olypen
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Mar 5, 2015
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Fortunately/unfortunately?, I'm not out on the Olympic Peninsula anymore. I mean I LOVE that place just too much PM/dark/temptation for me.. So I'm currently in a "flyover" state that opted out of the Obamacare/expansion of Medicaid and decided to sue the Federal Government instead. So unlike Washington, where being unemployed would instantly get me free health care and foodstamps, I still have to pay $118 a month and make all the co-pays associated with my marketplace purchased healthcare plan. So that is $30 every time to see the shrink/sub doc/regular doc, $30 lab copays, and $10/35/100 (depending on the med) for prescriptions. I could have switched to an $80 a month plan that had 50/50% coinsurance on a lot of things, like lab work, but I've had like $1500 in labs alone in the last few months... Thanks FREEDOM!!
BTW I did end up being terminated and I applied for unemployment. The termination letter seemed to throw everything they could think of as a reason, all of it BS IMO. But I looked at the appeal process and if they do choose to fight it, I'm allowed to subpoena people and documents with no serving cost to me. So I should at least be able to find out all sort of information and make a lot of people actually testify against me in court because their reasoning was so broad and generally crappy.
I'm OK with it though. I'm actually not angry or feeling vengeful or anything, that's just self destructive bullshit. I didn't really enjoy the work anymore, even though the money was good. I've always been the guy that shit just ends up working out for in the end, somehow, usually with some support from family. Maybe this time is different and I will learn some important life lesson. It'll be what it's supposed to be.
I have my rent paid up through August, 60 days clean on Thursday and all my problems are first world problems. I filled out the federal application for student loans in addition to unemployment. Maybe it's finally time to go back to grad school, I had a 3.9 GPA and was published as an undergrad. Perhaps I'll find an entirely new profession making more or less money that I actually enjoy? Maybe I'll end up couch surfing with my shit in storage? At this point I know for certain I'll always have places to stay, health insurance, cell phone and a nice tablet with LTE service. My civic with only 90k on it probably is going to keep running a while too.
Sorry I'm so verbose, but I'm feeling fine and still working my program. My sponsor is making me hit more AA meetings to get used to the idea of using the meetings available to me at the time, instead of only waiting for say an 8pm NA meeting and meeting more people. It's uncomfortable but I knew this wasn't going to be easy.
6 and 2/3rd months off buprenorphine here
muchto everyone
Congrats man! Awesome for you. I've noticed as I've decreased my dose of Suboxone thoughts of having a drink or two have crept into my head. It's strange, as I've never really been a big drinker, more like a binge drinker. Binge drinking always leads to craving opiates
Just curious if you had this happen? I don't want to completely stop the subs before I'm ready, but I don't think I need to be at 24mg a day like I did in the beginning...lately I've been doing 8 a day and then 16 the next..when the runny nose/tired feeling kicks in. Days I do 16 I don't really do them right either. Like I smoke, talk, swallow the spit ect.. thinking about going 8/12 , 6/8 ect... until I get to a point where I feel like the cravings are managed and I'm far enough in my recovery to be strong enough to stay clean before I jump totally off them.
