house and he got us some pills to take that night. They were capsules with a white power in them, and were told they were MDMA (we later found they were Mcat) .

So, after taking a pill... usual mcat effects... we took another one each about 4-5 hours later. This one really didnt go well and ended up a bit of a drugged mess.

So the next day, usual sort of side effects but like a lot of other people on here they didnt go away after a few days. I was dizzy, anxious, depressed, generally exhausted and felt like i was losing my mind. i wasnt comfortable around other people really.. unless they were my friends, but even then didnt quite feel myself. this then went on for atleast a few months! (by which point my friends were completely back to normal) but i wasnt.

Talking to them they say it was the drugs in the first few days, but from then on its been my mind playing tricks on me, my anxiety making it worse and basically its me being a worrier. I can sort of believe this but im not convinced.

Anyway, 9 months down the line, i still dont think im 100% now. I get moments where i feel normal and moments where i feel aweful again. When my mind destracted, i dont really feel too bad, but could that be because im destracted from it?
Basically, i cant work out if there is something wrong with me, and i CAN take my mind off it which makes it go away for a while... OR...there is nothing wrong with me, but when i think about it or get reminded of it (coz i do worry about it alot) .. my mind gives me the feelings and makes me feel not right.

something i can go a few days feeling normal, then something reminds me of it and im right back where i started.

I would love an outsiders point of view guys, would really help.

part of me feels like its myself just being a worrier and i make myself feel weird coz im looking around to see if im dizzy and what not.. the other half is convinced that this one night has really messed me up :( ..


any advice/ ideas?
 
hiya

I went through the same thing. I had a terrible experience with it which lasted for about a week after, but 9 months down the line, I still have moments of anxiety. I think I was so worried about permanent damage, it triggered anxiety.

It does get better, and I am now pretty much back to normal with anxious moments very rarely, if ever. Whenever I thought about how I haven't had one for a while, it came on. This lasted for about six months or so.. when all my other friends were completely back to normal, but I wasn't.

Talk about it with someone to get it off your chest, then try not to think about it at all. Put it straight to the back of your mind (easier said than done I know, but try).

It will get better.

Hope you feel better soon. x
 
the only mcat i know of is the medical college admission test...what is it? google won't help me here =(
 
Hey purple, first of all, welcome to Bluelight :)

Mcat is such a relatively new drug that we don't know a whole heap about it. But from what I've read, it can have some pretty nasty side effects, which you are obviously experiencing first-hand.

Any stimulant drugs can trigger already underlying mental health problems, so in your case it sounds like mcat may have brought on or exacerbated an anxiety issue. These kinds of problems can just go on and on, and even get worse as time progresses, if they aren't treated.

But the good news is that anxiety can be treated. If you're still having troubles this far down the track since you last used the drug, I would suggest you go and see your doctor and explain the situation. They will hopefully have a few options for you to try in terms of treatment.

One last question for now: Are you using any other drugs at all at the moment?? You mentioned that you occasionally smoke weed? Even that could be making it worse so it might be a good idea to lay off that for now too.

Good luck, and let us know how you go <3
 
thanks for the comments guys. to answer n3ophy7e .. i literally have maybe half a join ..once a month, if that! so i dont think that is effecting it. and am not taking any other drugs ( the last one was a small bit of MDMA at new year.)

as for seeing a doctor i really cant work out if it is neccesery. Its like i said, sometimes i feel completely fine , but then suddeny something will remind me and i'll suddenly start to feel all weird again. All my life my family have joked about me being a hypocondriac (spelling?) .. and im starting to wonder if maybe thats the problem! the mind is a powerful thing and i could just be inducing these feelings on my own, purly by looking for them and worrying about them. I just dont know :( .. .. but im slap bang in the middle of university at the moment so would really rather avoid a doctors treatment programme if at all possible!

hope to hear more from you guys, thanks.
 
purple43 said:
as for seeing a doctor i really cant work out if it is neccesery. Its like i said, sometimes i feel completely fine , but then suddeny something will remind me and i'll suddenly start to feel all weird again. All my life my family have joked about me being a hypocondriac (spelling?) .. and im starting to wonder if maybe thats the problem! the mind is a powerful thing and i could just be inducing these feelings on my own, purly by looking for them and worrying about them. I just dont know :(
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I can definitely relate to that because I do the same thing sometimes! Especially if my boyfriend isn't around to reassure me and bring me back to earth.

Basically in my opinion the general rule of thumb is that if you feel that your mental condition is negatively impacting your every day life to the extent that it's impeding your normal functioning, you should seek help. Do you think this applies to you?
 
