Trippy information today, literally haha. It's almost 11am Tuesday, I'll be working the afternoon shift today. It turns out both Dave and Erik came through. Dave said $30 for 1/8 gram of very potent shrooms and that's good, although what's better is that Erik said he got iboga. I've been doing more research, apparently the dose is much higher than I thought. As I said earlier, the point is not to start my drug using career all over again, but for personal growth and also as a last thought my physical addiction to ultram. I'm still down to 4 pills a day merely to feel normal. Iboga could help with that, but I want to get to healthy eating habits without furthur self sabatoge on my part. It will help Erik tremendously with the methadone addiction so if he wants, he can be methaDONE. The dose of ibogaine is 25 mg/kg so for me the correct dose would be 1.5 to 2 grams.
I don't know if Erik is coming here, if I'm going to Van, or if we'll both have to do our respective doses separately, I don't know, due to the travel issues. I'll have to wait and see what he says, although everyone online seems to agree on the fact the person or people doing it really should have a sober baby sitter. Again, I guess I'll wait and see, but if I can't do it with Erik or he can't come to me, I'll probably rent a motel room for a couple days, as I really don't want to have to be confronted with my Mom while under the influence. I think the ibogaine would be more helpful to me in the long run, for sure for Erik, and everyone I talked to online says that some type of on going after care will be necessary to remain drug free, either therapy or NA. I'll do NA, Erik will most likely pick therapy, if he does either one. I hope this comes to pass because I really want both of us to heal from our disorders.
It's always good to hear from Kupid. Hope he liked me V-day card, it was sort of home made with pictures I printed and a broken heart. Otherwise things are pretty generic. I heard from the student loan guy, he said they got the required papers I sent them. I just want this to be over. Please God, let me continue making the $50/month payments as that's all I can bloody afford because I'm so poor! Not much else to report at the moment. I missed last night's NA meeting because I didn't fall asleep until 1:00pm and didn't wake up until about 11:00pm, so I'll probably catch the last 20 minutes of the Tuesday night meeting. Guess that's about it for now. I love you, Erik!
I don't know if Erik is coming here, if I'm going to Van, or if we'll both have to do our respective doses separately, I don't know, due to the travel issues. I'll have to wait and see what he says, although everyone online seems to agree on the fact the person or people doing it really should have a sober baby sitter. Again, I guess I'll wait and see, but if I can't do it with Erik or he can't come to me, I'll probably rent a motel room for a couple days, as I really don't want to have to be confronted with my Mom while under the influence. I think the ibogaine would be more helpful to me in the long run, for sure for Erik, and everyone I talked to online says that some type of on going after care will be necessary to remain drug free, either therapy or NA. I'll do NA, Erik will most likely pick therapy, if he does either one. I hope this comes to pass because I really want both of us to heal from our disorders.
It's always good to hear from Kupid. Hope he liked me V-day card, it was sort of home made with pictures I printed and a broken heart. Otherwise things are pretty generic. I heard from the student loan guy, he said they got the required papers I sent them. I just want this to be over. Please God, let me continue making the $50/month payments as that's all I can bloody afford because I'm so poor! Not much else to report at the moment. I missed last night's NA meeting because I didn't fall asleep until 1:00pm and didn't wake up until about 11:00pm, so I'll probably catch the last 20 minutes of the Tuesday night meeting. Guess that's about it for now. I love you, Erik!