9 months after taking LSD for the second time I was actually at my lowest point in that struggle, consider yourself on the lucky side of unlucky. :) Keep up a healthy lifestyle and I'm sure you'll keep on getting better. You may just have an anxiety disorder, which the Mephedrone brought out (perhaps), and I'm sure your overall drug history (albeit limited) could also be playing a role. I'm at 22 months now, and I can still feel the side effects, especially if I haven't been keeping healthy or have been using too many drugs. It's all about living healthy consistently and looking on the bright side, things are getting better and they should continue to do so!
 
hi, just a quick question, i went out on the weekend and done some mephedrone powder, i am just wondering what it is usually cut with? as i still feel like crap!!!and i took it friday night, i usually take pills etc every weekend so think i may be allergic to whatever it was cut with!! thanks xx
 
^^ Hi li33ie, welcome to Bluelight <3
Mephedrone itself doesn't usually cause bad comedowns with relatively newcomer users (obviously this can change with increased frequency/prolonged usage of the drug). But mephedrone(4mmc) belongs to a group of substances called cathinones, most of which are very very similar to chemical structure and effects to meph, but can have nastier side effects/comedowns. So chances are you got one of these other substances instead of meph. It might not have even been purposefully sold under the guise of mephedrone, apparently in the manufacturing process it's relatively easy to accidentally make one of the other nastier substances without knowing.

How are you feeling now?? Please be careful when taking any drug sold off the street or in nightclubs etc. Sometimes you really just do not know what you're getting, which can obviously be potentially very dangerous. Take care <3
 
Mephedrone isn't usually cut with anything because it is SO cheap to buy in bulk online that dealers can simply bump up the price 300% and it still seems worthwhile to the unknowing casual club users. Probably a bad reaction to Mephedrone itself, or as Neo said, you got a different drug. I wouldn't count out you just having a bad comedown from pure Mephedrone though, I can tell you I had some serious comedowns and side effects the first few times I used it, whereas I seemed to gain a tolerance to the side effects as I used it more frequently.
 
Hey!
I went through the same sort of thing post mdma binges :( took me I would say about 6 months to be nearly recovered. I was searching the net furiously I never thought I'd get better I had severe anxiety. A real turning point for me was getting healthy and taking a a vitamin b supplement. I read it was supposed to be good for anxiety and it worked. You will get better so don't worry!
 
wow, great advice junglefever. Thanks alot, i will try that 2morrow. I have been racking my brain to try and come up with a way to describe how im feeling because im not even sure it is anxiety (dont know what it feels like so who knows!) ... the best way i can think to describe it is like being tipsy. where your head feels fluffy, your a little dizzy and generally light headed. I think thats the best way i can describe what i feel like most of the time..?
 
...Im worried iv developed a really bad anxiety problem and the more i worry about it the worse it will get. ..but i dont know what to do.. i exercise regularaly (2 hours, 5 days a week) ... but the more it effects me, the more i worry...and the more i worry, the more it effects me! :(
 
infestedpasta said:
So stop worrying... Duh. :)
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Oh wow, if only it was that easy!!! :D


purple, if you're still really struggling with the anxiety it might be worth thinking about going to see a therapist, or even just your doctor, to talk to them about it. I know you said before that you're not sure you need to get help about this? But it sounds like you're really not coping very well and you absolutely do not have to suffer with this hun <3
 
purple43, I feel like we are the same person. Im completing a degree as well, and have had several run ins with meph.. one time where i binged and felt like I was ODing. The first tie I did it I felt fine... only done it bout 5 times over 3 months but know what u mean. where u feel dizzy and light headed but then think im actually fine.. its weird and cant describe it. however I think that it is all psychological. my reasoning for this is that I check these forums sometimes feeling fine, then Ill see a thread about meph problems and Ill get that weird dizzy anxiety. I think it stems from me worrying about my health (always been into health) and just being overly critical about the safety of such a new drug and also my mild mdma use. u gota think tho if u feel anxiety... think about when u just wake up and you are completely relaxed, obviously the anxiety is not there at one stage so if u get relaxed it goes away. feel free to pm me or w/e, I feel I am experiencing similar if not the same problem as u.
 
I sampled it last year before taking any organic. I'm gonna do it for real in June. It's not as hard as people make it out to be, but expect to expect anything.

This thread is for the support of people who have had bad experiences with mcat/4mmc, NOT for encouraging its use/abuse! If you would like to share your enthusiasm for this particular drug please do so in Other Drugs, not in The Dark Side. Thanks - n3o
 
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hmmm, tried to pm you strobmylobe but it wont let me coz im only a greenlighter..pshh ..any other way of having a chat? might help us both out!
 
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